Imperfect Desires

"Flashback Continued*

The crimson color was a striking contrast to her pale skin and her white flowing gown. However, it still couldn't overshadow her beauty. That gentle beauty one could stare at for hours. Her expensive attire and the hospital's hallway looked at odd with each other.

But right now, her face was contorted in worry. She was pacing around impatiently.

"Doctor, how is she?" she rushed to the doctor even before the young girl's mother could.

"We need A positive blood urgently. She has lost a lot of blood."

"I have O positive, I think it'll work," said Xiu instantly without any hesitation.

Her assistant held her hand to pull her away, "Sister Xiu, you have already missed the premiere. Tomorrow morning you have a shoot to attend. It's an action movie and after donation, you'll get dizzy spells. How will you work?"

"New assistant, don't stop me again," she only replied with those words. Her voice still as gentle as always but one could hear her displeasure. 

Without any hesitation, she had decided to donate her blood. If it could save a life, why hesitate? She never had any second thoughts. If she could help just anyone with anything in her power, she'd never turn her back on them.

When she came out after donating the blood, she sat down at the bench since she was feeling a bit lightheaded now. But hearing that the surgery was successful and that she saved someone's life, she was over the moon. Even her lightheadedness was all forgotten.

"Thank you, thank you so much. You're like an angel who saved my daughter's life," said the western woman with tears in her eyes as she clasped her hands. "How will I ever repay you? For this kindness? What can I do for you?"

"You love your daughter very much, right?" she asked in return.

"Yes, she's my whole world," the woman answered.

The smile on Xiu's face looked different as she said, "Then keep loving her. And stay by her side. That's the only repayment I need." The westerner woman was startled a bit to hear her words. "I'm not trying to do you a favor actually. It's a favor to myself. I don't like turning my back on anyone. I feel like a betrayer if I turn a blind eye to someone in need. So, there is no need for repayment."

Who knew that the girl who didn't like turning her back on others would eventually turn her back on herself?

Saying that she turned to her assistant and said, "Let's go, Bohai!"

As the new assistant followed after her, he was feeling really strange looking at her back. She had been depressed when she was going to the premiere and now, she looked like she had just won the whole world.

"What are you looking at?" she asked noticing the strangeness in his eyes.

"Do you think this kindness will get you anywhere?"

"Do good, don't expect good," she replied. "If I want something in return, then I'm not doing any good. I'm just doing a selfish favor and expecting something in return."

Her steps faltered a bit but he held her arm to support her. "You're really trying to kill yourself. How much blood did you donate?"

"Not much," she answered with a sweet smile. "Just enough to save that young girl's life. She is still young and her mother loves her so much. I can do this much for her." She took a pause as she removed the pins from her hair saying, "Besides, blood can be restored. I mean all I have to do is eat healthily and blood will replenish."

He was really wondering what was going through her mind. What kind of person would risk their whole career for a stranger? How could she be so nonchalant about this? Tonight was supposed to take her a step higher in stardom but all she cared about was how she saved someone's life.

"New assistant, remember one thing in life... Kindness is not a gesture. It's an art. It's a real beauty. If a person doesn't have kindness, he really doesn't know what beauty or happiness feels like." She had spoken with a smile as she settled in the car.

"Now I know why your previous assistant called you crazy. You're literally in the truest sense, crazy." 

"Being crazy is better than being cold-hearted."

Han Bohai stared at her face through the mirror and sighed out, "Be careful Sister Xiu, people like you have to often pay a hefty price for their kindness." Xiu frowned at his words. "Living in a cold-blooded society, you can't save yourself from being tainted."

If only she had taken his words seriously back then.

"Then I'll show you. Kindness is repaid by heaven. Who wants a repayment from mere humans? What can humans possibly give me?"

*End of Flashback*

Coming back to the present...

The moonlight fell on her figure as she sat in the balcony under the cold breeze holding her head with both hands. Never in her wildest dreams did she think that heaven's way of repayment was so bizarre.

The girl she saved that night, she was living in the same girl's body now.

What kind of a joke was it?

She indeed genuinely wanted that young girl to live her life to the fullest but now, she was occupying her body. Did she really deserve it? 

She hurriedly put the letter back into the box and closed it. Her thoughts were all over the place now. Her feelings were even messier. That's why she didn't dare read the other letters. No wonder, Destiny said they had a connection. It was a weird connection but it was still there.

She needed to collect herself before she could read through the next letters. If each of the letters was gonna bring such painful memories from her past to flash before her eyes, she really didn't know how she was gonna handle it.

"Destiny... Why didn't you send these letters?" she questioned in a hushed voice to no one in particular.