Why Did I Become the Villainess?

 "Lady Csille, drink some tea first. We put some herbal on it that is good for wounds." Father Cimon push the teacup towards me.

 I bow my head at him and gladly accept the teacup. I definitely need something to calm myself. 

 I couldn't help but blame myself for everything that was happening. I feel worst. I feel like I really become the villainess of the story.

 Many people suffered and died because of the infectious disease. And the infectious disease exists because of me because of my careless decision to write it. 

 If I only knew that this would happen in real life, I would never dare write it. 

 "Purplany?"

 I blink my eye and look at Rufus. "I'm sorry, did you say something? I just remembered something."

 Rufus frowns. He then put the back of his hand on my forehead. "Are you okay? Why don't you rest first?"

 I shake my head. "How can I rest after seeing the situation here? Rufus, we need to do something immediately. We need to help these people."

 Rufus holds my hand. "Calm down, Csille. I know you want to help, but you should look at yourself first. Are you even fit to help? You have already done too much for the Vrawyth people, Csille. It's time for you to take care of yourself too. Look at your abdomen is bleeding again."

 Father Cimon immediately calls for someone who is knowledgeable in attending wounds. 

 "Lady Csille, you should listen to his highness, Prince Rufus. The people of this town are already happy seeing you here despite your injuries, and I'm sure they will feel guilty if something happens to you while helping us. So, please take care of your health too."

 I look at Father Cimon and Rufus. They are right. If I force myself to help despite my exhausted body, I'm sure my situation will become worst. 

 I need to calm down first and rest. So, I can think rationally. If I can't do physical work, I will do my best to think of a plan to help these people. 

 Although I know I wouldn't be the future Queen of this Kingdom, I still want to help them. After all, I was the reason why all of this is happening.

 I nod my head. "I apologize. I was just heartbroken when I saw the situation here. I couldn't help myself but want to immediately help this town that I forgot to check my health too. I'm sorry for worrying you."

 Rufus sighed and gently caressed my head. "Purplany, why don't we rest first? Let's talk all about this after we take some rest. You are still wounded. It's not good for you to exhaust your body like that."

 I nod my head at him. We just wait for the person who will help me check my stitches first. After making sure that it didn't open up, she just changed my bandage, and I immediately took some rest. 

 I look at the ceiling and sigh. I am now inside one of the rooms of the nuns here. It's a good thing they don't have nuns anymore, so the room has become a vacant room.

 Things are starting to get out of hand now, and I still don't know what to do or how to stop all of these from happening. 

 If only I have someone to talk to all about this. If only I had someone, I could vent to. But I know in this world, I can only trust myself.

 Because among everyone else, I am the only one considered a living person.

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 "Ysavel, you're here."

 I looked back and found Lena smiling at me. She immediately rushed towards me and hugged me tightly. "I miss you so much, Ysavel. It's a good thing you are here. How are you doing?"

 I just look at her with tears in my eyes. I miss her so much. I hugged her back and cried. 

 Lena immediately caresses my back and comfort me. "What happened? Why are you suddenly crying, Ysavel? Did something happen while I was away?"

 I nod my head vigorously. "A lot of things happened, Lena. Things that I didn't even expect to happen. It's a good thing you are here already. You don't know how lonely I was not having you there, Lena."

 Lena breaks from our hug and faces me. "Then tell me what happened. I want to know what happened to make you cry like this. Look at you. You look like a mess right now."

 I look at Lena and smile bitterly. "Lena, what if one day you wake up in a different world with a different body? What will you do?"

 She didn't answer me immediately. She paused for a minute to think before answering me. "What will I do? I will definitely freak out. Why did you ask?"

 "Because something like that happened to me. Remember the villainess of my novel, Csille Lauretré? I become her, and now in order for me to return to our world, I need to finish the story as the villainess."

 "But it's your story, Ysavel. Shouldn't you get the upper hand on this? You know what will happen."

 I shake my head. "No, Lena. Even if I know what will happen, I don't have the full control of this world. Something is controlling this world, and now things are getting out of hand. I don't know what to do anymore."

 Lena gently caresses my head. "That's not the Ysavel Vlahos I know. How can you give up just like that? Remember when you just started as a writer? You go around our City looking for a publishing house despite the countless rejections from other publishing houses? That's the Ysavel I know. A person who always has the fighting spirit."

 I look at her and smile sadly. Yes, she is right. The previous Ysavel is just like that. However, how can I become optimistic if everything that is happening is making me lose hope? 

 Will I ever finish this? Will I ever save this world from destruction? Will I ever come back home? 

