Why Did I Become the Villainess?

 We all decided to take a rest first. Since it's still early in the afternoon. I look around my room and smile. Nothing change. Aside from the bedsheets and the curtains, everything looks the same. They are really taking care of Csille's room even in her absence. 

 I walk towards my bed and slump my body. I don't know what to feel. I feel happy because I have returned to the Vrawyth Kingdom. The only Kingdom that makes me feel secure. However, right now, I don't feel the same. I feel scared being here because I know someday this Kingdom will witness Csille Lauretré's fall. 

 I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. I tried to control the fear that was now rising from inside me. 

 Fear will not help me. I would rather keep my emotions in control, or else I might mess things here, and I cannot let that happen. I cannot let mess happen here. Not on my watch.

 Suddenly I heard a knock outside my room. I frown. Who is knocking on my door? I thought we all agreed to rest first. 

 Is it a maid? 

 I get up from my bed and check it. Everyone knows that we will take a rest first, so the maids won't disturb our rest if it's not important. 

 Did something happen? 

 I frown when I see Pax Dea standing in front of my room. She scratches her nape and looks at me. "I'm sorry, Csille. I know you are resting, but my mind couldn't rest at all. I'm really excited to look around the Vrawyth Kingdom. However, I know it is not advisable to go out today, so I came here to ask if you can tell me about the Vrawyth Kingdom."

 I sigh and let Pax Dea in. I'm really not exhausted, and just like her, my mind can't rest because I keep thinking about the future. I think it's better to have her here than to overthink on my own. 

 "So, what do you want to know about the Vrawyth Kingdom?" I asked.

 Pax Dea sits beside me. "I want to know about the Astalieu. You never talk about them. Every time I would ask a question about his highness, Prince Fraser, you would always try to change the topic. I don't understand why you do that, Csille. I thought you were on good terms with him."

 I sigh. I only did that because I didn't want them to hope for something impossible. They already like him in the first place. If I talk about how great he is, I'm sure they will hope that I will end up with him. 

 And I don't want them to be disappointed. I don't want them to be hurt because of me. 

 "Csille?"

 "It's not that I don't want to talk about him. It's just that I think it will become complicated if you know a lot of things. I don't want to involve the Foulqueret in this."

 Pax Dea looks at me confusedly. "Complicated? How can it be complicated? I just want to know more about the Astalieu. It's not as if I'm asking about his secrets."

 I look at her and sigh. Well, I guess telling a little bit about the Astalieu family won't hurt."

 "What do you want to know about the Astalieu?"

 "I heard from Mother that the Lauretré Family has a close relationship with the Astalieu. I want to know how did you become acquainted with them?"

 I sighed in relief when I heard her question. I thought she would ask about Prince Fraser. Thank goodness it's just this. 

 "The Lauretré family has been serving the rulers of the Vrawyth Kingdom since the start of this monarchy. Father told me that our ancestors helped the Vrawyth Kingdom fight against the people who wanted to take over the Vrawyth Kingdom. It's the reason why the Lauretré family has always had a close relationship with every generation of the Astalieu. Aside from that, Father helped his majesty when he was just crowned as the King. It's the reason why Father and his Majesty are good friends."

 Pax Dea nods her head. "That's amazing. I didn't know about that. Mother just told me that the Lauretré Family has close relation with the rulers of the Kingdom. I now can be at peace, knowing that the Astalieu family will never ill treat the Lauretré Family."

 Will never ill treat the Lauretré Family? I don't know about that. 

 In the future, Csille Lauretré will do something that could harm the Vrawyth Kingdom. I don't think his majesty will consider his relationship with the Lauretré Family after what I will do in the future. 

 I smile bitterly at myself. Although the second version of the novel is still ongoing, I know what will happen next. Deep in my heart, I know what will be the end of Csille Lauretré. 

 "Csille?"

 I shake my head and smile at Pax Dea. "Sorry, I was just thinking about something else. Where are we again?"

 "You're talking about the relationship of the Astalieu and the Lauretré Family." Pax Dea slumped half of her body on my bed. "Csille, I have seen in the Alderrdeen that you are close to both Astalieu cousins. I also heard from Mother that Prince Rufus is the forgotten Prince of the Vrawyth Kingdom. Wouldn't that cause trouble for you in the future? After all, Prince Fraser and Prince Rufus might fight each other for the throne in the future."

 Rufus fighting against Prince Fraser for the throne? That's impossible. That's not how I have written Rufus. Although he is the love rival of Prince Fraser, I didn't make him the bad guy. He will never have any selfish intention to the throne. After all, even if he doesn't show it, Rufus always cares about Prince Fraser. The way Prince Fraser cares about him too.

