Chapter 693: Envy and desire, all in one body

Cass felt like he was a beast, with a group of beasts watching fresh meat as he stood there, staring at Lucian. Gideon’s heartbeat was against his ear, staccato but strong and Edgar was lying on his stomach, his feet up in the air and his head resting on his elbows on the bench. His feet swayed lightly as they all watched Lucian.

Lucian’s eyes were bright, scanning between the three men. His smile was mischievous and full of life. It was clear that he liked them watching him which only made Cass feel less like a creep.

Lucian’s hand pulled his shirt out from where he’d tucked it into the band of his pants, his eyes curling at the corners as he let it fall. The flowy fabric covered up more than it revealed and Cass felt his brow furrow slightly. Lucian let out a light laugh, his chest rising and falling as he shook his head. He waited a beat, then reached for the bottom of it and with one fluid motion, reached down, wrapped his hand in the fabric and yanked it up and over his head.

Cass watched him, taking in every inch of skin he revealed like it was something holy. It didn’t matter that he’d seen it plenty. Did looking at something pretty get old? Cass didn’t think so. People loved looking at works of art, loved preserving them. This felt very much the same to him.

Lucian pulled the shirt off of his body, tossing it to the side without much care as he exposed not only his pecs and abs, but his arms, his forearms, his hands. The sides of his body, and that fucking waist. Cass just wanted to reach for him and grab him, squeeze him, bite him.

Cass stopped that last thought. He couldn’t do that when Lucian couldn’t do the same. That would be testing the man in a cruel way when he was doing his best to be honourable.

Gideon’s shaky breath out had Cass pausing his thoughts and turning towards the man to look at him. What he saw on Gideon’s face made Cass stop breathing for a moment.

Gideon looked...conflicted. There was such a poignant look of conflict there that Cass felt like he shouldn’t be looking at him.

"Giddy?" Cass breathed and Gideon jerked. He turned his gaze down towards Cass, his cheeks flushing as the look faded. It was clear that he was thinking something and Cass was just curious as to what it was.

"Yes, Cass?" Gideon asked and Cass continued to watch him, his brows slightly furrowed.

"Are you alright?" Cass asked and Gideon opened his mouth to say he was fine, Cass could see it in his eyes, but he halted. Then he looked away from Cass and let out a soft exhale. He stared at Lucian, who had halted, watching them back.

"I-I’m fine. Just...grappling with something." Gideon muttered.

"What is it?" Edgar’s voice from behind Gideon came, and they both turned slightly to look down at the man on the bench. "Come on, Giddy. You’re among friends here." Edgar meant his words, even if there was a teasing light to his blue eyes. God, he looked like a monster, his eyes glowing and dangerous.

Cass shivered. He just wanted to climb on top of him and push him down against the cushions of the bench and slide his body against his, naked.

Cass flushed at the thought and had to look away from Edgar for a moment.

"Is this bothering you?" Lucian asked, curious. Edgar let out a small, cute growl.

"Don’t you dare stop." He ordered. Lucian’s lips curled up in delight.

"Oh, are you that eager to see me naked, Eddie Weddie? That’s cute." Lucian tossed him a wink and Edgar let out another small growl.

"Listen, I-" Edgar began but Cass cut him off.

"I like watching." Cass said softly, and Lucian’s gaze turned to Cass as his face burned and Edgar turned his body to look at him as well. Cass swallowed. "I like it. A lot." Cass revealed, glancing at Gideon. He had a feeling this might be what Gideon was thinking, but he wasn’t sure.

When he met Gideon’s gaze, the man’s eyes were soft enough to melt him entirely. Gideon sighed, pulling Cass closer to him even though they were still holding each other.

"I could eat you up." Gideon muttered softly. All three of the others in the room could hear him because of their better hearing, but Cass didn’t want to say that. "Thank you." Gideon whispered before he pulled back so that he was able to meet the eyes of the others. "I was just having a personal conflict. An internal one." Gideon admitted. Lucian frowned, shifting his feet so that his legs were wide, braced, and he crossed his arms.

Cass nearly drooled at the way his fucking chest bounced and Cass was only not a damn pervert because Gideon was holding onto him.

"Can I help?" Lucian asked. "It feels like I might be at fault in some way." He said and Gideon smiled softly.