 "But what if I cannot become that person? What if I cannot help but lose hope?" 

 Lena smiled at me. "Then all you need to do is rest, take a step back and look at the situation from a different perspective. Who knows, maybe you are looking at the wrong perspective?" Lena takes my hand and squeezes it. "Ysavel, you cannot always solve every problem that is given to you. Sometimes you just need to let things happen, and you will see it will be solved on its own. Just don't forget your purpose. What are you doing here, Ysavel?"

 What am I doing here? What does she mean?

 I wasn't able to ask her because the ground suddenly moved and I just felt myself falling. When I opened my eyes, I found myself sleeping on the bed. 

 I sigh in relief. I thought I was really falling. 

 I suddenly remember the dream I just had. I have talked to Lena. Although it's only a dream, it still makes me feel better. It's been a long time since I saw her and talked to her. I miss her so much. 

 "I hope you are doing fine there, Lena. I promise to do anything to return to our world. So, I can be with you again. I promise that."

 I take one of my pillows and hug it. 

 "But what does she mean when she said remember my purpose? Purpose of being here? What is my purpose of being here?"

 I frown. I'm only here because I need to finish this story as the villainess for me to return to the real world. However, how can I do that if there is someone controlling this world aside from my novel?

 What does my purpose will do on helping me with my problem?

 I groan. I thought after having that dream, I could feel better, but why did my head hurt even more? 

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 "Purplany, did you just wake up? Good morning."

 I look back and find a yawning Rufus walking towards me. He looks like he just walked up. Isn't he a bit comfortable in this town? 

 "Good morning, Rufus. I was about to head down and see what I can do to this town." I look at his clothes. "Are you sure you will go out looking like that?"

 Rufus clothing is actually a decent one, but it's not what royalties usually wear. In fact, what he is wearing right now is common clothing commoners wear. 

 Where did this guy get this from? Is he even allowed to wear this kind of clothing? 

 Rufus looks at his clothing and frowns. "And what's wrong with what I am wearing? The people I will be talking to are all commoners, and we are here to help them. I think it's only right to adapt to the situation. I want them to feel that I came here as someone who wants to help and not someone who came from the Royal family. I want them to feel at ease when they are talking to me."

 I look at Rufus with admiration. He is truly an Astalieu. He is innately good at talking to people and knowing what they need the most. 

 He is right. These people don't only need a ruler. They also need someone who can understand them. Who doesn't see them as a charitable act only.

 "Do you have anything for a woman?" I looked at my clothes and grimaced. Although my clothes aren't that flashy, but it still scream wealth. "I think I need to change my dress too."

 Rufus looks at my dress and nods his head. "I can help you with that. Wait here. I'll find you something else." 

 He was about to go, but he paused and looked at me. "Anything would do, right? You won't complain?"

 How can I complain? In the real world, I used to live wearing an oversized shirt and a baggy pants, and he expected me not to wear a commoners dress which looked like a cosplayer dress? Is he serious?

 I just nod my head and smile at him. A moment later, Rufus rushes towards me with a dress in hand and a woman behind him.

 "Here, try this." He then looks at the woman behind him. "This is Leonore. She is the owner of this dress. The two of you look like you have the same body type. That's why I ask for her dress. She volunteered to come here to help you wear this dress. She knows you have broken arms, and she is worried that you might find it difficult to wear this dress."

 The woman, whose name is Leonore, bows her head to me. "Lady Csille, please forgive me if my dress doesn't suit your style. This is my newest dress, and I only wore it one time. If you will let me, I can help you wear this dress."

 I smile at her. "Thank you for letting me borrow this dress. It is I who should apologize for causing you trouble, and it will definitely be a great help if you help me wear this dress."

 I didn't change my clothes since we arrived here. I was about to ask Rufus to find someone to help me.

 I cannot ask for Rufus' help because of the tradition in the Vrawyth Kingdom. It will become a big issue if I let Rufus help me change my dress. It will not just affect the Lauretré Family. It will also bring down the Astalieu Family.

 Leonore smiled at me. "Lady Csille, it's my pleasure to help you. Shall we?" 

 I excused myself to Rufus before Leanore and I both went inside my room to change my dress.

 A moment after, I am now looking at my own reflection in the mirror. Leanore, who is standing behind me, smiles widely at my reflection.

 "You are really a beauty, Lady Csille. It's no doubt why people called you the most beautiful lady among the Kingdoms. It's our honor to have you as our Queen. You will definitely be a good Queen. You're not only beautiful, you're also good to common people like us." Leanore said admiringly. 

 I just smile at her sadly. Will she still say those words in the future? After the mistake, Csille will make?