Chapter 189: Intimacy

Noah’s POV

Elias, dressed as always in that annoying formal outfit, sits on the bathroom floor like he just got shot in the head from behind by an assassin. His hand is still on my belly and I can feel his wrist twitching. The alpha’s dark eyes that are now rounded move from my face to the bubbles...I think he wants to look at my belly, but I’m completely covered up in bubbles.

"You..." he breathes out and his eyes start to sparkle like glass. He looks like he’s about to cry. But he’s Elias Deus...he doesn’t cry. Wait...is that...I stare in awe as a single tear slides down his face.

"Elias" I whisper as I sit up in the water, some of the soapy water splashes on my bandage, but I’ll worry about that later. Elias is doing something I’ve never seen before. I cup his cheeks and my own eyes are starting to water.

I catch his tear with my thumb and swipe it away.

"Our baby? You and I are having a pup?" he asks with a choked up voice and I nod. His emotionality is making me emotional. Elias shudders as I continue to wipe off his tears.

"I found out at the hospital tonight...we made a pup and you won’t believe where it happened" I laugh softly to ease the atmosphere, but he doesn’t laugh. His eyes are still moving so fast from my face to his hand buried in the bubbles that I’m getting concerned.

"They told me the gestation date and it was when we were at the temple. Can you believe that? We made a baby in the most sinful way" I continue to joke and he shakes his head.

He looks like a machine on overdrive.

"I...I don’t know...my mind can’t function" he says and I soften for him.

"It doesn’t have to" I say without the joking tone as I get out of the water. I’ve had enough bathing. I think I want a shower now. "You don’t have to think right now. You can let big brain Elias rest" I say softly as I take his hand and pull him up. The look of shock doesn’t leave his face as I take off his clothes.

Elias stays in shut down as I pull him to the shower. He has no idea what to do with all the emotions he’s feeling. I get the warm water running and stand in front of my mate. He’s so frozen in this state that I don’t know what to do with him.

"Elias?" I call his name.

"Fuck...I’m going to be a father" he says like he’s finally waking up.

"Yes" I reply and he puts his hands on each of my sides. He slowly moves his hand down to my waist and presses his thumb gently into my belly. The belly where our little baby is. "Noah..." he says my name like it’s a prayer and suddenly pulls me into a hug.

Elias starts to sob as he keeps his arms around me. I can’t see his face but I stay still. His body shakes and his voice sounds soft as he weeps. He cries for what feels like hours before breaking the hug.

"Turn around, please" he says and I turn without looking at his face. He’s breaking and I don’t want to make him uncomfortable. How can he say he’s incapable of emotions when he’s sobbing like this? How can I want to watch him and ruin the moment a human reacts as a human?

Elias hugs me from behind and rubs his hands over my belly. I can feel every part of him; his chest, his abs, his soft cock...but for some reason, this doesn’t feel erotic.

Intimacy.

"I love you...I love you Noah, I love you" he says behind me, wrapping one arm around my chest and keeping the other on my stomach.

"I love you, too Elias" I respond. We stay like this as Elias cries some more and the water washes away the blood from his body. My bandage, now soaked, feels very useless.

"Fuck...Noah...fuck" my husband says like the curse word and my name are the only thing he’s capable of processing. I’ll pray to the goddess for our pup, they can’t come out swearing like the rest of the Deus family. "You should curse less, Elias. Babies can hear from inside" I say and he tightens his arms around me.

"Ow" I wheeze and he breaks the back hug.

"I’m sorry...I’m sorry" he says and pulls me out of the shower. "You didn’t wash the blood off properly..." he silences my words by making me sit on the vanity counter with my wet butt. My cheeks burn as he takes care of my bandage again. He takes it off, cleans the wound, and reapplies new bandage.

"You should properly wash up" I say quietly when he’s done treating me. His hands are on my lap and he’s looking at me like a lovestruck puppy.

Oh goddess...I already know he loves me, but now...love doesn’t seem strong enough to describe the emotions in his eyes.

"I’ll buy us a house, no I’ll buy two houses. One will be for the baby when she’s little and I’ll make them baby proof it from top to bottom" Elias says and I blink.

"She?"

"She or he...or anything, fuck, I don’t know" he says and drops his head. Elias hugs me again, pressing his wet body to mine, and making me smile. This is better than I imagined. So much better than I dreamed of.

"You want a daughter?" I ask.

"I want what you give, Angel. Whatever gender you give is everything I’ve ever needed" he says and I smile softly at him.

"No more yelling at me" I say but he doesn’t respond. He takes a deep breath and cups my face. My alpha leans in slowly and kisses me gently. Our lips move against each other like this is the destiny they’ve been assigned.

"I’ll wash up and we’ll go to sleep" he says.

"I’ll wait for you."

"You’ll get cold" he shakes his head, and with that, he takes me to the room with a towel. Elias quietly waits for me to dry up and get into his clothes before making me sit in the chair while he changes the bedsheet. I don’t complain or comment on the occasional shaking of his hand. He looks so...nervous that it’s cute.

"I’ll be back" he says and returns to the bathroom.

I try waiting for him but soon, I get drowsy, and fall asleep. I wake up a few minutes later to the sound and feeling of him climbing into the bed and spooning me.

"I’m going to be a father" he whispers to himself, presses a kiss to my shoulder, and then places a hand on my stomach.

’Yes Elias, you’re going to be a father’ I respond in my head and go to sleep in my lover’s arms.