Imperfect Desires

This was Xiu's first time hearing about Darren's condition after her death. And the picture that Han Bohai's words painted in her mind was really not pretty. If anything, it made her feel his pain. 

"He didn't talk to anyone," Han Bohai still continued. "He seemed like he was in a daze and he couldn't make sense of everything that's been happening around him. The way he looked was enough to break someone's heart."

Xiu's breath hitched as she held his arm tightly and voiced out, "If you continue, you're gonna crush my heart as well. So, I beg you not to say it. I might have turned myself stronger mentally but I won't be able to bear hearing about Regan's pain. He is the person who is behind my strength, do you really want to remind me how I'm the one who crumbled him?"

Han Bohai instantly shut his mouth. He didn't have that intention. He just couldn't help recalling that scene even after all these years. He could remember the feeling of loss he felt with Chen Xiu's death and he also knew what she meant to him. But he never figured how Darren's love for her was so deep. In his case, he stayed with Chen Xiu for like five years. However, Darren didn't have that advantage. And yet, he loved her beyond Han Bohai could even comprehend.

"I might sound really dramatic and unrealistic," began Han Bohai. "But this thought is bugging me lately." Xiu raised her brow at him. "Maybe because I'm an actor and that's why such a thought popped up in my head."

"What is it?" she questioned impatiently.

Han Bohai sighed, "I feel like this second chance that heaven gave you might be something that Darren's love fought for you." Xiu raised her brows even higher as he continued, "It can be nonsense as well. But think about it, the way he had been loving you is remarkable. It's something that people rarely find. Just how many people do you think can get a love like yours? Don't tell me it never crossed your mind that maybe it was his desperation, agony, yearning, and love that defied death."

"Maybe it's because we come from the same profession and love to read fantasy stories, I actually have thought about that idea once," replied Xiu with much difficulty. Accepting it was really difficult that her brain was also wandering all over the place. Well, this phenomenon had no scientific solution, so she could only conjure up some strange ideas! The thought that Han Bohai put forth was one of her strange ideas.

"You're really my sister," he said while shaking his head at her.

"And you're certainly my brother," she replied proudly. She extended her hand and said, "Now, show me what's in your pocket?"

Han Bohai's expressions shifted as he instantly covered his shirt's pocket with his hand as he said, "It's nothing. Nothing important!"

Xiu rolled her eyes at him, "Xiao Bobo, you had way too many chances to confront me in the past week but you didn't do so. Today, you definitely came up to have a discussion. I'd like to see what really forced you to take this step." Seeing him hesitating, she turned her voice gently, "What are you worried about? Whatever it is, you can just tell me."

"You just said you don't want to remember the past," he said. "This will definitely bring up your past again."

"And I also said, I'm not gonna run from that past either," she replied. "Just show it to me already. Don't make me pull your hair until you're bald!"

Han Bohai covered his hair giving her resentful gaze before he took out a bracelet from his pocket and placed it into her hand, "I don't think you can forget this."

As Xiu held that bracelet, she felt like she went back in time. She had always worn it. For as long as her memory went, she could remember having this bracelet around her wrist. It had accompanied her far too long. There was no way she'd forget it. She never took off this bracelet unless her role demanded it, she'd always wear it. 

In fact, the media also stated that the bracelet was like a part of her skin. Because she was never found without wearing it.

As for where she got it, how she got it, or since when did she had it, it was all blank in her mind. Those memories were too distant and she couldn't seem to reach out to them. 

"Why do you have it?" she asked in a daze. Then she looked at him, "How did it get to you?"

Han Bohai sighed out, "First, you should tell me where did you throw it? Or did you give it to someone? Because I found all of your stuff at your condo, except this. I never even saw the shadow of it. There is no way, it'd have been stolen."

Xiu let her eyes caressed the beautiful bracelet in her hand as she replied, "I lost it."

"Lost it?" questioned Han Bohai in confusion. "When? And where? And why didn't you tell me about it?"

"I don't know," she replied. "I can't remember how, or where I lost it. My mind was always all over the place, I couldn't possibly focus on one thing. How would I know where I lost it?" She stared at him, "Now, you tell me where did you get it from? Where did you find it? Or who gave it to you?"

"I stole it," he replied. "From my girlfriend's room."

Xiu's eyes widened as she continued to stare at him, "Ying Jie?" 

"Do I have another girlfriend?" he retorted.

"How would I know that?" she shot back.

He glared at her, "Sister Xiu, don't! You should focus on the main point here!"

Xiu took a deep breath and asked, "Then you tell me what's the main point? Because I'm certainly very curious about why or how my bracelet ended up with Ying Jie. I clearly never had anything to do with her."