Imperfect Desires

Both Xiao Li and Xin Zimen stared at Su Xixi's face earnestly and anxiously waiting for some kind of explanation. Everything they had just learned changed the course of whatever they already knew. It was like someone was suddenly questioning their beliefs.

While Xin Zimen was solely focused on such deep-rooted conspiracies, Xiao Li's focus was only on one thing; Suyin never had a child of her own. That meant Chen Xiu wasn't her daughter. That also meant that his initial suspicions were right all along. Chen Xiu was indeed Xin Xiulin! However, he didn't know what to feel about this realization either.

Whether to be happy that Chen Xiu was his sister or be sad that she was dead. And she died such an unjust death as well.

"Xixi, what else do you know?" Seeing Su Xixi's silence, Xin Zimen had to urge her to continue. 

Su Xixi hesitated a little before saying, "I think I don't have any hand in doing that."

"Are you sure?!" 

Su Xixi looked awkward as she stated, "Hear me out first..."

*Flashback*

Su Xixi had been drinking all night and had only come back home to rest when she received a phone call from an unknown number. She didn't take the call but the caller was quite persistent. Eventually, she just picked up the call, "Hello! Who is it?"

"Am I speaking to Su Xixi?" asked the caller.

"Yes," answered Su Xixi as she poured herself a glass of water. "And who is this?"

"It's me... Chen Hana," came the reply.

Su Xixi frowned to herself in confusion, "Chen Hana? I don't know any Chen Hana."

"Davika Campen... Thailand... The massacre night."

Su Xixi had a look of enlightenment as she rubbed her eyes and said, "Woah! It's been such a long time. But since you're looking for me after such a long time... What can I help you with?"

"Suyin," that was all that Su Xixi heard before she felt like the person at the call was crying.

"Didn't you want to keep your distance from Suyin? Why are you in trouble with her again?" inquired Su Xixi rubbing her forehead. "Tell me what she did now."

Chen Hana didn't give her the details but instead just said, "She is trying to repeat history for her own daughter. She is torturing another innocent soul just because of her own selfish reasons. Please, help me!"

"What can I help you with?" asked Su Xixi.

"I know you have someone infiltrate Suyin's forces. So, I know you can help me with this. Please save my daughter!"

"Huh?"

"This is the only request I have. That's the only way I can save that innocent girl right now. Please! If Suyin got the test results before I could save Xiu, everything would be over!"

Su Xixi was quite tired as she asked, "What test results?"

"Is that really important?"

"Let me see what I can do about that," replied Su Xixi before she hung up the call and immediately called someone else.

She neither knew who she was trying to save nor did she have any interest in knowing at that time. She was already feeling tired and only wanted to get this over with.

*End of Flashback*

"You!" Xin Zimen stared at her wide-eyed not knowing what to say to her. 

Su Xixi raised her hand in a stop sign as she continued, "Before you continue bashing me for no reason, let me clear one thing for you. I never got to the point of saving that girl. And when I tried to reach Chen Hana to tell her that I wasn't able to help her, I couldn't reach her either."

"That means Auntie, you wanted to help her but wasn't able to do so? Only because Aunt Suyin had already let go of Chen Xiu, right?" asked Xiao Li and Su Xixi nodded her head. "Aunt Suyin let go of Chen Xiu because of those test results. Then how did Chen Xiu's test result turn out to be positive? And why did you say that Chen Hana played Aunt Suyin well?"

Su Xixi didn't even have to think to answer that, "Chen Hana already knew that Suyin's child was dead. She had heard it from me and Wen Ai. She played that card again Suyin. Everyone knew how Suyin loved Liu Nuan. Chen Hana made her realize that she had used up her love and care on someone who was not even related to her. Instead, she invoked a pang of guilt for Chen Xiu." She suddenly scoffed, "I never thought it was so easy to destroy someone like Suyin. Chen Hana's one lie really crumbled Suyin's strong sense of pride."

"But that lie took someone's life!" reminded Xiao Li trying to restrain his anger.

"I'm not sure what to say about that. Because I know she lied to save that girl's life. She must have panicked knowing that Chen Xiu was with Suyin. She had suffered under the hands of Suyin and she knew how far she could do. Maybe that's why in her panicked state, she chose to gamble with that lie. I'd have gladly helped her if only I could. But by the time, my people got there Chen Xiu was already released. I never learned about the details though." She took a pause and went on, "But now that you have pointed out, it's really a good question. How, why, and who was able to change those test results?"

"So the question still remains the same!"

"I have one theory for you though," Su Xixi added.

"Now what?" Xin Zimen looked exasperated after hearing all of this. His mind was still reeling from everything. And he really couldn't tell what to say.

"What if the person who originally brought Liu Nuan to Suyin was the one who changed those test results?" Su Xixi laid out her theory before them calmly.

"Why would that person do it? If that person brought Liu Nuan to Suyin, that means they didn't want Suyin to be hurt."

Su Xixi shook her head at Xin Zimen, "Zimen, shut up!" She took a deep breath and went on, "Who is gonna guarantee that the person who brought Liu Nuan to Suyin had good intentions? Who is to know that that person always planned to use Liu Nuan's identity against Suyin? And Liu Nuan was, just placed a pawn on a chessboard that could be used whenever one needed it?"

"If what you're saying is true," began Xiao Li. "Then Auntie, why would that person mess around with Chen Xiu's DNA test results?"

"Isn't it obvious?" asked Su Xixi. "Suyin lost her value and that person wanted to throw her off. What better way than to use the guilt that Chen Hana invoked within Suyin's heart. It's already clear that Chen Hana's words managed to make Suyin suspicious. And once one has a slight suspicion in their heart, anyone can manipulate it easily. That person did exactly that! And it worked as well."

Xin Zimen looked at his son while Xiao Li looked at his father. They both had the same thought that her words made perfect sense. However, they had no way to prove this theory for now.

"Can't you see it for yourself? Since what happened with Chen Xiu, Suyin had been like a tamed bird that suddenly lost the will to fly again in the sky."

"I have another question," said Xin Zimen. "Who was Chen Xiu to Chen Hana? Was she really her daughter?"

"That's not possible," replied Su Xixi. "I just told you that Chen Hana had spent four years in a hospital. If she gave birth, we'd know. Don't you think?"

"Then why was Chen Xiu called Chen Hana's daughter?"

"How would I know? Maybe she adopted her later on?" retorted Su Xixi. "I never contacted her after that. We left her at a scarcely populated private island in Thailand. And she had said that she never planned on leaving from there. I still don't even know why would she come to this country. As much as I figured her out, she honestly didn't want to have anything to do with Suyin ever again." She tutted to herself, "But poor her! She still couldn't escape from her fate. This ill-fate between her and Suyin took an innocent life once again."

No one was more upset about that than Xiao Li right now who was fuming. That innocent life was most likely his own sister! How was he supposed to make peace with any of this?

While they had been talking on the balcony, they hadn't known that someone had been sitting on the balcony of the room beside them. That person not only heard all of these conjectures but it also left a deep impact on that person. The person was in a wheelchair and her pale face had a rose complexion due to the cold breeze outside.

The person in the wheelchair felt her whole world spun once again. She looked up at the sky with her light brown eyes that seemed to hold such deep tranquility at this moment.