Chapter 820 If It Were Not for My Love for You (2)

Mu Sijue’s eyes suddenly darkened, and he stared at Xu Youning.

He seemed calm.

However, Xu Youning knew him too well. At this moment, there was something surging in his eyes, for he was probably annoyed by her question.

Was Mu Sijue annoyed? This sounded fun.

Xu Youning was just about to continue when Mu Sijue took hold of her wrist.

He looked at Xu Youning gloomily, and asked, “Xu Youning, do you have any feelings?”

Xu Youning put her hand on her heart and replied, “I do. What’s wrong?”

“Since you do, why can’t you feel them?” Mu Sijue suddenly pulled Xu Youning into his arms and said, “After you told me that you were working undercover, I let you go. When I found out that you would be in danger living with Kang Ruicheng, I took you back. If it weren’t for my love for you, Xu Youning, do you think you’d still be alive today?”

If It weren’t for my love for you…

Having been by Kang Ruicheng’s side for so many years, Xu Youning had been ruthless enough to dish out some huge blows.

But this was the first time that someone had dished out a huge blow in her world.

“Boom!”

Xu Youning’s world suddenly felt distorted, and even Mu Sijue, right in front of her, seemed unreal.

In fact, a week ago in the ward, when Mu Sijue had told her the truth about her successful escape, she had begun to have doubts.

However, when Mu Sijue personally told her that he loved her, she still could not help doubting it—

Could this man be Mu Sijue’s double? Or was someone else wearing Mu Sijue’s human skin mask?!

Mu Sijue, the famous Brother Mu Qi, had he really fallen in love with her?

Xu Youning couldn’t help reaching out to touch Mu Sijue’s face. Well, it seemed to be real.

Then, her hands fell from Mu Sijue’s shoulder to his waist. Everything felt familiar to her, and she felt warm!

Mu Sijue frowned and said in a dangerous tone, “Xu Youning, do you want to continue touching me?”

Xu Youning looked down and found that her hands were on the belt of Mu Sijue’s trousers. If she continued touching him, it would be his…

Yah!

Xu Youning withdrew her hands as if she had been zapped by an electric shock. In order not to make herself look guilty, she looked straight into Mu Sijue’s eyes. But, feeling as if she had been burned by something, she then subconsciously looked away.

It was over. She really didn’t know how to face Mu Sijue.

“Xu Youning.” Mu Sijue stared at her with sparkling eyes. “What are you thinking about?”

Xu Youning gazed at the green trees outside and said, “If I’d known that you’d admit it, I would…” Her voice stopped abruptly midsentence.

“Just what?” Mu Sijue tried to coax her to go on.

Xu Youning had already sensed danger, so she held back her sentence and instead chose to say, “I would have asked earlier!”

Mu Sijue waited for Xu Youning to continue, but nothing happened. He couldn’t help frowning. “Xu Youning, apart from that, do you have something else to say?”

“… What else do I have to say?” Xu Youning’s voice was still deep as she hadn’t properly come to her senses.

She’d always been quick-witted, so it was rare to see her in such a daze.

Mu Sijue studied her gaze and then said unhurriedly, “It doesn’t matter. Anyway, you’ve already said it.”

Xu Youning felt that she’d been led into a maze of words by Mu Sijue. She felt even more confused. “What did I say?”

Mu Sijue sidled closer to Xu Youning. “Do you need me to help you recall how you confessed to me?”

Xu Youning was shocked and almost blurted out, “No, I remember it clearly!”

At that time, in City A, she and Mu Sijue had been attacked by Kang Ruicheng’s men. On the spur of the moment, she had protected Mu Sijue in that car accident.

After the car accident, the blood clot had slowly formed in her brain and had been devouring her life little by little ever since.

Later in the hospital, Mu Sijue had asked her why she had saved him.

She’d made a bet and told him that she liked him.

At that time, she’d thought that she’d be so lucky if Mu Sijue accepted her confession. If Mu Sijue teased her for daydreaming, it didn’t matter. Anyway, they wouldn’t be together in the end.

Later, Mu Sijue had left without saying anything.

Yes, in the face of her confession, Mu Sijue had left without looking back!!!

Xu Youning couldn’t help sneering, and looked into Mu Sijue’s eyes. “Do you need me to help you remember how you refused me? Mu Sijue, you’re the most gutless man I’ve ever seen. Even if you didn’t like me then, you could have just said it. I wouldn’t have used any sorcery to tempt you to fall in love with me. Why did you run away?”

On the one hand, she felt angry when she thought that Mu Sijue had ignored her, and on the other hand, she was deliberately provoking him.

Despite these sudden questions, Mu Sijue did not show any sign of anger. Instead, he looked at her with a more and more serious expression.

“…” Xu Youning had a vague bad feeling, but she couldn’t run away. Otherwise, she would be the second Mu Sijue.

Then Mu Sijue suddenly replied, “I thought you were lying to me.”

Xu Youning was stunned. “What?”

“I thought it was Kang Ruicheng who had told you to say that, and I thought you had other motives.” Mu Sijue said, “Xu Youning, I was not refusing you, I was just angry.”

