Because I Cannot Hurt You

"It's because you are so pathetic that a child felt the need to interfere in your marriage! It's all because of you! Do you think I blame Siying? The kids just tried to cover up the mess that you have created!"

Zhiyuan stiffened. He faintly smiled. "I know. It's my fault. It's all...my fault. If I…"

If I had realized my feelings sooner, Siying wouldn't have had to take all the stress. He wouldn't have ever realized that our marriage was different from Ah Cy and Liang's. It's all my mistake.

He clenched his fist as the guilt weighed heavily on him. A three-year-old child wasn't supposed to worry about his parent's marriage and fear their separation.

"Grandpa, how many times have I told you to stop blaming Zhiyuan all the time?" Xinyi pursed her lips.

"And how many times have I told you to stop defending him in front of me!" Han Huizhong glared at her.

Soo Enlai quickly said, "Elder Han, Xinyi. This is not the time for this. Siying is the most important one now. This argument is not good for him."

He snorted.

Yunru sighed and tugged at Zhiyuan. "Let me sit beside him."

Zhiyuan nodded and got up. As Yunru climbed on the bed, he pulled Siying to his side. "Hey, buddy. Your most favorite uncle in the whole world is here!"

Siying didn't react. Yunru picked him and suddenly swirled him high in the air. Xinyi gasped. "Yunru!"

"It's fine sis. Don't worry so much," he rolled his eyes. "Such a worrywart."

Siying's eyes widened as he was suddenly in the air. As he came down, his stomach tickled and he couldn't help but smile in laughter. It was ever so faint, but it did manage to crack his blank reaction.

Yunru laughed and caught him. He flipped him in the air again, and this time he smiled wider than before. But as soon as the tickling effect faded away, he would revert to his impassive expression. He would just smile temporarily and go back to his original condition.

Yunru chuckled. "See? Ah sis, brother-in-law. You are too cautious with him. My nephew is not that weak. Right, Siying?"

Siying softly clutched his shirt and buried his face in his chest. Zizi watched the whole scene, dumbfounded. Siying was so unresponsive that she didn't think Yunru would manage to make him move.

Han Huizhong laughed. "This is what I was talking about? What are you two just hugging and cuddling him like a delicate creature? Siying is not weak! Useless parents!"

Xinyi and Zhiyuan - "..."

Yunru chuckled. "See? Your grandpa is scolding your parents. Funny, right? Hahaha! It's always so funny when parents are being yelled at and not the kids."

Siying peeked his head sideways and saw the sulky faces of his parents. Then he buried his face again.

Xinyi pursed her lips. "Siying won't talk to Mama?"

"Nope," Yunru chuckled, "because Uncle is here now. Uncle is more important than Mama and Dada. See? He is hugging me and not you."

Xinyi grumbled while Zhiyuan burst into soft laughter.

Zizi's mouth twitched. She quietly stared at him. She noticed that he was really good at handling kids. Even Xinyi and Zhiyuan couldn't budge Siying, but he did even if only a little bit. She noticed how warm his gaze was as he was gently running his hand across his back. 

He will be a good father in the future…

She stiffened.

What the hell! Why am I thinking of that!? What does it have to do with me if Yunru will be a good father or not?

She felt embarrassed and her cheeks flushed.

It's all because of Grandpa! He suddenly talked about great-grandchild and all a-and now it's the only thing going on in my stupid head!

Soo Enlai's gaze fell upon Zizi and caught how she was lost in her daze as she stared at Yunru. He blinked his eyes and elbowed Han Huizhong. "Correct me if I am wrong but for some reason, Zizi is blushing right?"

Han Huizhong glanced at her and his brow raised in curiosity. Her line of sight traced in Yunru's direction. 

"Hooo…my idiot granddaughter is shy."

Soo Enlai brightened. "I knew it! Something is going between them. I don't know why they were so vehemently opposing this when I asked them."

"Isn't it because Yunru has a girlfriend?"

Soo Enlai widened his eyes. "Huh? No, he doesn't."

"Yes, he does. He said it himself."

