Because I Cannot Hurt You

Her gaze dimmed a bit. "He is sleeping right now. The doctor just now administered his medicine and he is resting."

Jack Si slowly nodded. "Let me check with the doctor here first and see his reports. Can we talk then?"

They headed to the hospital cafeteria. Jack Si brought two cups of coffee and took his seat opposite her.

Caihong anxiously asked, "How are the reports?"

Jack Si sighed. "It is serious indeed. The tumor is swollen due to the sudden seizure and it barely saved him from losing his life."

She clenched her fist and her eyes teared up.

"That seizure has also... drastically shortened his lifespan."

"No! There must be something we can do to help him, right? T-this cannot be the end... Xiaosi has only suffered in his life, Jack Si. He cannot die like this. I will not let this happen!"

Jack Si said, "I know it's hard for you, sister-in-law. Don't worry. Not that I am here, I will definitely find a way to save him. That idiot cannot kick the bucket so soon. For now, indeed we cannot do surgery. His condition is delicate. Until it becomes stable with medications, we can only wait but again, we have to find that right balance. Everything will be fine. At this time, Xiaosi needs your full support especially when he has lost his memories. Everybody is a stranger to him, and that's why we have to be more cautious so that the stress doesn't worsen his state."

She nodded.

He smiled. "I will continuously monitor his situation and will give you all the updates."

Her phone buzzed with a call and saw it was from Zhu villa. "Hello."

The maid from the other end spoke, "Madam. Young mistress is home and is asking for you and the Master. I tried to pacify her, but she is insisting on meeting you. She is getting restless. Should I bring her to the hospital?"

"No, no! Don't bring Chyou to the hospital. She won't be able to see Xiaosi like this…"

The mention of Chyou perked up Jack Si's ears.

"Then what should I do, Madam?"

Caihong thought for a few moments and said, "Tell her that Xiaosi is away on an emergency business trip for now. I will come back home in some time and talk to her."

"Yes, Madam."

Caihong sighed and hung up.

Jack Si curiously studied her expression and said, "Was that…"

"Oh, that was the maid. Chyou is back home and is asking about us," she pursed her lips. "If she knew that Xiaosi had forgotten about her, she would be so heartbroken…"

His lips curled into a soft smile. "I am glad to see you caring about Chyou. I know how in all these years, your relationship with her was so bitter."

Caihong gave a wry smile. "I have been a pathetic mother. I knew I was wrong in blaming her, but I couldn't stop myself. But now I will correct all my mistakes and give her all the love she deserves."

She looked down and clasped her hands together. "I... always wanted to abort her. But I am glad that Xiaosi didn't let that happen. I hated him for it at that time."

Jack Si quietly sipped on his coffee. He put the cup down and said, "Xiaosi had no choice, sister-in-law."

She blinked her eyes. "What?"

"When he came to know that you wanted to abort the child, he had contacted a gynecologist to book an appointment for your abortion."

She froze and stared at him in silence.

He faintly smiled. "It was hard for him. He loved the child, but he knew that you wouldn't be able to do that. In the circumstances that Chyou was conceived, he had expected that you wouldn't want her. He didn't want to force you to give birth and suffer more. But when he visited the gynecologist she said that it would be dangerous for you to do an abortion."

"D-dangerous?"

"Dangerous for your life. Your pregnancy wasn't stable and added your depression into it, your condition became even more fragile. If he forced you to do an abortion no matter the cost, there was a high risk of you losing your life. The doctor strongly recommended that he go for childbirth. Even if by some lucky chance, you did get out of it alive, its harsh impact on your body would have definitely rendered you unable to conceive in the future."

Caihong's lips parted in shock. She unblinkingly looked at him. Her heart loudly drummed in her chest.

"But Xiaosi didn't have the courage to see you die. If he had agreed, not only would he have lost Chyou, he would have also lost you. He didn't have the strength to lose his wife and his child too, and he didn't want to rely on a lucky chance that you might come out of it alive. It was extremely risky. He said that he didn't care if you couldn't bear a child. He didn't mind to remain childless, but by no means he would endanger the life of the woman he loves so much. So, even if it made you hate him more than ever, he had to do it. He just pretended to you that he wanted the child at any cost but in reality, he forced you to give birth to save your life."

Tears plopped out of her eyes as she kept listening to him. She thought that the biggest sacrifice he made was on that night when he was forced to sleep with her. But even in her pregnancy, he only thought about her life and safety.

Jack Si understood her feelings and thoughts. When he realized it, he felt the same way about him. "You are wondering just how much a man can love someone, right? Where is his limit that it ends?"

She kept quiet.

He smiled. "That is the thing, sister-in-law. His love has no limits. There is no end just like how you cannot see an end to a sea. It just stretches far and wide even beyond your sight. That is how his love is. He did it all for you. Because he cannot hurt you, he chose to bear that pain himself."