197 [Bonus Chapter]Mr. Liu's past life (3)
*Flashback continued*
Jun stared at his sister and forcibly shook off his shirt from her fist. “I think you should be doing something else if you really care about me. My years of love and devotion for one woman ended in a single night…and you…all of you want ME to understand? All of you want to talk to me instead of talking with Jin and Shui. If this is the shit care you want to give me, then get out!”
Nuo stiffened. She stared at her brother in daze who had changed so much just within a span of a few months.
“No-nobody wants to see you like this, Bro. We are all helpless…” Nuo wiped her eyes.
Nana felt a stabbing ache in her heart as she saw the tears in Jun’s eyes. She lifted her hand to hold his cheek, but Jun shook it away once again. He pointed his finger towards the door. “Leave. I don’t want to see any of your faces. Just leave!”.
Nana’s hand remained frozen in the air as his loud and harsh voice sharply slapped her eardrums. Her smile faltered, and she held Nuo’s hand. “L-let’s go, Nuo.”
“Mom…” tears slipped on her cheeks seeing her hand shiver.
Jun saw Nana’s back growing farther away from him and in that moment, he felt that her figure was becoming smaller and weaker.
*Flashback ends*
A tear fell from his eye. Jun’s eyes reddened, feeling ashamed of talking to Nana like that in his past life. “I acted pathetic, Ai. I…I disrespected Mom and my sister. I threw them out of my house. I still remember their hurt expressions. Mom didn’t shout at me. But her eyes looked pained. Her figure that always stood upright looked so small and defeated that day all because of me.”
Ai watched the remorse in his eyes over his actions. She gently placed her palm over his head and patted in a soothing motion. “It’s in the past now, Jun,” she whispered. “I know you might feel it’s hard to forgive yourself, but take pride that you accepted your mistakes because it means that you won’t do it again. Humans make mistakes, but what’s more important is that you learn from them.”
Jun shook. “I learned it too late, Ai. Everything was over until I realized how blind I had become in my obsession for Shui. Around eight months after that meeting, my great-grandma passed away. But I couldn’t even meet her one last time. I wasn’t even allowed to attend her funeral.
And why not? After how I acted with Mom and Nuo, nobody wanted me to hurt Great-grandma too, especially when she was already so sick…But I didn’t understand that. I only selfishly thought that they started hating me so much that I didn’t even deserve to be with my Great-grandma in her last moments.”
Ai felt her eyes growing moist and warm with tears. But she didn’t want to cry because she wanted to be strong for Jun. She looked at his tears that made his cheeks wetter, but she didn’t make any attempt to wipe them off. Jun needed to let this grief off his chest by sharing everything with her. Only by crying would Jun feel lighter, and Ai knew that.
Jun continued in a weak voice, “I never gave up on Shui. Even when she rejected me and said that she loved Jin, I refused to let her go. At one point, her father, Uncle Zhiyuan, had to force me away from her. He was really furious. I was selfishly forcing Shui to be with me. I was hurting her and everybody else. I refused to accept my fate and move on. I ignored Sky and in those four years, even the company crumbled. Yunru began to hate me. I lost everything. In the end, I became all alone.
One day, I got into an accident and when I woke up, I got the news that Jin and Shui were getting married on that day. That news shook me hard. They finally decided to marry…I felt betrayed just like the night Shui rejected me. I was devastated. I couldn’t believe that my family agreed to it. I hated Jin so much that I wished to kill him. Just for a few moments, I couldn’t help but get that thought. I crashed into their wedding and pointed the gun at him. But I felt pathetic to realize that I stooped so low that I wanted to kill my brother.”
He took a few uneasy breaths as the memories came flashing by. It was the fateful day that had ended everything for him.
“Shui…she was wearing a wedding gown. Jin was in a wedding suit, and that’s when I simply gave up. I suddenly lost all my strength seeing them together. It was supposed to be me by her side. But everything had changed. She was looking at me with horror and fear, and I pointed the gun at myself instead of Jin. I wanted to shoot myself.
Jin grabbed my hand before I could pull the trigger and averted the nozzle’s direction towards his direction in panic. Others grabbed me from the back and in that tuff, my finger pressed the trigger, and the bullet hit Jin’s chest.”
Ai slowly widened her eyes. She felt him trembling even harder.
His voice shook, and he seemed to curl into a ball. “Jin died…I saw blood on his chest, and he collapsed. Shui’s wedding gown was also splattered with blood. I could do nothing but watch. It was loud when that bullet rang but deadly silent after Jin collapsed. I killed Jin…I killed Jin, Ai.”
“N-Not just Jin. I killed Mom too. It was that day I came to know that her health had extremely deteriorated. The family had fallen apart. Everything was miserable, and then she saw Jin’s death with her own eyes. The shock gave her an attack in her already sickly state, and she…”
Jun couldn’t complete the sentence. The attack was so severe and sudden that nobody could help her in time just like how everybody was helpless was Jin.
“I killed two most important people in my life that day. My mother and my brother. I am a murderer Ai…I am a murderer…” finally broke down, unable to hold his tears any longer.