Chapter 39 - No More Kindness
Emilia wrapped her arms tightly and brought her face closer to Nero's face. "Can I ask something?"
"Stop doing this?" Nero pushed Emilia back.
"Stop doing what?"
"You are being so touchy suddenly."
After the incident, Emilia never let go of Nero and stuck to him like glue.
"Am I now?" Emilia teased.
Nero glanced at Emilia with a puzzled and worried look on his face. 'Her personality has changed now,'
It wasn't as though Nero didn't like Emilia being touchy like this, but Nero couldn't help but have impure thoughts about her body.
"So," He raised his eyebrows, "What do you want to ask me? If it's something related to love, then I am not answering."
"Who was better?"
"Better for what?" Nero questioned confusedly.
"Between me and Sophia, who was better?"
"Oh! So it's about that." Nero nodded and tried to push Emilia back.
Emilia frowned, then squinted her eyes and stared into Nero's eyes, "Who was better?"
Nero was reluctant to answer first but gave in after seeing Emilia's face.
"I did it more with you, so of course you were better."
Emilia's face flushed, but she didn't look satisfied with her answer. After looking at Emilia's dissatisfied face, Nero sighed. "What now?"
"I have this weird feeling," Emilia replied with a straight face.
"Isn't that jealousy?" Nero stated, as though he knew what Emilia was feeling.
Emilia shook her head and hugged Nero, "I was jealous at first when I saw you naked with a girl on the bed, but when you said it was Sophia, I was even more jealous… and sad. I felt betrayed."
Nero wanted to push Emilia back because he was on the verge of losing his control, but Emilia's warmth captivated him.
"You said she was just a friend, and then when I saw you with her, I thought you didn't have a relationship like that. I thought I was the only one who had a special relationship with you, and I wanted to advance my relationship with you, but I just…"
"Wasn't honest with yourself," Nero added.
"Yeah," Emilia nodded.
"You don't have to worry about all that because as long as I am with you, and you are with me— you are mine." Nero scratched his cheek and averted his gaze from Emilia before saying, "And besides, my first time was also with you."
"Huh?" Emilia was both shocked and surprised.
"You were a virgin?"
"Sadly, yes. But only in this life," Nero nodded.
'Does that mean he didn't have any lover before? And I am the first girl who made love with him in this life?' Emilia jumped to unconfirmed conclusions and ignored what he said about his past life.
Emilia then looked at Nero's face, "I, Emilia, submit my everything to you, so please take care of me, my hero."
Nero's eyes widened after Emilia's sudden submission. He had never expected to hear something like that from Emilia.
"You really have changed," Nero stated.
"I am just honest now."
Nero patted Emilia's head as she hugged Nero, then buried her face in Nero's chest. "I was scared."
"Hmm?"
"Those knights," Emilia's voice was muffled as she was burying her face in Nero's chest. "I felt disgusted when they touched me, and I couldn't even do anything. I only want to do it with you, so I kept praying."
"To god?" Nero asked curiously.
Emilia shook her head and looked at Nero, "I was praying to you," She smiled widely before closing her eyes, "Because you are my god now."
Nero felt a sudden surge of pain in his heart, seeing how deeply Emilia had fallen in love with him.
"I am sorry," Nero apologized.
Emilia opened her eyes and tilted her head with a confused look on her face, "Why are you apologizing?"
"I forgot that you don't have any of your past memories, and so far, you have only received kindness, so you never knew the cruelty of this world. I shouldn't have blamed you or called you foolish and naive— you are just too innocent."
Emilia smiled wryly, then shook her head, "No, you don't have to apologize because you were right. I am foolish, and I was just forcing my standards on you without knowing anything."
'She is acting weird all of a sudden.' Nero touched Emilia's face and rubbed her lips with his thumb.
Emilia didn't mind that and continued, "You said this before that 'evil expects evil', so it should be the same for kindness."
Nero stopped moving his thumb after hearing that. 'I had never thought of it that way.'
"Kind people expect everyone else to be kind with them, but when they don't— they feel betrayed, and it was the same for me. But now I know that's not how it works. So I won't stop you from doing anything evil now, and I will support you."
Nero scoffed and flicked his finger lightly on Emilia's forehead. "Don't say it like I am an evil person. Listen, there is nothing wrong with being kind, but there is no need to be kind either."
Emilia's forehead was red from the spot where Nero flicked his finger. Emilia rubbed it, then said with an angry expression on her face, "Do it again, and I will snap your peepee."
That day, Nero swore to himself that he would never do that to Emilia again.
Emilia then hugged Nero and muttered, "Nero."
"Hmm?"
"Would you do it with other girls too?"
"What do you mean by 'other' girls? I only have you and Sophi."
Emilia looked up at Nero and poked her chin on Nero's chest. "What about Nure?"
"We don't have that kind of relationship. And believe me, we rarely meet or talk."
"You said the same thing about Sophia, and yet I found you in the bed with her."
Nero knew why Emilia was asking all those questions, so he chose to answer them honestly.
"Sophi and I have a very complicated relationship. We share many dark secrets. But yeah," He nodded, then answered with a straight face, "I would do it with other girls if I feel like it."
"Don't do it without my permission, okay?"
"Oh!" Nero had a surprised look on his face with a cheerful smile. "Are you trying to be the queen of my harem?"
Emilia puckered her lips and answered, "I was your first, so I want some privileges."
'She is back to her usual self,' Nero thought as he patted Emilia.
"Alright, now," Emilia licked her lips and said with a mischievous smile on her face, "Kiss me."
Nero thought Emilia was back to her usual self, but now he was thinking, 'Or maybe not."