 "That's impossible. If not because of his majesty, Rufus is probably out of the Kingdom and traveling around the world. Rufus just wants to live a normal life. He never likes the nobility or the royalty. He thinks they are too much hypocrisy in it. That's why he never like it. So, you can rest assured that if there is someone who would like to take the throne from Prince Fraser, that will not be Rufus."

 Pax Dea peeks on me. "You're really close to him, aren't you? Why do I feel like you know him more than you know you're fiancé."

 I know Rufus more than I know Prince Fraser? In some sense, yes, because Rufus is the only person I am close with. I spend my childhood and my teenage life with him. How can I not know him? But aside from that, I know him just like how I know Prince Fraser. 

 Because I am the writer of this world. How can I not know about my characters? 

 "We have been friends since we were young. Rufus and I share the same fate. We are the most extraordinary people in this Kingdom. You can say that it's because of this. I feel more connected to him than Prince Fraser." I look at Pax Dea and smile. "Do you know that when we were young, many children loved to bully me for being different, but only Rufus protected me from those bullies? After that day, we become close. He protected me every time someone bullied me, and I protect him every time someone bullied him too."

 "I understand. It's a good thing you have him by your side. I should be thanking Prince Rufus then. If not for him, those bullies would probably not stop bullying you."

 I smile at Pax Dea. Yeah, I'm really grateful for Rufus. He's the only one who understands me and who is always there to support me. 

 "Csille? Do you have feelings for him?"

 My eyes widened, and I immediately looked at Pax Dea. Me? Having feelings for Rufus? 

 I don't know. It would be best if I am. After all, Rufus' personality is better than Prince Fraser's. However, I know that just like Prince Fraser, Rufus will fall head over heels to Princess Paisee. Falling in love with him will only hurt him and me at the same time. 

 "What makes you think that way? Rufus and I have been friends since we were young, and I never... I just never see him like that."

 "I just thought he suited you more than Prince Fraser. You have both unique hair color and eye color. You both experienced being bullied because of it. You also said it, you feel more connected to Prince Rufus than Prince Fraser. Also, I think it will not become complicated if you married him than Prince Fraser. Although Prince Rufus is the Prince, he is still the second in line to the throne. That means you wouldn't have a big responsibility to be the Queen. Don't you think it's a better option?"

 Csille Lauretré marrying Prince Rufus? I had never considered that even when I was writing the novel. Also, if that happens, Csille won't get the chance to be the Villainess.

 "Pax Dea, we cannot do anything about my engagement anymore. So even if I have feelings for Rufus, it is now impossible."

 Pax Dea, get up and hold my hand. "Csille, are you saying that you have feelings for Prince Rufus?"

 I was about to answer her question when someone knocked on my door. I frown. I am now sure it is the maid. Did something happen?

 I break from Pax Dea's grasp and walk to the door. The maid immediately bows her head when she sees me. "Miss, I'm sorry for my interruption, but Prince Rufus is here to visit you. I know you said you don't want to be disturbed. However, I think it would be rude not to see Prince Rufus. After all, he is still the Prince of the Kingdom."

 I waved my hand at her and immediately dismissed her. Even though Rufus is known to be the forgotten Prince of the Vrawyth Kingdom, he is still the Prince of the Vrawyth Kingdom. The maid is probably worried that it will be an offense to Rufus if I don't see him today. 

 I look at Pax Dea and sigh. "I'm sorry, Dea. Rufus is here for a visit. I need to see him first."

 Pax Dea immediately stands up. "Eh? He immediately looked for you the moment we arrived here? And here I thought it would be Prince Fraser who visited you first. Csille, are you sure there's nothing happening between the two of you?"

 I smile at Pax Dea. "I told you, Rufus is my friend. Please don't put any meaning to it. Also, it is impossible for the two of us. I love Prince Fraser, and he loves someone else. Are you satisfied now?"

 And Prince Fraser visiting me? That is impossible. I have already written what will happen next, and that doesn't include Prince Fraser visiting the Villainess.

 Pax Dea remains silent and nods her head only. I tap her shoulder and smile at her. "I'll be heading down first. I need to know why Rufus is visiting me. As much as I want to bring you with me, but I don't know if Rufus will want to have someone." I look around my room. "You can rest here if you want. I'll see you later after my conversation with Rufus, okay?"

 "That's okay. It would help if you headed down now. It won't be good to make Prince Rufus wait. I'll be here, waiting for you."

 I just hugged her before I immediately went down. Although it's only been months since I saw him, I still miss Rufus. After all, he is the only person in this world that I completely trust. 

 Rufus immediately stands up when he sees me. He gave me a warm smile. "You are finally back.. Welcome home, Purplany."