Because I Cannot Hurt You

In the evening, Zhiyuan and Xinyi had once again visited the hospital to check on Caihong and Xiaosi. They met Jack Si, too, who told them about Xiaosi's medical history. They were relieved to see a capable doctor on whom they could leave Xiaosi.

Caihong smiled. "It's okay here now, you two. Siying will feel lonely."

Xinyi quickly said, "It's alright, Caihong. I want to be here with you."

"Don't worry. Jack Si is here. Ah Cy and you really need to rest and then there are the kids too. In fact, I will be going back soon. I have to talk to Chyou. Ever since Xiaosi collapsed, I didn't get a chance to talk to her at all, and now she is getting restless from our absence."

Xinyi sighed.

Caihong glanced at Zhiyuan. She slightly furrowed her brows, seeing him a little uncomfortable. "Zhiyuan, are you okay?"

Xinyi pursed her lips.

Zhiyuan tried to smile. "Nothing, Caihong. I am okay."

"No, it's just you looked really lost…"

His eyelashes trembled and he inwardly clenched his jaw. Ever since he knew he spoke Caihong's name, he felt restless around her and especially when Xinyi was present too. He didn't know how to face them.

When he thought back to how Xinyi must have felt on meeting Caihong on the cruise trip after seven years, he felt his heart twist in pain. Even after everything that happened, Xinyi didn't blame Caihong nor hated her. It must have been so difficult to see the woman back whose name her husband…

He smiled. "I am fine, Caihong. Too many things have happened so…"

She nodded. "En. That's why don't worry about Xiaosi and me. Take a rest now."

Back in the car, Zhiyuan wanted to initiate the conversation and talk to Xinyi. But where was he supposed to start? And how was he supposed to explain that he read her diary?

"Xinyi-"

"Zhiyuan-"

Both spoke at the same time. Xinyi said, "You go ahead."

"No, Xinyi I-"

"It's okay, Zhiyuan. Please."

If Zhiyuan wanted to talk about her, then she didn't want to stop him. Something was wrong with him and the quicker she knew what it was, the better it would be to resolve the problems between them.

He tapped his fingers on his thigh and thought for a moment to find his words. "I know you have been worried about me by my words and behavior until now, but I...have learned some truths that shook me. I didn't know what to do anymore or how to get things back on track. There is something important that we need to talk about."

Xinyi blinked her eyes at him. "Truths? What is the truth?"

A wry smile laced his lips. "Truth about my mistakes, Xinyi. But now I know them, so I want to fix them."

Xinyi gazed at the determined light in his eyes and somewhere in her heart, she felt relieved. He seemed distraught for a while now and it gave her a feeling as if something was going to end. But now he seemed different and for a good reason. For now, that was enough to assure her.

She smiled and nodded. 

Zhiyuan slowly patted her head. "Not now though. 

I want to but Xiaosi and Caihong need all the support now."

Xinyi agreed. "En. Once their situation settles down, we can talk…"

He smiled.

They reached home and as soon as they stepped in Han villa, they heard the sound of Siying laughing and giggling.

"This helicopter is for Siying!?"

"Yes. You wanted this, right?"

"En! En!

When Zhiyuan saw the scene in front of him, he froze. Xinyi widened her eyes in surprise as well. Siying's sight fell on his parents and he brightened.

"Mama! Dada!" He hopped down and trotted towards them. He raised his arm and showed the helicopter that he was excitedly waving in his hand. He jumped up and down in bliss. "Mama, Dada. I got a helicopter!"

Zhiyuan faintly smiled and patted his son's head. "Is that so…"

He glanced at the two elder figures sitting at two different couches. 

"Mom, Dad...when did you come back?" He quietly asked.

Han Tian, Zhiyuan's father, looked up at him. "An hour ago."

Xia Liqin smiled. "Yes, he did. I arrived ten minutes later but you know what? I had to fight for my entry in this home. Apparently, your father thinks that I have no right to be here since I am not a Han anymore."

Han Tian's expression didn't change. "You never acted like a Han when we were married and now you suddenly want to act as if you are a part of this family?"

Xia Liqin narrowed her eyes. "And you didn't act the part even if you were Han in the first place. So don't start that with me."

Han Tian faintly smiled. You don't have to tell me how I acted or not. I did everything for my family that I could, not like you who was too busy in making her career and even forgetting at times that she has a husband and family. And now you want to bring gifts for Siying? Laughable."

She snorted. "At least I am still better than a man who couldn't take the responsibility of his own family business for which Dad worked so hard to make it grow and flourish and bring it to this position where it is now. Instead of helping his father lessen the burden and be free of his responsibilities, he was busy in what? Apparently, painting stuff that hardly gave him any money."

He stiffened and his gaze dimmed. He clenched his fist in anger and looked at her in disdain. "Yeah, right. I couldn't handle my family business. Aren't you so talented then? If you were so capable and also felt so bad for him, then why didn't you become the CEO of Han Corps yourself and lessened his burden? Dad would have been happy to let you take over rather than relying on his...son who disappointed him."