Chapter - Darkness melted down by a hug(Revise)

Creak—

Suddenly, the door opened.

I clearly told the maid not to come in anymore, so who could it be at this moment? My mother? Marquis Bahod?

Slowly, I raised my head, only to see two familiar figures.

They were Lia and Aisha...

Why?

Why did they come?

What are they doing here?

They didn't answer, they just stared at me blankly.

What emotions were conveyed in their eyes?

Fear? Anxiety? Sympathy? Pity? Ridicule?

I don't know; I can't tell right now. Because the darkness and negative emotions have already clouded my heart.

I wanted to control my emotions, but I couldn't.

"Oh right, you're here to see me in such a sorry state, aren't you?"

"Betrayed by the servants, I'm now crawling on the ground like a maggot. It must be satisfying to see me like this! Or are you just pitying me?"

"I don't need that! Get out of here! I don't know what you might do if you don't!"

"Whether it's you two or Lucius, or this whole family, I hate you all the most! So don't bother me anymore!"

Are these...the words that came out of my mouth?

Even I find it hard to believe.

Aisha is one thing but Lia, I really like that child. How can I say such words to her?

Have I truly truly being controlled by a demon?

Oh, I see... I'm no longer "me". There is another me inside me.

Hahaha, hahahahahahahahahahaha!!!

Once I realized this, it felt so incredibly relaxing.

Why have I resisted until now? How foolish!

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If I had realized this sooner... sooner, I wouldn't have gone through all that pain! Nobody can hurt me! Only I can hurt others!

I am... I am Robert Von Anglus, the second son of the Anglus family!

"Hahahaha...wait?"

What happened to me?

What are they doing?

Thinking has stalled.

Lia hugged me tightly with her body, which was even smaller than mine and Aisha hugged both of us.

I can only think of one meaning for this action. Could it be that... they are trying to comfort me?

The darkness within me began to swell. The anger in my heart surged rapidly.

Push them away!

What a joke, I don't need such cheap comfort.

No one can understand my pain.

No one can heal my wounds.

So don't try to comfort me with an attitude of "I understand you".

Push them away!

They are just kids. Nothing in front of my nearly 30 points of strength. My life experience is several times greater than theirs.

Making such a move is far too presumptuous.

Push them away!

Don't bother me.

Never trust anyone again.

I never want to be hurt again.

So, I've decided to be alone...

Push them away!

I've decided... I want to be alone...

But why...?

Why are my hands trembling slightly?

Why is my vision blurred by tears?

Why... do I feel so warm?

Even though the command to push them away kept echoing in his mind, why was my body not under my control?

Oh yeah... I see...

It turns out that all I've ever longed for is just this.

I do not need any comforting words, nor do I need meticulous care or material comforts. All I want is a hug, to feel the warmth of human connection, and to know that I am not alone.

"I'm sorry... I'm so sorry..."

Only Lia and Aisha gave me what I wanted.

Tears were already streaming down my face uncontrollably.

I consider myself an adult, but it turns out I'm just a kid.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

All I could do was keep apologizing, even when I became so numb that I didn't know what I was apologizing for.

All I know is that, up to this point, I didn't deserve this hug from them.

Be it Lia or Aisha, as their brother, I wasn't there for them when they were going through the worst.

When Mrs Lilica died, I wasn't there for Lia and when Aisha was all alone, I was not there for her.

Even with all this, do they still want to save me?

Do I really deserve to be saved?

Such a brother, crying uncontrollably in front of his sisters...

The negative emotions and darkness in my heart gradually dissolved, and I knew that "he" was about to disappear as well.

—You will definitely regret making this choice.

Probably, but my remaining rationality tells me that pushing them away is an option I absolutely cannot choose.

—Haven't you learned your lesson about the consequences of trusting someone? Or are you still as naive as your past life. Next time, you'll fall even deeper.

Naive, maybe.

Next time; I don't know if there will be a next time.

Maybe you're right about me but I can't do it. Falling is terrifying but being alone is also terrifying.

I think the two are equally terrifying, so I might as well choose to believe again. Don't just look at the terrible consequences, the probability of a happy ending is also there.

—I will absolutely not agree with that, and I will come back someday.

...So, you chose to push them away?

He didn't answer; perhaps he acquiesced, or perhaps he was no longer there.

Then you just watch closely. What follows is a completely different life for Robert Von Anglus as a villainous nobleman.

I can't guarantee that my life will be incredibly exciting, but I believe it will definitely be interesting and a worthwhile journey through life.

And all of this will begin from this moment.

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