"You’ve done nothing wrong, I was just..." Gideon’s face warmed. He coughed. "I was just wondering if I wanted to be like you, or be with you." Gideon muttered. Cass blinked while Lucian’s face smoothed out.

"Ah." Lucian nodded sagely. It was clearly not the first time he’d heard that and that only made Gideon more flustered.

"Oh Giddy." Edgar muttered softly.

"Why choose?" Lucian offered. Cass stared at him and the dragon shrugged. "You don’t have to? I’ve made it clear that I don’t mind touching you, Gideon, and as long as you don’t care, I don’t either. I might have had strong feelings about you before, but I’m not opposed to being physical. Plus, you’re already half-way to being like I am. You work hard, take care of yourself and others. You can have both." Lucian said.

It was a particularly compelled statement since he was half-naked and the outline of his cocks was heavy against the tender fabric of his skin-tight pants.

"O-Oh." Gideon mumbled. "Okay." Gideon said and Cass squeezed him.

"Just...be careful." Cass warned and Gideon turned to look at him, his eyes wide.

"What?" Gideon asked and Cass gave him a serious look.

"It’s dangerous when you and Lucian kiss." Cass warned and Lucian sighed.

"You said something like that before, Cass. Why are you preventing us when you’ve done nothing of the sort when it comes to Gideon and Edgar kissing or Edgar and I kissing?" Lucian asked and Cass felt his face warm.

"It’s...it’s more stimulating." Cass muttered. Edgar let out a soft noise of agreement.

"You could have the whole mansion in a gay panic." Edgar agreed. Cass nodded seriously and Lucian gave an incredulous laugh.

"Are you two serious? That’s what you were upset about? Why didn’t you explain that earlier?" Lucian asked and Cass gave him a pointed look.

"You’re the damn expert. I thought you would have figured it out. I’m, fuck, I’m falling into the gender ambiguous category, and Edgar’s too handsome for his own good so no one’s really questioning why we’re being swept away, but you? Gideon? That’s the kind of men kissing that converts people." Cass felt like his face was going to light on fire as he said it.

He even pushed himself out of Gideon’s arms, needing a little bit of distance as he crossed his arms protectively, licking his lips nervously. Gideon let him go, shock on his face as he heard Cass’ explanation.

"Are you of the same mind?" Lucian asked, directing the question towards Edgar. Edgar was still lying on his stomach on the bench, his feet in the air. He let out a heavy sigh, dropping his head and arms, still resting on them but he lowered them until he was resting the side of his face on his folded up arms.

"Of course. Watching a few of the men in the redlight district is what made me realise that was even an option. They were former knights. Big, beefy, like you and Gideon, Lucy. It was a bit of an awakening moment since I’d only dealt with the women who worked there until that moment. Having to be normal while speaking to them after had been...hard. Thankfully, they didn’t notice, or if they did they just thought it was because I was a sheltered noble who had never seen such a thing." Edgar muttered. "It’s overstimulating and very arousing."

"It’s arousing?" Gideon asked quietly and Cass nodded. He knew he was frowning, but if he didn’t, he wasn’t sure what kind of face he would make otherwise.

"Yes." Cass said. It was more than just that. With Cass’ body changing the way that it was, it was both arousing and a bit annoying seeing how well proportioned both Lucian and Gideon were. There was a bit of envy to it all since Cass’ body was becoming more feminine in nature due to the succubus aspect of the contract. Cass hadn’t been exactly like Gideon, and there was no way he’d been as beefy and chiseled as Lucian, but he’d been fit.

He’d had body hair, for one, and he could have grown facial hair but it was just splotchy. He’d had to shave. Cass had never had to shave at all since being in his body and body hair? Ha! When had Cassian ever had such a thing? It also didn’t help because his hair was white to begin with, so even if he had pubes there was a chance that it wasn’t even black.

Either way, it was frustrating in some parts watching Lucian and Gideon kiss. He was envious because...he wanted to be able to look like them. Masculine, handsome, strong. He was still too thin, too fragile. Too fucking weak in this body and it was only worse when he was around them because he was weak in the damn knees around their naked bodies.

"O-Oh." Gideon said, swallowing thickly as he turned his gaze towards Lucian. "Is it arousing to you, Lucy?" Gideon asked and Lucian reached down and grabbed his cocks through his pants, chuckling.

"Giddy, you sweet knight, I would gladly give you one of my swords if you wanted it."