Novel Full Chapter 70 - Consistency
Dean watched April for a while and ended up falling asleep beside her. The two lay on the bed together as the sun had set and the moon hung high in the dark sky. Stars lit up the sky and the moon cast a shadow on the two sleeping lovers. The shadow still and calm reflecting the delicate nature and innocence of the two that slept so blissfully.
Hours later when April stirred she realised how warm and comfortable she was. She buried her head into the warmth and found the surrounding scent was both calming and familiar. She soon realised that the warmth was also breathing.
Her eyes snapped open and she looked up in a panic.
When she saw Dean fast asleep she was both shocked and relieved. As he slept he had both arms wrapped around her body protective, completely surrounding her. His eyelashes were as long as hers, his chin was slightly stubbly and he had a dark shadow cast on his chiselled jaw. This made him even more attractive and masculine.
It then dawned on her that he had left her wounded and in hospital, neither had she let him into her apartment either and now he was sleeping beside her, she was furious. She lifted her leg and was about to strike when her leg was held in place.
Dean had been awake all along and waited patiently for April to make her move before he did. He hoped she would embrace him back but due to her feisty nature, she had decided to kick him out of bed.
"Now now, no need to hurt the goods darling, you will only hurt yourself in the long run." Dean realises he was teasing her but he enjoyed her comebacks.
April smirked and let out a dry laugh, "As if there is anything of yours that is of any use to me. Hurt myself... I'd rather paint the whole condo with a qu-tip than have you anywhere near me." April released her venom, she was livid he left her hanging, worrying and wondering.
Dean had expected her response. She started to squirm away from him and he frowned. Did she forget that she was injured? He rolled on top of her body pinning her to the bed. He just wanted her not to open the stitches in her arm, but he realised their positions were a little dangerous.
April's face flushed instantly, "You... You devil. Get off me or I swear I will beat you."
Dean smiled, "Yes your very intimidating."
April signed and puffed her cheeks out as she gave up struggling and lay there. After a few minutes, she looked up and saw Deans intimate and endearing gaze. Her frown disappeared and she took all of him in. Her soul reaching out to his. Her soul seemed drawn to him like a twin flame. They were both each others mirror, two half's of one soul.
She shook her head, she didn't deserve love. Maybe all we are meant to be is beautifully unfinished. Maybe we are a story without a true ending a love hanging in the balance. Still incandescent, never fully extinguished.
Dean saw her light diminish but he didn't know her thoughts so he spoke from his heart, "I am going to be completely honest with you... I can not JUST be friends with you. I fell in love with you. I can't just stop loving you. You are all I think about. I think about you when I wake in the morning, in the middle of the day my mind drifts to you and what you are doing. Then again late at night as I rest my head on my pillow you are in my thoughts again. It's you and will always be you. Thank you for making me believe I am able to love and be loved. Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for sticking with me and protecting me. Thank you for all the memories we have made so far and yet to make together. I'll love you for eternity. What can I give you to prove myself that you have never had before?"
Dean was hovering over her body intimately as he has poured his heart out to her earnestly.
April thought about it for a while, her answer was simple. Consistency, "If you want to give me something no man has ever given to me, then don't give me mixed signals nor mixed emotions that leave me wondering. Im tired of wondering. If you are going to be here with me, then be here, if you ever feel the need to leave, then stay gone. All I need from someone at this point is consistency... Would you not prefer the perfect girl?"
Dean knew her past and her inner worries so he interjected, "I don't want perfect I just need someone who won't give up on me that's it. Your eyes are my peace, your smile is my happiness, your lap is my comfort, your arms are my home. You are my world please understand that."
April thought for a moment in the past, she had thought that the man she would fall in love with would be kind and gentle with a smile that was like the spring breeze.
Now, she realized that she preferred decisiveness and unruliness. She preferred a man who was ruthless but gentle and cared only for her. Her divine counterpart in this life, she was unsure why they shared this intense connection. But she knew he was hers.
Knowing she was overthinking Dean opened up again. He could only persistently reassure her through his words and actions, "We only have two lives and we begin our second life when we realise we only get one life. So im not wasting any time. The thing is with thinking negatively, that negativity is like clouds that pass over the sun. So they will pass, let's not dwell on it and move past it."