Because I Cannot Hurt You

The crowd watched her with their jaws dropped wide open as Shuang narrated her life history without a faze in her expression. There were so many embarrassing things in her story that one would definitely hide it with everything they got, yet she just babbled it out in front of everyone.

Jack Si's beautiful bluish-grey orbs, for the first time, widened in shock as he heard this strange woman before her talk. 

How could she say something so personal about her life like that in front of strangers? Was she so courageous? Or did she simply not care about what others would think about her?

Or maybe both?

When he saw her for the first time, he had already noticed her sleepless condition and the light bags under her eyes. Her eyes were slightly red and looked tired. As a doctor, it was his second nature to take a quick scan of someone's basic condition. And with his experience, he understood that she was physically just fine. But mentally, there was something that weighed in her mind too heavily.

That may be the reason why she could be so bold. Sometimes when someone bore too much pain, they would have the urge to let out everything.

That, plus by the manner of her speaking, he got an inkling that it was her innate personality that didn't let her care about anybody's opinion.

Shuang folded her arms and said, "Tell me, what should I do? Does my life sound happier to you? Or worse than yours? Or better?"

The woman who was sobbing until a moment ago was forced to calm down in shock. 

"That…"

Somehow she felt that her problems were too little compared to what this woman had gone through. 

"Do you think that your fake boyfriend will give a damn about your life? Like I said, he is enjoying his time with his girlfriend on some beach while you will be knocking on death's door."

The woman bit her lip.

"If you think it's worth it, then go ahead. Kill yourself."

The nurse quickly said, "Yes, Mam. Please come back."

"Yanyan!"

The woman's parents came rushing to the hospital and were aghast to see their daughter standing at the window. "Yanyan. What are you doing! Step back!"

Her mother burst into tears. "Yanyan, were you thinking of dying? How could you! Did you think about your parents at all?"

Yanyan cried. "Mom, Dad...it's all because of me. I didn't trust you and all your money-"

The father said, "What money? It's not more important than you! I can earn it back. But how am I supposed to get you back if you die!" He rubbed his teary eyes as his body trembled. "Foolish daughter...Do you really want to leave us for a man? Is he that important to you now?"

Yanyan quickly stepped back to everyone's relief. She ran out and hugged her parents. "I am sorry...I am really sorry…" she sobbed.

He hugged her. "Forget about him already. Start anew and think of it as a learning experience. You know who to trust and who not to."

Her mother smacked her on her head. "Don't ever do that again! Y-you scared us…"

She nodded.

Shuang watched the heartwarming scene and shrugged. She glanced at Jack Si who was looking at the family too.

"It worked out, right?"

Jack Si looked at her and smiled. "Indeed."

She grinned.

"Case no. 118. Patient name - Michael Jones. Age 23. His girlfriend betrayed him with his best friend and ran away. Diagnosed with clinical depression. One day he threatened to kill himself. He stood at the hospital terrace and one of the other patients did something similar like you in an attempt to scare him off. Result? He jumped off the terrace anyway. His last words were as he laughed, 'You are right. I should just go ahead and die.'"

Shuang widened her eyes.

Jack Si patted her shoulder. "Doesn't work all the time. You got lucky."

He turned and left. Shuang watched his back moving farther away in a daze. She then looked at Yanyan and her family in deep thought.

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Caihong stepped out of Xiaosi's ward as he was now asleep after his medicine. In front of her, she saw a foreigner asking something to a nurse. The nurse pointed her finger at her and he thanked her.

She saw him walking towards her and said, "Mrs. Zhu Caihong?"

Caihong blinked her eyes and just like Shuang, she felt the difference in his Mandarin accent. But more than that, she couldn't help but stare at his bluish grey eyes. 

"Yes."

He beamed and raised his hand forward. "Greetings, sister-in-law! I am Jack Si, Xiaosi's friend and doctor."

Her eyes widened in surprise. "Oh, I see…"

"I hope I didn't make you wait for long."

She shook her head. "No. It's nice to meet you."

"The pleasure is mine. I finally got to meet you! In all these years, Xiaosi kept bragging about how beautiful you were, but he never let me meet you even as a friend!" He harrumphed.

Caihong was startled. "He-he said what?"

Jack Si chuckled. "That how beautiful his wife is but more than her outward appearance, it's her heart that is even more pure and beautiful."

She froze. Words failed to escape her lips. She suddenly didn't know how to respond. Her eyelashes softly trembled, and a faint blush appeared on her cheek.

"But I know why he didn't let me meet you. Hoho, he must not have wanted you to start loving me. After all, it's hard to ignore my eyes and not fall for me," he coughed, "Sorry for being such a narcissist hehe…" he sheepishly grinned.

Caihong softly chuckled. "Well, I have to admit that you have beautiful eyes indeed. If not a doctor, then you would have definitely shone in the entertainment industry. I mean *cough* even the nurse before was blushing."

Jack Si scratched his chin in embarrassment.

Then he looked a little somber as he asked, "How is Xiaosi?"