Because I Cannot Hurt You

Siying stiffened.

"You know what an orphanage is, right? It's a place where all pitiful children grow up together who don't have any parents. I heard them talking about spending a huge deal of money to send you there."

Han Guang narrowed her eyes and saw Siying's condition was turning paler. He wasn't responding but that didn't mean he wasn't listening. 

Mama Dada send me…?

She sighed. "You know I was so furious at them, but it seemed that they already made their decision. Your blunder made them not want you anymore. After all, who will want to keep a child beside them who threatens to take their life? What if you did something once again and put them in danger? I see, so they are already taking all the precautions."

Siying felt as if his mind turned blank.

"I told you, didn't I? Xinyi hates you now. You tried to kill her that she couldn't forgive. She was just pretending to love you. All this love and care until now was also her fake act. Do you know how they are going to do it?"

Silence.

Han Guang sneered. "They know that you will cause a ruckus if they directly take you to an orphanage and leave you there. You would cry and cry and not let them go. That would be such a huge hassle for them. They don't want to waste any energy on you. They want to shed off your responsibility now. So they will just drop you at school tomorrow and never come back to pick you up. They will send someone else to take you to the orphanage. They are tired of taking care of you at home. No matter what they do, you sit mute like that. That is their plan to dump you for good."

Tears pooled in his eyes and his body trembled.

"So Siying," she leaned and smiled at him. "Before they could dump you, you dump your parents first. After school, tomorrow, just leave the school grounds and don't return. It's not like they are gonna come to take you anyway. If you don't trust me, you can try waiting for Xinyi. But she wouldn't arrive at all."

He shook in his place.

"Siying. I am telling this for your own good. You don't know how harsh life is in an orphanage. You have to mingle with poor kids, eat poor food, wear torn clothes and so much more. The kids are all bullies and they will only trouble and beat you. Your life will be horrible! You will be an orphan even if you have parents. I cannot believe Xinyi would go to this stage to punish you. But I told you, didn't I? Parents don't like troublesome kids. So as an elder who cares about you, you should run away before your parents dump you in an orphanage."

Han Guang got up and said, "Think about it, Siying. Don't let her do as she pleases. Run away before they ruin your life."

She quickly left the room, leaving Siying in a daze. Han Guang sneered.

"Well, well, get ready Xinyi to lose your one and only son forever. After this, let me see how you still act arrogant in this house."

A minute later, as Xinyi was about to enter, she saw a faint silhouette at a distance going away.

"Who was that…?" She murmured.

As she stepped in, she saw a glass filled with juice on the table and wondered.

Who brought the juice here for Siying? Maybe Zhiyuan asked a maid.

She sat beside Siying and hugged him as she smiled. "Siying. What do you think about going to school tomorrow?"

He froze.

"Dada and I were thinking that you might have gotten bored in the house all day. You like your classes and playing with Leina and Chyou, right?"

Siying stared blankly at her. Somehow, looking at him like that made her heart jump in her chest in fear. His gaze was distant and she didn't know what he was thinking.

For a moment, I thought that Siying looked really different…

She kissed his forehead. "What do you think, Siying? Don't worry. We won't be forcing you. If you really don't feel like going to school, that's okay too. We will do as you wish."

Siying trembled. By that point, Han Guang's words had deeply got rooted in his heart. Just like she said, Xinyi and Zhiyuan were planning to take him to school.

Mama Dada don't want Siying...Mama Dada mad at me…

"Siying?" She softly called him. "What do you want? Do you want to go to school?"

He stayed silent for a long time before he slowly nodded his head. Xinyi brightened.

He reacted to me! He nodded his head.

Her heart leaped in joy, seeing her son finally respond. That meant that slowly and steadily, he was getting back to normalcy.

"Really?"

He nodded again. Even if he didn't speak, Xinyi was happy nevertheless. What was important was that he was reacting rather than not saying or acting anything at all.

"Okay, dear. I will talk to your Dada about it."

She kissed his cheek and tears rimmed her eyes. "My Siying will be hopping and jumping in no time. Then I will bake you a chocolate cake again!" She chuckled.

I am sure tomorrow will be a good day for Siying!

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The next morning at school, Xinyi and Zhiyuan stepped out with Siying holding their hand.

"Siying!" Leina and Chyou hopped to his side and brightly smiled. "You are back! I missed you!"

Chyou nodded. "I missed Siying too! Now we will play a lot."

Siying said nothing to which they pouted. Xinyi bent and smiled. "Leina. Chyou. Will you take care of Siying?"

They nodded hard. "We will take care of Siying!"

Zhiyuan chuckled. "Thank you." He rubbed his head. "You are gonna enjoy a lot today, right Siying?"

He kept quiet.

Xinyi and Zhiyuan sighed. They just hoped that after school, Siying might lighten up a bit. They bent and kissed his cheek. "Mama loves you a lot."

"But Dada loves you more," he chuckled.

Xinyi looked at him indignantly but then burst into a soft smile. "Mama will come to pick you up after the school is over, okay?"

His eyes slightly widened and he trembled. They left and Siying went inside with Leina for the class. The whole day went by in classes and much to their disappointment, Siying didn't play or talk to them at all.

Leina fumed. "Siying why aren't you playing with us?"

Siying said nothing. He silently clenched his pants and looked away. No matter how Leina and Chyou tried to talk to them, he didn't show any reaction. They did their best to make him laugh but nothing worked.

After school, the Xu and Zhu families sent their drivers to pick Leina and Chyou respectively. Usually, it's Liang or Ah Cy and Xiaosi who always came to pick them up, but all of them were really busy today. Caihong's foot sprain wasn't completely healed either so she couldn't come as well.

Siying was the only one left. He recalled Han Guang's words. "She will not come to pick you. You can try and wait."

"They will send someone else to take you to the orphanage."

"Run away before they could ruin your life."

Siying's heart raced faster and the color drained from his face. This was it. Xinyi and Zhiyuan were never going to return. He looked towards the gate and waited for Xinyi. Han Guang said that he could try waiting for her and he wanted to. He really wanted his Mama to come. Maybe Xinyi would forgive him and change her mind. So, he obediently sat down and waited.

But even after almost an hour had passed by, Xinyi didn't arrive. Usually, she would be always present five minutes before the classes ended. As soon as Siying would step out, he would see her waving her hand at him. But this time, she was late.

He quivered and tears streamed down his cheeks.

Mama Dada hate me...Mama not come...Mama don't want Siying anymore…

His teacher gently put her hand on his shoulder. "Aiyaaa don't cry, Siying. Your Mama will come soon. Maybe something made her late. Let me take you to the swing there, and she will arrive before you finish your ride. Oh, wait! I will bring some cupcakes too! You like cupcakes, right? Hehe, we will enjoy ourselves while having our ride."

She quickly headed back and hummed a tune merrily. But as she returned, she didn't find Siying anywhere.

"Where is Siying? Oh! I think Mrs. Han must have come to pick him up. That's good!" She nodded.

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A few minutes later, Xinyi finally arrived, huffing and puffing. She quickly rushed inside and saw Siying's homeroom teacher. "Siying! I am here. Sorry. Mama is late."

The teacher was surprised. "Mrs. Han?"

She smiled. "Hello. Sorry for being late. Where is Siying?"

The teacher looked at her stunned. "Siying? He is not here. Didn't you come and pick him ten minutes ago?"

Xinyi blinked her eyes. "No, I didn't. I just arrived right now."

She turned pale as she suddenly froze. "W-what do you mean that Siying is not here?