Will of chaos

After my conversation with Samira I decided to stop thinking about what I will become, maybe I will keep changing or maybe I will continue to be what I am, maybe all these changes were just to adapt to this world, even if I would be considered a psychopath in my world old, but I’ll stop thinking about these things since I’m just going around in a circle with these thoughts never leaving the place, it’s just a waste of time.

I’ll just try to do the best I can to not regret anything I do.

Now I was lying on my bed resting after a long day as my mind tried to process everything I had been told today.

I ended up leaving a lot of things for tomorrow, I have to look for Leonardo to see the drawings for the city which will take a few days, in addition, I have to see the needs of everyone in the Dungeon that fell on Nira and Ivan as responsible for trade, materials, and Ingredients.

I have to see how Rakan and his subordinates have been, it seems that the theoretical Mages have been locking themselves in the mansion’s library and even sleeping there which has been causing some problems for Freya.

Combat Mages seem to train alongside érica, Irina, Jana, Vanessa, Lilian, Lilith, and many other Mages at the camp or behind the mansion.

There are so many things to take care of that have been piling up during these three months that I don’t know where to start.

As if all of that wasn’t enough Nix also said that he has enough DP to increase the number of floors in the Dungeon to more than ten and expand the mansion’s floor even more, but he hadn’t done that yet because to expand the floor of the mansion or moving him around would have to drive people out, which he couldn’t do with the Church of Light chasing us.

So I also need to discuss Dungeon plans with Nix and get the Dungeon started up, but that has to wait until I find a safe place.

Besides, Vanessa seems to want to talk to me about the creation of a Temple of the Blood, I had already approved the construction of something like this since I can also be considered a believer of the Goddess of Blood, in fact, I am her son, but there are so many things that I have to do while I’m exhausted just imagining how busy I’ll be in the next few days.

I was lying on my bed, I found out from Layla that many Fairies and Spirits made my room their resting place, but as I was also informed that they were trying to protect me during my evolution, I decided to let them do what they want.

I was lying on my bed where there were a few dozen Fairies sleeping, in fact, there were hundreds of Fairies and Spirits scattered around the room on top of furniture or lying on the floor, I put my arm over my eyes in an attempt to rest ignoring this situation.

Sigh

“That’s been a long day.” (I)

“I have so many things to think about.” (I)

“I have so many things to do.” (I)

“I have so many things I still must know.” (I)

“I’m tired just thinking about all this, so what do you want to talk to me about?” (I)

“So you noticed my presence?” (Guardian)

“How could I not see you sitting on my bedroom balcony?” (I)

“For you to take the initiative and come talk to me, so it means if you want to say something, please be direct, I’m very tired at the moment.” (I)

“I’ve seen how busy you were, there are a few things I want to talk to you about, but the most important is the promise you made.” (Guardian)

sighs

“(If I remember correctly it’s something she wanted to ask for me, she mentioned it when she helped us in the third city of the Makari Kingdom that we attacked.)” (I)

“I said I would help and I’m sorry it took so long, say what you want, I’m all ears.” (I)

“I want to go somewhere and I would like you to go with me.” (Guardian)

“What place would that be?” (I)

“Since I turned into a Holy Beast I hear her call, I feel that I must go to the place where she is and I would like her to come with me.” (Guardian)

“Who’s calling you?” (I)

“Besides, where do you want to go?” (I)

“I am a Being of the Forest and as such, I have a strong connection with nature, whoever is calling me is using this connection with nature to do this.” (Guardian)

“Who is calling me is the World Tree of this continent, we have to go where it is.” (Guardian)

“…” (I)

“(This can only be a joke, I just woke up after three months and I have so many things to do.)” (I)

“(So why the hell do I now have to head towards the World Tree, something that is sure to get me in big trouble!?)” (I)

Tears

“(Can’t I have a day of rest, why wasn’t I born an ordinary commoner to live off the farms on a small, simple farm in a quiet village, why does everything always have to be so complicated!?)” (I)

“(Why doesn’t anyone make a simple request to me, Jana wanted me to save the mountain range, Diana and the others wanted me to save the continent, now comes another request for me to go towards the World Tree!?) ” (I)

“She’s crying with happiness…” (Guardian)

“Why doesn’t anyone make simple requests like visiting a tourist place… why always complicated things…” (I)

“What is a tourist place?” (Guardian)

“Never mind, just tell me why you want me to come along, I can just take you there if you want.” (I)

“Because I feel like the World Tree wants to talk to you too, I feel like I should take you along.” (Guardian)

I can’t understand why so many problems fall into my head, I don’t know where this World Tree is, but I’m sure it’s not an easy place to reach.

Sigh

“I don’t even know where we should go…” (I)

“I know the direction where we should go, but if you want to know the exact place you can ask Freya and Sophia, as they are Elves they must know where the World Tree is.” (Guardian)

“Can you promise me that there won’t be any problems if we go over there?” (I)

“I don’t know, I think there should be no problem since the World Tree itself is calling me, but you never know what might happen along the way.” (Guardian)

“With my luck, a meteor may fall on my head on the way…” (I)

I get up from the bed and walk to the porch where I lean against the wall looking at the Guardian not far from me.

“Are you in a hurry to go there?” (I)

“No, but I wish we could go soon.” (Guardian)

“I’ll talk to Sophia and Freya tomorrow morning, after that I’ll talk to the others about our next destination.” (I)

“Speaking of which, I still don’t know where we are right now, there’s so much going on that it’s hard to pay attention to the most basic things.” (I)

“I don’t know where we are either, I don’t usually go out of the woods much so I’ll leave it in your hands, you know where to find me.” (Guardian)

The Guardian jumps off the balcony where she was sitting, I know that before I get to the edge of the balcony she will already be gone, so I just look up where I keep seeing the starry sky.

Sigh

“I just hope you don’t have any more problems.” (I)

“Who knows, maybe nothing bad will happen this time and this will really become a tourist trip.” (I)

“As far as I know the World Tree itself is calling us, so we’re being invited, there’s no reason for us to be attacked or something bad to happen.” (I)

“I have to stop being pessimistic, always thinking something bad is going to happen.” (I)

“I’m sure the World Tree is only paying attention to the Guardian because she’s a very rare breed with a strong connection to nature, so it shouldn’t be a big deal.” (I)

“That’s right, it’s going to be a smooth and simple trip where we can enjoy the trip, yes, yes, it will definitely be like that.” (I)

Tears

“See, I’m just crying with happiness to finally have a vacation trip.” (I)

Tears

This is the second time I have felt my heart broken today, if this continues I will have to see a psychologist or a cardiologist, that’s because if I don’t die of a heart attack they will go crazy since I’m not even believing the lies I tell myself.

“I just wanted a few days off, is that asking too much?” (I)

“The master needs to rest, he looks a little dejected.”

“I’m in need of rest, not physically, but mentally.” (I)

“Are you having a lot of problems?”

“It would be easier to ask when I’m not having problems.” (I)

“So do things in your own time, try to solve them one at a time instead of trying to solve everything at once.”

“That’s excellent advice thank you…” (I)

“(Who am I talking to?)” (I)

“No need to thank me, I’m happy to help.” 𝐞𝐨𝘃𝐞𝐥.

“…” (I)

As soon as I turn around I see something standing next to me that wasn’t there before, seeing this may be because of mental exhaustion, maybe because of the strong emotions of today, maybe because of the surprise request I just heard, or maybe because of this unknown creature that somehow appeared beside me, and I ended up passing out.

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