Imperfect Desires

There is a famous quote by Mahatma Gandhi, 'Restlessness and impatience are two diseases and both of them shorten life.'

And right at this time, Yan Ying was both restless and impatient. In her situation, she couldn't help herself though. There was a part of her that was not willing to believe that her most favorite man in the whole world, Xin Zimen could be a cheater. But then again, the possibility of Destiny Novell being his daughter was also there. She who had been known as a very patient person wasn't acting like it at this moment.

"Gigi, did you check up with the lab? How long will it take for the results to come out?" She was lying in a bunk bed constantly turning around because she couldn't even sleep. 

Her team members had suggested, to just sleep on it, and by the time she'd wake up the results will be out. But who would tell her how to sleep with this much on her mind? Because she had been tossing and turning for the past two hours and now even the most cutest girl under her command was annoyed because this was like a hundred or so times she had asked her the very same question already!

"Team leader, can you be anymore impatient? I've called the lab so many times that now they are not even taking my calls!" Gigi shouted back at her from the bed underneath hers. 

Ying sat up and said, "This won't do. I should check up myself then." She jumped down from the bed and put on her shoes and jacket.

"Team leader Yan, what's really up with you? This is so not your style!" Another female team leader in the break room questioned as she rubbed her eyes. She had just woken up from their voices. 

"I don't even know myself what's really up. What can I possibly tell you, Team leader Li?" Yan Ying moved to the door and twisted the doorknob. "You guys should go to sleep. Sorry for being a bother." She knew she was being a nuisance. Everyone who came to the break room must be looking for a silent space to get rid of their exhaustion and she was ruining even that time for them.

"Impatience can cause wise people to do foolish things," Team leader Li quotes Janette Oke's quote as she looked at Ying's receding figure and shook her head. Seeing Gigi giving her a strange look, she shrugged her shoulders and said, "She's kinda cute acting so foolishly. Isn't she?" Gigi nodded her head without hesitation. 

Meanwhile, Ying had already rushed up to the elevator. Using her identity pass, she went straight to the lab and was just about to enter when someone held her collar from the back and pulled her back. Ying looked at the fierce-looking doctor and smiled awkwardly. 

"Yan Ying, you're not allowed in my territory today!"

"Dr. Chu!" Ying pouted trying to show desperateness of hers but apparently, he wasn't having any of it.

"Don't make me throw you out," he warned and went inside the lab, closing the door at her face.

Ying was annoyed and frustrated. But she didn't even notice that it was four in the morning and from the time she brought those DNA samples, she had been either hovering around the lab or she made someone call to check up on the progress. Apparently, she was getting on people's nerves by doing this all.

Yan Ying was also a very persistent person. She just sat down right in front of the lab's door. They could kick her out of the lab but not from the hallways! 

Sitting on the floor, she was constantly tapping on her knees as if she was playing drums. And she was that fool who just randomly started humming the lyrics that came to her mind.

♪♫Fine, I'll forget you

I'm gonna live like a flower, I'll be myself

Can't nobody stop me now

no, try me

Everyone wants my scent

But only you don't know, like a fool

Are you sure you're not crazy?♫♪

*(FYI "Song: Gashina Artist: Sunmi")

Actually, her lyrics were quite mixed up and even the tune was off-key but she didn't care! She never paid much attention to songs in the first place. It was just that when she was in South Korea a couple of months ago, she heard this very song playing in a cafe and it got stuck in her head. Perhaps, because the lyrics felt so raw that she couldn't help it.

She looked towards the ceiling with heavy feelings but she had stopped playing around. Now, she was just staring at the ceiling as she said the chorus part of the song as a question that came really from her heart, "Why are you leaving the pretty me here? And going?" As she said that out loud, she slapped her face to get back her senses. This was not the time to sulk over her unrequited love. She had much more important things to worry about.

Every person who passed by her questioned her why she was sitting there and she just waved them all off. It was a good thing no-one heard her singing like an idiot, she would have become the laughing stock. But then again, everyone in this syndicate was always so serious that even Ying would say they all needed to chill a bit.

Even after dawdling around, she couldn't help the restlessness. So, she fished out her phone and dialed a number. "Ring... Ring... Normal people sleep at this time." Just after two rings, the phone was picked up and she could hear that warm voice from the other end.

"I know, Zizi. But you're not exactly normal." She giggled at her own answer while Xin Zimen only shook his head at her response. She had chosen to call him after seeing the time, he normally woke up 4:30 in the morning. Even if he went to sleep just a couple of hours ago. 

"I'm not normal but you usually are. So, why are you awake at this time?" he questioned. Ying stayed quiet for so long that he could have thought the call was disconnected if only he couldn't hear her soft breathing. "What's on your mind, Ying?"

"I have a question for you." Xin Zimen frowned but stayed silent to let her complete her sentence. "I'll give you two names and you have to describe both people in only one word. Okay?"

"What game are you playing? And is this really the time to play?"

"Zizi! Can't you just for once go along with what I say without asking too much?"

Xin Zimen sighed loudly. "Okay. Go ahead."

"Wen Ai," she said the first name. 

Xin Zimen furrowed his brows. "Are you really asking me to describe my wife in one word?" As he heard her humming in response, his frown deepened. "Well... It's actually quite easy to describe my wife in one word." He took a brief pause before replying, "Ai."

"Huh? Why are you repeating her name?"

"Because her name describes her the best. Ai means love. And Wen Ai was literally, love."

Ying froze for a moment not knowing how to respond to that. She really wasn't expecting this reply from him. Now how was she supposed to ask him to describe 'Carina Novell'? Somehow she didn't want to hear it anymore. She was just trying to clear up her confusion but he just messed up her mind even more!

'I'm willing to die but I'm definitely not willing to believe that this man could cheat on his wife. There is no way I'm believing that!'

"Why are you so quiet? What about the second name?" he inquired bringing her out of her trance.

"Oh, forget it. I lost the mood to play. I'll call you later."

"Hey!" He called out but...

"Beep! Beep!" 

The call was disconnected leaving him all confused. Why was this girl messing with his brain early in the morning?

"You're so random that it's even hard for me to catch up with your antics," he muttered himself and shook his head. He knew that she had a habit of calling whenever something bothered her. That's why she was so random. But that's what made her feel so real and genuine.