Will of chaos

After talking to so many people about the Soul in the coffin and discussing the various problems we still have to solve, I finally end my day sitting on the bed with a bottle of divine blood drink in my hands, a bottle capable of holding an ocean.

“That was a long day…” (me)

*Sigh*

I was tired, mentally and physically exhausted, but more than anything, I was emotionally drained.

“Father, why do you strive so hard?” (Lilith)

“Growing up means having responsibilities, there are people who count on me and promises that must be kept.” (me)

“What’s the point of continuing? War is by far one of the best at taking care of this universe, I don’t feel like going against them.” (Lilith)

“Their concept is conflict, but as far as I understand, they don’t start many wars on their own and aren’t cruel without reason.” (me)

“Exactly, leave everything to them, let’s go after those who truly deserve our attention.” (Lilith)

“Like who…?” (me)

“Like the woman in prison, that Ascendant did horrible things, we should cut her flesh with her sensitivity increased 100 times, tear out her organs and give them to her to eat, torture her mind with the same experiments she made others suffer…” (Lilith)

“You can stop there, I already understood, so this time it was cruelty…” (me)

I look to the side of my bed where my sweet and maniacal daughter was with that sadistic smile saying atrocities that could terrify anyone who listened, but it turns out that Lilith didn’t follow me to leave our universe, it would be impossible for her to be here. This was another illusion, I feared exactly this, I’m still hallucinating, but this time it was different, it wasn’t about that woman, so the type of obsession had changed, before it was something general affecting the targets of each person’s greatest obsession, but now it was different, it was pure cruelty and it symbolizes this with the cruelest individual I know.

“When did it start…?” (me)

I let the false Lilith talk non-stop about her methods of torture, unfortunately she really looks a lot like my daughter, someone sadistic and cruel to anyone she considers deserving of torment.

I started thinking about the day and it was easy to see the signs, whispers I heard, glimpses in the corners of my eye that I ignored, weak presences around me and several other things.

I knew the reason for this, it was a fear I had, but there was nothing I could do about it, this energy inside me was attacking me from the inside out, but it was much weaker compared to what I felt before and more subtle.

“(I hope this doesn’t last long…)” (me)

———————-

The next 2 days were intense, I couldn’t truly rest, during the day I saw illusions and hallucinations, both visual and auditory.

I saw everything from my wives naked around me with flushed faces to the screams of terror of my children, I saw the world crumble and I saw my body being tortured.

The hallucinations were very realistic, but they couldn’t deceive me, it was difficult to see and hear all this, even my sense of time was being affected.

I tried to isolate myself when I realized what was happening, I stayed in my room without leaving and told no one to bother me, I needed to finish refining this energy to end this.

I couldn’t sleep, there was nothing I could do about it, once Ibuki came to see me and when I looked at her face I saw wounds, decay and bones, an unrecognizable face.

I was sad to see this even knowing I was hallucinating, so I asked Ibuki not to look for me until everything was over. Two days later.

I was sitting cross-legged, meditating, with nothing to do, unable to see or talk to anyone, and unable to leave this room. There was nothing left to do but endure these hallucinations and this energy trying to mess with my mind.

Thinking about all this, I went back to the basics, I started meditating again, clearing my mind and calming my emotions. This was incredibly effective, and thanks to it, I accelerated the process of refining this energy, affecting my body less. With that, my injuries began to heal faster.

After these two days, the energy was finally completely refined. My mind was no longer affected as before, my body was also completely in shape, but my mind was exhausted like few times in the past, my soul was also worn out by all this.

I concentrate on my inner self, I see a jewel similar to a diamond, it was dark green and seemed to contain something moving inside. I reach my hand into my chest and when I pull it out, I was already holding that jewel the size of my fist. It was possible to feel the power of the Concept in this jewel.

