Will of chaos

Pov Alice (Blood Eclipse Saint):

I spent some time with Vanessa, it must be the first time we’ve talked just the two of us for so long.

Seeing the master’s statue and the realization of who I am today compared to my past all got me stuck in the memories of how I got here.

Memories of how I became what I am now.

I still remember that first day.

When I learned he was a Vampire, I almost begged him to change me, a Vampire is so much stronger than a Human, I wanted the power to kill and destroy everything that hurt me, just the thought of the carnage I wanted to do brought a smile to my face.

I wasn’t afraid of him just because I was a Vampire and I wasn’t afraid of losing my Humanity.

My race mattered as much to me as other people’s lives, it was worthless.

But I found something of value that day, it was power, the power to fulfill all my desires, the power to do the killing I always thought of.

I didn’t pay attention to anything else but that, I didn’t care about anything else but what I would do with this kind of power.

All I wanted was that and I would do anything to get that power, I didn’t care if it was the child or one of his so-called children, all I wanted was the power of a Vampire.

For a commoner like me, the tales of the great power of Vampires and how immortal monsters they are were things that one heard from the voices of fear of those who spoke about it.

I couldn’t let this opportunity pass, being a Servant, maid or slave didn’t matter to me as long as I obtained that power to release all the darkness within me onto others.

It started as hatred and obsession with power at first, thanks to which I stopped seeing other things that I was going to gain that day.

“You could have used me as a sex slave, as an experiment for your curiosities, or maybe even turned me into a monster and I would gladly have done all that back then in exchange for a lesser amount of power than I possess today.” (I)

I look at my hand, and I can feel the power within my body, this is so much more power than I ever dreamed possible, but not just power, I also feel the Authority he has entrusted to me and the responsibility of being a Symbol that represents him.

“How can someone be a symbol of a madman… hahahaha…” (I) 𝑜𝘷𝑙.𝘰𝑟𝑔

In the past, right after I was transformed into a Rogue, I threw myself at every opportunity to strengthen myself that I needed, in other words, I put my best effort into my magic studies and combat training.

I didn’t mind my cleaning or cooking tasks, they were just big time wasters for me, but I had to do this kind of work perfectly, and that’s why there was still more power to gain.

I wanted to be as qualified as possible, which is why I didn’t like Miss Freya’s classes and classes on different subjects such as languages, calculations, and general knowledge.

I learned these things to show how competent I am, I also did my best to always be useful to someone.

With time I become stronger and stronger, I also learned many things about the world, about other Races, and especially what it was like to have people who really care about me.

But even though my motives had always been out of selfishness and malice, I was still impressed, Master was always the busiest person at all times.

The master was always reading books and studying magic in his spare time, another thing that worried me was his training, he always came back with his body in pieces to be healed.

One thing I noticed was how much everyone cared about him, and that’s when I started talking to others more, I wanted to know more about the master.

But I would never have believed the story of each of them, I myself saw what Layla looked like before she became the Master’s Familiar, the same can be said of Nix who has been sealed away for so many millennia.

Everyone was saved somehow, but listening to everyone’s stories recently I realized that mine wasn’t even one of the worst, I realized that talking to Ivan, his family tragedy was heavy even for me at that time.

But one thing I didn’t notice was the darkness inside me fading away, only now I see it clearly, having people teach me with care and consideration, and being trained correctly by someone of great competence.

All this was making the darkness inside me become smaller, it took me a long time to notice this, and when I noticed I didn’t know how to react.

Over time something grew inside me, I heard others saying about how everything that was happening was something the master wanted, he asked Miss Irina and Miss Erica to teach me magic as well as other things, and he was the one who told me to Sophia to train me and he was the one who asked Freya to train me as a servant.

Thanks to him I have a home, a family, and many friends, things that the person I was one day couldn’t describe and didn’t want to have.

“You were the one who made the sense to protect grow in me.” (I)

Sigh

“But at the same time, you are so reckless…” (I)

I still remember that day, the fight against the Demon on the Morror Continent, the fight where his body was torn to pieces, I had months of nightmares about what I had seen, and the pain in my chest was greater than anything what I felt before.

It was at that moment that I realized that I had found something more precious to me than anything else, I learned a lot about the master, his good side of helping those with a strong will, his cruel side during combat and especially his terrifying side of how he treats, he does absurd things without realizing it.

———–

I was leaving the Temple when I found Athena, we both smile and I wave for her to follow me, we both open our wings and go out of the city, we are on top of a small mountain where we have a view of the city from above.

“Do you remember what you’ve become?” (I)

“No, but I feel surprised.” (Athena)

“I wanted to be of help to him for once, he’s done so much for me and Loki.” (Athena)

“He accepted me, let me become Vanessa’s daughter, and helped Loki be reborn, even now he has given me more power than I could ever achieve on my own.” (Athena)

I look at Athena, now that I have the power of Authority I know she would never awaken that kind of power in her life, that’s why her heart is not able to see herself, everything she sees is her past.

She can’t see the real her, at least before today, I can see her eyes much clearer and sharper than before.

“You saw it too, didn’t you?” (I)

“…” (Athena)

“You saw that Dream, you saw the path it opened.” (I)

“Yes, I heard rumors about something like that, but I didn’t think it would be true.” (Athena)

“High Priestess Yara told me about these same rumors.” (I)

Rumor has it that when a Saint or Hero is undergoing an evolution their fellow close hands dream of walking on a path where they meet that Saint or Hero.

“I once asked my sister about this, she said she didn’t know anything about these Saints or Heroes.” (Athena)

“But she said with great pride that when she received the title of [ Executioner of Light ] she had a dream of walking a great bright path.” (Athena)

I think there’s a lot I still have to learn as a Saint, I have to ask Miss Vanessa and Miss Yara to help me.

“I know what a Hero should be, a shield and sword to protect those at your back, that’s the kind of Hero I want to be.” (Athena)

“I want the power to protect this place, that was my greatest desire when I decided to go through this Ceremony of Awakening.” (Athena)

“I’ll back you up, but try not to dream anything.” (I)

I look out over the city from where we were standing and it was amazing the way it was possible to see it.

After a few seconds, the sun disappeared leaving only darkness.

I was happy, looks like it wasn’t just me wanting to beef up our defenses so everyone is safe.

Since our Evolution, I can feel that we are connected.

After the master has just given us this power I want to use it for the good of them and everyone around.

When night fell I went back to the mansion, I’ll have to think about how I’m going to get used to this.

“Hoping this time everything works out for all of us, I don’t want any more surprises happening, my heart is overloaded pounding as blood rushes through my body at will.” (I)