Xu Youning was stunned. “Mu Sijue, did you already know that I was working undercover when I confessed?”

Mu Sijue gritted his teeth and said, “Why don’t you ask me why I was angry?”

Xu Youning scratched her face and said, “Tell me then.”

She had always had this kind of ability to piss him off.

In the past when she’d been with Mu Sijue, she was going to find someone to get even with, and Mu Sijue had pulled her back. She’d said that it was not working hours so Mu Sijue could not control her anymore.

Mu Sijue then told her that if he couldn’t control her at that point in time, she could do whatever she wanted.

With an innocent look on her face, she said frankly that she could do whatever she wanted 24 hours a day.

Mu Sijue could only swallow his anger and say, “Because I was still happy even if I suspected that you didn’t really like me.”

That’s right. After hearing Xu Youning’s confession, he took it seriously for a moment. At that moment he was also happy.

Xu Youning felt that she had fallen into a maze of words again. “You were angry because you were happy? Mu Sijue, why are you so moody?” Seeing that Mu Sijue’s face darken, she quickly added, “I want to know why you left without saying a word!”

After a long time, Mu Sijue slowly replied, “I was afraid that I would soon feel down.”

She said that she liked him, which actually made Mu Sijue happy, angry and afraid?

But at that time, Mu Sijue had seemed to have no reaction!

Only then did Xu Youning know that when she confessed, Mu Sijue also liked her. However, at that time, Mu Sijue had already found out that she was working undercover, so he thought that her confession was just a way to get her job done.

It seemed that she and Mu Sijue would always misunderstand each other!

When she confessed her love to him, Mu Sijue thought she had other motives.

But when she pretended to believe that Mu Sijue was the murderer, Mu Sijue believed it!

Now, Mu Sijue had confessed his love for her and revealed that he had long since fallen in love with her, but what was the point?

If she told Mu Sijue everything, it would bring him nothing but misery.

She was still useful to Mu Sijue and Lu Boyan.

Xu Youning deliberately changed the subject. “Mu Sijue, when did you start suspecting me?”

“I was the only one who had the information that Kang Ruicheng used to threaten Jian’an. I conducted a private investigation, and all the evidence was lining up in a path that led directly to you.” Mu Sijue smiled with self-mockery and said, “Xu Youning, I never doubted you until Kang Ruicheng threatened Jian’an to divorce Boyan.”

“So, if I hadn’t stolen the information, I might not have been exposed until now, right?” Xu Youning asked.

Mu Sijue stared at her for a while and said, “Maybe…”

If he hadn’t found out that Xu Youning was working undercover, he wouldn’t have controlled himself and he would have allowed himself to fall in love with her.

If he’d confessed his love for Xu Youning first, once she agreed to be with him, maybe he would never have suspected Xu Youning.

“Xu Youning,” Mu Sijue asked, “if I hadn’t suspected you, would you still leave?”

Xu Youning instinctively tried to avoid this question and replied, “I don’t know.”

She had been avoiding his feelings.

Mu Sijue thought he noticed something and, looking carefully at Xu Youning, asked her, “Are you hiding something else from me?”

“No!” Xu Youning immediately replied. “Mu Sijue, you’ve seen me through, haven’t you?”

Mu Sijue smiled slightly and said, “So, you admit that you know Kang Ruicheng is the murderer, right?”

Xu Youning hadn’t expected Mu Sijue to set another trap for her. She said nothing.

“It doesn’t matter if you refuse to admit it. Anyway, you can’t run away.” Mu Sijue sat on the sofa leisurely. “I told you that I would find out everything you’re hiding. Also, you don’t have to think about going back to the Kang family. Boyan and I will soon begin to destroy his power. His good days won’t last long.”

Xu Youning blurted out, “Kang Ruicheng has been in the Golden Triangle for so many years now, and his power is far beyond your imagination! You’d better…” She stopped herself.

“Hmm?” Mu Sijue asked lightly, “Better what?”

“You’d better not act rashly.”

Xu Youning had wanted to persuade Mu Sijue to make full preparations before dealing with Kang Ruicheng, but in this way, it sounded as if she was considering making them for Mu Sijue.

“You’ve done a good job in acting carefully.” Mu Sijue seemed to mean something else.

Xu Youning did not understand. “What do you mean?”

“After returning to the Kang family, if you acted rashly, Kang Ruicheng would definitely not let you live.” Mu Sijue smiled and said, “It was stupid of you to go back to work undercover, but fortunately, you got smarter after you went back.”

“…” It was not that Xu Youning did not want to speak. She really was speechless.

“Xu Youning, don’t say anything, you’re guilty.”

Mu Sijue’s tone was actually a little proud, as if he was a child who thought that he had learned others’ secrets.

To put it bluntly, he was childish!

What should she do? She also liked this childish Mu Sijue.

After everything had become clear, Mu Sijue apparently had no intention of continuing with the topic that she was unwilling to tell the truth. He would look after her and he would join hands with Lu Boyan to deal with Kang Ruicheng. In the end, he would get evidence that Kang Ruicheng had killed her grandmother.

Then, she really would be speechless.

However, there were still some things that she didn’t want Mu Sijue to know.