Soo Enlai was speechless. "Girlfriend? He never told me."

Han Huizhong narrowed his eyes. "He clearly mentioned it at the time when we were at the police station."

Soo Enlai coughed. "*Ahem* I am sorry for that day. Yunru arrested Zizi and caused you and her a lot of trouble."

He sneered. "She caused trouble first. I am proud of Yunru for arresting her. Couldn't have done it better myself."

His brow twitched.

"Anyway. But Yunru has clearly said he has a girlfriend."

Soo Enlai shook his head. "No, Elder Han. He doesn't have a girlfriend. That stupid son is lying! Idiot."

"Why do you think so?"

"Because I asked him on the day when Zizi and Yunru were together. I was really excited, knowing about their relationship, but they were denying it! I asked Yunru why he was hesitating so much and if he already has a girlfriend. But he said no."

Han Huizhong raised his brow.

Soo Enlai fumed. "He lied to you, Elder Han. There is no way he has a girlfriend. I think he lied because at that time, Yunru and Zizi hated each other when they first met. He thought I would pester him to date Zizi nevertheless, so he just randomly said about having a girlfriend to escape it. This is not the first time. He has lied to me many times!"

"Sounds reasonable…" he touched his chin.

"Of course. Yunru has no reason to lie to me about a girlfriend. Even if he did have one, I wouldn't be against it. I would have welcomed her into the family. After all, I trust my son's choice."

Han Huizhong smiled.

Soo Enlai nodded. "But now I think that things have changed between Yunru and Zizi. They like each other now!"

As she said that, Han Huizhong watched Zizi in silence. She was always a spoiled brat and at first, he thought that Yunru was a good match for her. But that didn't work out and after the arrest incident, he honestly didn't want Zizi and Yunru to marry anymore only because he didn't want Yunru to suffer living with her. His one decision in the past had already caused the ruin of one sibling by marrying Xinyi into the Han family. He didn't want another Han to destroy another Soo's life anymore.

But Han Huizhong was a sharp man. He had already noticed how Zizi was slowly changing. She stopped fighting with Xinyi. She stopped saying harsh things to her. He didn't know what caused the change in her, but if it was because she fell for Yunru, then it made all sense.

How could she love Yunru and hate Xinyi at the same time? They were siblings after all and deep down Zizi always knew that Xinyi wasn't a manipulative woman that she misunderstood her to be. She just idolized Caihong a lot that made her blind to the facts and Xinyi's kindness.

Even at that time when he questioned her if nothing happened between them, Zizi couldn't confidently answer. So he understood that they didn't have sex, yet something still happened between them that made Zizi make that red face. And now again, she was staring at Yunru with a gentle gaze that always held humiliation and mockery for him before.

Han Huizhong smiled. "Well, then Soo Enlai. We shouldn't waste time."

Soo Enlai brightened. "En!" 

He looked at Siying and his heart ached in pain. "Once Siying gets all better, we will move ahead with Yunru and Zizi."

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Outside, as Yunru was about to leave, Zizi suddenly called him out. "Wait Yunru!"

He stopped and turned. "Princess."

"T-Thank you for helping Siying. I was really scared to see him acting so distant…But he seemed much better when he was with you."

He smiled. "You don't have to thank me, Princess. He is my nephew too."

She nodded.

Then she hesitated a bit. "T-that…"

"Hm?"

"Did you clear it with Uncle Soo? I mean the misunderstanding."

"Ah. Yes, I did. Don't worry. Dad won't bother you anymore. Did Grandpa say anything?"

She stiffened as she recalled the talk about the child. "Nothing at all!"

Yunru raised his brow. "Why are you so riled up?"

"None of your concern!" She looked away.

Zizi peeked at him and felt a burning desire to ask him something. But she didn't know if it was right or not.

"Alright then. Back to work. Bye."

As Yunru was about to step outside, she suddenly asked, "How long are you going to chase after her if she doesn't love you?"

He froze. He slowly turned and narrowed his eyes at her. "What?"

Zizi gulped, seeing his serious expression. But she stood her ground as she met his gaze. "Don't you think you should give up on her?"