Imperfect Desires

If there was one thing Darren disliked about Xiu, that would be her drinking habits. But the worst of it was the fact that he couldn't help loving her drunk version which was bolder than the sober one.

When Dylan out of nowhere asked him to come with him, he really wasn't expecting to end up at a bar. Because a certain girlfriend told him, she was gonna go back to rest. He really should have asked how exactly she was planning on resting because last time he checked, people definitely didn't come to a bar for resting.

No matter how frustrated he felt, it was poofed in the air when his eyes fell on Xiu who was walking towards the entrance while supporting her body with the wall. Okay, she was drunk! Like really drunk!

Darren pursed his lips and rubbed his forehead when he heard Dylan's voice from beside, "Take care of you girl, she's getting a lot of unnecessary attention." While Dylan patted his shoulder, Darren also noticed those eyes on his Xiu which enraged him. Daren pushed Dylan aside as he was about to walk towards Xiu when Dylan held his wrist and added, "Don't murder anyone. I really want the tradition of going to jail to end now."

Darren glared at him making him back off. With raging eyes, he walked up to Xiu who was looking like a lost puppy now. Apparently, she forgot what she was going to do or where she was going.

Her feet staggered when Darren held her arms to support her up. "Th-Thanks..." she slurred before adding a hiccup at the end. Darren didn't reply and kept staring at her. She was trying to open her eyes to look around but everything was blurry at this point. "I came with someone." She held her head between her hands and tried to recall, "I just can't remember who? Argh!"

Darren heaved a long sigh as he asked, "Looking for someone?"

Xiu nodded her head and tilted her head to look at him. "I am looking for someone. Just doesn't know who is it?"

"Perhaps, you're looking for your Mr. Right?"

"Why would I wait for him? Mr. Right is lost on his way."

He quirked his brow at her answer with a faint smile at the corner of his lips.

"Then what are you doing?" He questioned in amusement.

She placed both her hands on his chest and pushed his masculine body against the wall taking him by surprise.

Her honey-brown eyes blinked at him with mischief dancing in them as she planted a firm kiss at his jaw and said, "I'm planning on taking advantage of Mr. Right Now!"

His eyes widened dramatically in disbelief before his eyes darkened with desire and passion. But more than anything, he was mad. Was she really that drunk? She was really gonna take advantage of just anyone? What? Just what did she say? Mr. Right Now? Oh, how he wanted to... Urgh!

He placed his hands on her small waist and she could feel the heat of his big hands through the flimsy fabric of her shirt. His grip was tight. So tight that Xiu felt a tinge of pain.

"Ah... It's hurting!" she whined but oddly, didn't even make an effort to push him away. Instead, her hands simply clutched his arms.

"It's hurting?" he questioned with a fire burning in his eyes. "Do you realize how much it's hurting me seeing how you can't even recognize me right now? And even worse, you don't even think that I'm your mister right. But you're more than okay to take advantage of mister right now?"

Xiu laughed at his outburst. She slowly tip-toed as her face nuzzled her way towards his neck saying, "You're not my mister right. And I won't call you that either." Darren frowned at her reply while she tilted her head to look into his eyes. "Why would I call you mister right when to me, you're my home?" Darren was stunned staring in her honey-brown orbs which were glistening beautifully. "I don't need to see you just so I can recognize you." She patted his chest right above his heart as she leaned her head on his shoulder and whispered softly, "This is the only place I can call home. And I always know it when I'm home."

Darren closed his eyes as his forehead leaned against hers. "Do you still plan on taking advantage of this Mr. Right Now?"

Xiu grinned widely. "I'm planning on doing it for the rest of my life."

His head leaned ahead as he whispered close to her ear, "Feel free to take whatever you want." He bit her earlobe softly as he added, "You don't even need to ask." 

She felt his hot tongue licking her earlobe making her heart beat erratically. In Xiu's intoxicated state, she could forget the world but she could never fail to recognize him. Not anymore. Even her drunk version had embedded his presence into her heart. Now, whether she was sober or drunk, she could feel his presence without even knowing it how.

She didn't know what it was or how it was, but she could guarantee that every fiber of her being had come to recognize him and his touch. It was as if he not only had kissed her body to claim her but he had kissed her soul to leave a mark that was gonna stick till death or perhaps, even after that.

After being a tease, Darren held her in his arms tightly letting her put her whole weight on him. "You drank again?"

"I missed you," she mumbled softly against his chest.

"And that's your excuse?"

Xiu shook her head back and forth, "That's not an excuse. It's a fact that I really missed you."

He really couldn't argue with that statement and neither did he want to. "Shall we go home?" asked Darren caressing her head.

"No."

"Why not?"

"You'll leave again."

Darren chuckled at her reaction. "I won't go anywhere."

"Promise?"

Darren looked in her eyes and couldn't help nodding. "Yes, I promise."

Xiu thought about it before saying, "Okay then. But I don't wanna walk. You have to carry me."

"You want me to carry you?"

Xiu nodded her head. "I want a piggyback ride." Seeing Darren's reluctant expression, she tugged at his sleeve. "Please. Pretty please!"

Darren gave in sooner than one would blink as he crouched down allowing her to get on his back. Her arms wrapped around her neck while she placed her head on his back. 

"You're acting like one of those clingy and attention-seeking girlfriends."

"You don't like that?"

Darren shook his head, "No, I love it since you rarely ask for anything."

"I don't wanna be a bother," mumbled Xiu.

Darren stopped walking, turned his head a little to say, "But I really want you to bother me. Bother me all you want."

"You'll get annoyed."

"I'll never get annoyed."

"Eh? Why is that?"

"Because I'm more than willing to do anything for you. OW! Why did you hit me?" 

Xiu had hit his shoulder with a pout disrupting his sweet words. "You call me sweets but the one talking sweet is always you."

"Haha... But you love it. Just like you love me."

Xiu ran her fingers through his hair slowly. "I hate it."

"You hate me?" gasped Darren.

"No. I hate the fact that you make me feel like falling in love all over again whenever I lay my eyes on you. And I also hate it that I keep falling for you over and over and over again. And I hate it that each time I fall harder. I hate it that you can control my emotions so well. I hate this feeling of being scared that what if I lost you? I hate it that I don't even know how to live without you anymore. And I hate it that I can't help any of these feelings. And worse of all, I hate it that I still love every single feeling I have for you."

Darren would have loved to see her face as she rambled on and on like that. And that's why he put her down and turned around to look at her. Her face was red just like earlier because she was drunk but now, it somehow was redder. Her eyes were blinking at him with no haziness. Instead, her eyes looked clear now. 

Xiu nestled her face into his chest. "Stop looking at me like that. I really don't know how to love you any more than I already do."

"You might not know but I do," began Darren. "I know that I'm gonna love you even more than this. Because to me, it's really not enough. I'm gonna keep loving you until you get sick and tired of me. But I still won't stop. I'll still hold onto you. I'd still love you and only you."

Xiu hit his chest this time, "Do you want me to cry?"

 "No."

"Then stop talking already!"