Because I Cannot Hurt You

Jack Si stared at her. He coughed and then looked away. "...That I am not God."

"Correct. You are a human. You should know your limits. You are just God's medium through which you perform your magic. That doesn't mean you get the super duper power of controlling someone's life and death. I don't even understand what you're moping for? Xiaosi is in a coma, yes. But he is ALIVE, thanks to you. That's your awesome magic right there, staring straight at you, but you are too blind to see it. You should get your eyes checked."

He didn't know whether to laugh or cry.

"I mean, there wasn't even the possibility of him surviving, but he did because he was in your hands. Now we have hope because of you. I know it's uncertain when he will wake up, but it's an option I will happily choose over knowing that he is dead and cannot wake up anymore. I am pretty sure Caihong is glad with that option too. So again, what are you sad for?"

Jack Si smiled. "Nothing."

"Good. Now will you make me ramble that long-ass story again?"

"No."

She smacked him on his head and pushed away. "Now, shoo."

"Hey, it was feeling good on your lap! Don't just throw me away so soon," he couldn't help but complain.

"If you like lap pillows so much, go find another one," Shuang snorted.

"I just concluded that your lap pillow is the best," he smiled.

"How many lap pillows have you been on to compare like that?"

He coughed and scratched his chin. "A few. That's why I know that Shuang's the best," he seriously said.

"Get lost," she chuckled. 

"At least give me a consolation kiss."

"You are out of your depression spiral already, so you don't need any consolation."

"You are stingy."

"Thank you for the compliment."

They laughed together. Shuang patted his shoulder. "When I tell this to Xiaosi how you doubted yourself, I would be ready with my popcorn to enjoy the show. You know, when he will chase after you to kill you."

Jack Si grimaced. "Hey, don't do that. You are being cruel now."

Shuang laughed and gave him a thumbs up. "All the best."

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The Han villa was deadly quiet today. Nobody came for breakfast. The maids felt as if the house suddenly turned into a horror house. But they were saved as Yunru would occasionally pass. He had stayed the night at the villa with Zizi, and now he was preparing her breakfast. He knew she wouldn't eat at all. That's why he was there to make sure that she did.

The maid, "Do you need any help?"

Yunru smiled. "I am good. It's almost done. I just hope that Princess doesn't throw a fit to eat."

She smiled. "Young mistress won't. She loves you so much. She will be thrilled eating the food made by you."

"Haha. She might even click pictures for commemoration."

"She will be even more thrilled if you feed her," she coughed.

He chuckled. "I will get to that if she doesn't heed my words."

Yunru carried the breakfast tray and reached her room. He thought he would also drop the subject about her living at his house with Soo Enlai for a few days.

He gently opened the door and peeked inside. He imagined Zizi to be still sleeping. But she wasn't in bed.

Is she already awake?

He stepped inside and put the tray on the bedside table. He walked up to the washroom and knocked on the door. "Princess?"

He heard nothing. He didn't hear any sound of water from inside either.

Strange…

"Princess?" He called again.

No answer.

Yunru cleared his throat. "If you don't say anything then I will open the door, okay? Then don't call me a pervert. I just want to check if you are alright."

He slightly opened the door and peeked inside again. Zizi wasn't there.

Ah?

He checked it again and Zizi wasn't really inside. 

He frowned. "Where is she?"

A few minutes later, Yunru really didn't find Zizi to be anywhere in the villa or the garden. The maids also didn't see her anywhere.

But the guards at the gate did see her leaving.

"Where did she go?"

The guards shook their heads. "We don't know, Sir. She headed out without a car, so we asked if we should call the driver for her, but she shook her head and didn't respond."

Where will she go without a car?

Even her phone was in the room. There was no way to contact her at all.

"When did this happen?"

"Around twenty minutes back."

I was making breakfast then…She wouldn't have gone far on foot.

Yunru rushed outside and started his bike. He searched the area far and wide, but he still didn't see Zizi anywhere.

Did she catch a cab later on? Damn! But wait. She didn't take her purse with her either. She wouldn't have anything to pay with.

Yunru combed his hair in frustration.

No phone, money, no car...how did she appear in such a short time?

When he went back to the villa, Xia Liqin and Han Tian had already heard the news. "Yunru! Did you find Zizi?" She asked as she cried. "Where is she?"

Han Tian anxiously looked behind. "I don't see her. Where is she?"

Yunru was grim. "I didn't find her in the vicinity."

"What? She couldn't have gone far without a car."

"Exactly. That's what I don't understand."

"Oh God…" Xia Liqin collapsed on the couch, "It's all my fault...I should have been there with her last night. Sh-she must be angry at all of us for hiding and now she has left…" she covered her mouth and sobbed. "It is too much for her to handle this. She will hate me now."

"Aunt, it's not your fault. I think Princess would have left anyway…"

He clenched his fists, furious at his carelessness.

"I really shouldn't have left her side."

Han Tian almost caught her shoulder but then pulled his hand back. He looked away and said, "Stop talking nonsense and blaming yourself. Nobody is at fault here. After everything that has happened, she might need some time alone. I think we should respect her privacy and wait for sometime. I am sure she will return."

Yunru couldn't argue with his logic. It made sense. But he still felt uncomfortable.

Will you really be back, Princess?