“Obsession, such a comprehensive Concept… but still a branch of madness, which is also a branch of Chaos…” (me)

“It’s finally over…” (me)

“Master…” (Hinata)

“…” (me)

Suddenly, Hinata appears from inside me and brings in her arms the crystal containing the silhouette of a formed fetus. I remember her showing me this before, but I really wanted to believe it was false.

“Hinata… found it…” (Hinata)

“(It doesn’t seem alive, it doesn’t even seem like a Concept like the crystal in my hands.)” (me)

“Thank you…” (me)

I put away the fetus and the crystal before stroking Hinata’s head, who shows no emotion on her face.

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Several hours have passed since I finished refining that thing, and I came to check on how everyone is doing, which was a big mistake since a large amount of work arose, reports to listen to, and also people to meet.

That night I almost crawled back to the room where I threw myself onto the bed planning to get some sleep.

“Lord, why do you work so hard?” (Samara)

“I could never stand still watching work left unfinished.” (me)

Samara came to me, helping me up, but I wasn’t happy about it; she had a stack of papers in her hands.

“What’s the problem this time?” (me)

“Nothing that can’t be solved later, sir, you need to rest, and Lady Diana threatened to rip my arm off if I couldn’t get you to sleep.” (Samara)

“She would definitely do that.” (me)

I lay down on the bed and Samara covered me. My mind hadn’t been able to rest since the battle; I really needed some rest. I hadn’t even been able to sleep for the past three days.

“Good night, my lord…” (Samara)

“(Finally, bed… sweet bed…)” (me)

Feeling the softness of the bed and how pleasant the blanket was, it didn’t take long for my eyelids to feel as heavy as mountains. Even if I didn’t need to sleep like a god, this was still an excellent way to rest my mind.

———————–

When I opened my eyes, I saw an ocean of stars like a mirror of water below serving as the ground, while above, millions of distant planets could be seen with their own individualities.

With each step I took, only a slight ripple formed that didn’t spread. My mind was light and my heart was calm, yet I felt guided in a certain direction where I saw something floating in the sea of ​​stars.

It was shattered and radiating such a lamentable energy. My hands moved on their own, collecting the pieces one by one before putting them back together as if it were a puzzle.

What was revealed in the end was an image that seemed to move on its own; it was a woman with her back turned, her hands reaching for the starry heavens, while at her feet lay endless bones. The woman’s figure was small amidst the immensity, demonstrating a cold and desolate solitude.

That’s when I realized something was still missing, a small fragment that was actually right in front of the woman’s hand, as if it wasn’t the stars she was trying to reach, but rather what was missing from that missing fragment.

I didn’t even need to look closely; near my foot was a fragment that looked like a tiny splinter. What was on that fragment was a child wrapped in a cloak.

As soon as I put that fragment in place, all the previously separated fragments joined together into a single piece, and the image moved. The woman, surrounded by the stars, held the child in her arms as she turned, her face hidden by her hair which reflected the stars, while tears of blood streamed down her face, falling onto the bones below, causing a forest to emerge from the desolation of bones.

In her arms, the child was held like the greatest of treasures, and its lips smiled at the woman with an innocence that contrasted with the woman’s sadness.

“Good and evil are reversed… right and wrong represent the same vision… all things complement each other… may a woman find warmth in embracing her child… may a child find comfort in the arms of its mother…” (me)

Suddenly, something came to mind, a poem I wrote in my past life for a school assignment. I didn’t even remember it until now, and suddenly those words on that crumpled piece of paper became so clear in my mind that I spoke them without thinking. My words echoed, and it was as if the woman could hear me; her head turned towards me, she bowed to me, and a Rune formed above her. Within it was the meaning of ‘Celestial,’ while the woman’s tears of blood turned golden, and the scene I had created sank among the stars, leaving me wandering aimlessly once more.

I was dreaming, my mind wandering endlessly, and suddenly flames erupted, burning the planets above and disturbing my dream when a hostile presence appeared above.

“Who disturbs my sleep…!” (me)