To My Dear Mr. Huo

Chapter 660: I’m Not A Frivolous Woman

She didn’t move, and neither did Zhan Haoze.

Shi Mengwan gritted her teeth. The cold wind was giving her a headache. In the end, she could only go around to the other side of the car and get in.

She didn’t speak. She turned her back to Zhan Haoze and didn’t look at hIM. She just looked at the scenery outside the car window.

This was the direction back to her house. After Shi Mengwan saw it clearly, she couldn’t help but call out.

“Stop the car.”

Zhan Haoze really stopped the car the moment she called for him to stop,

Wanting him to get out of the car, she turned around and looked at Zhan Haoze. Who knew that Zhan Haoze actually got out of the car without waiting for her to speak.

This time, it was Shi Mengwan’s turn to be surprised.

Was Zhan Haoze that easy to talk to? She was a little suspicious and couldn’t help but take another look at Zhan Haoze.

Her gaze followed Zhan Haoze outside the car. She realized that Zhan Haoze had gone to a convenience store nearby.

Shi Mengwan looked in that direction and then wanted to sit in the driver’s seat and drive away. However, she discovered that Zhan Haoze had actually pulled out the keys.

She could only sit there without moving and not understanding what he was thinking, she looked at Zhan Haoze.

Zhan Haoze came out very quickly. He seemed to be carrying a bag in his hand. He got into the car, threw the bag on the back seat, and started the car again.

Shi Mengwan couldn’t help but look back. Unfortunately, it was too dark in the car and she couldn’t see clearly, so she looked at Zhan Haoze’s face again.

“Zhan Haoze.”

She bit her lip and seemed to be organizing her words in her mind. “I admit, I thought of you as another person before. I…”

Unable to continue, she turned her face away. What would she say?

She said that she didn’t think of him as someone else. She said that he was the person in her heart.

From the age of twelve to the age of twenty-five, for thirteen years, she had been thinking of him every day.

Now, she had to force herself to tell him that she only thought of him as someone else?

Zhan Haoze glanced at her with a gloomy gaze, but then he went back to driving seriously.

It wasn’t long before they arrived at her apartment.

The car stopped and Shi Mengwan got out. Zhan Haoze got out of the car as well and took the bag from the back seat.

Shi Mengwan reached out to take the keys from Zhan Haoze’s hand, but he had already stepped into the car.

It was only then that Shi Mengwan saw clearly what was in the bag in his hand. Although only a corner was exposed, it was enough for her to see clearly.

Looking at the thin boxes of okamoto condoms inside, her face turned red and she quickly followed Zhan Haoze.

“You…”

“Zhan Haoze.”

Zhan Haoze’s footsteps were very fast. In a few steps, he entered the apartment building and pressed the elevator button.

“Zhan Haoze, shall we talk?”

Shi Mengwan bit her lip and wanted to say something, but the elevator came down and someone came out.

When she saw Zhan haoze and Shi Mengwan, she glanced at the two of them. The combination of a handsome man and a beautiful woman was always eye-catching.

“…”

Shi Mengwan couldn’t finish her sentence. She lowered her head and stood a step behind Zhan Haoze.

The person left. Zhan Haoze entered the elevator. Not moving for a long time, Shi Mengwan stood there.

Inside and outside the elevator, Zhan Haoze’s eyes met hers. The last person to admit defeat was Shi Mengwan. She stood inside.

She felt powerless. This feeling of powerlessness made her uninterested in speaking until she entered the room.

The moment she entered the room, she stood at the door and looked at Zhan Haoze, who seemed to have entered an uninhabited land.

“Zhan Haoze. Let’s have a good talk, shall we?”

Zhan Haoze casually placed the bag in his hand on the coffee table and stood in front of her.

Shi Mengwan closed her eyes and when she opened them again, her beautiful almond-shaped eyes were filled with determination.

“I’m sorry. I said earlier that I thought of you as someone else. Perhaps my behavior was inappropriate and caused you to misunderstand. I apologize to you. I hope you understand that I’m not a prostitute and I’m not a very frivolous woman.”

Shi Mengwan didn’t want to continue to be entangled with him and would rather humble herself first.

She didn’t quite understand what Zhan Haoze was thinking. No matter what it was, she felt that the way the two of them interacted was abnormal.

Every time they met, they would have s*x and after they slept together, then they would go their separate ways.

She thought that if she said this, he would understand. She looked up at Zhan Haoze and saw that he was standing still.

“Zhan Haoze?”

“Are you done?”

She didn’t express it clearly?

“What I mean is, Zhan Haoze, this is my home, my place. I want you to leave this place now.”

Zhan Haoze looked at her, who was obviously trying to chase him away, and took a step forward.

Shi Mengwan’s back leaned against the door. She was 1.7 meters tall, but in front of the 188-year-old Zhan Haoze, she wasn’t tall enough.

She raised her head to look at him. “Zhan Haoze, it’s getting late. Please…”

A kiss landed on her lips. Shi Mengwan quickly reacted after a momentary daze.

She struggled with all her might, and her movements more intense than before.

Being disturbed by her, Zhan Haoze had no choice but to stop his movements. However, he didn’t let go of her. Instead, he placed his hands on both sides of her body.

“Zhan Haoze.” Shi Mengwan felt that she had already made her words very clear. “I’ve said it. I mistook you for another person. I –”

Her lips were once again blocked by him. He rubbed her lips with a force that made her feel pain.

“Wuuu.”

She opened her eyes and looked at him coldly.

He was also looking at her and didn’t give in at all.

It was almost a stalemate.

She winced in pain and opened her mouth to bite him.

He stepped back and plundered her again.

In the end, Shi Mengwan was the first to give in. She was panting and her legs were weak. She was almost unable to stand

His big hand was on her waist. Not allowing her to slip from his embrace and fall to the ground, he held her in his arms.

“Zhan –”

After kissing for so long, her voice sounded a little raspy. She swallowed her saliva.

Zhan Haoze’s hand caressed her bright red lips. His slightly cold fingertips gently brushed past, and caused Shi Mengwan’s body to tremble uncontrollably.

“You thought of me as another person?”

His hand still on her lips, Zhan Haoze approached her. He narrowed his eyes and stared at her face.

“Yes.” Shi Mengwan nodded. Not looking at Zhan Haoze’s face, she shifted her gaze away. “I thought of you as another person. Now, I know that you’re not. So, let’s just leave it at that.”

“You want to end it?”

Zhan Haoze’s voice was low. Shi Mengwan bit her lip and nodded again.

She didn’t speak, and Zhan Haoze didn’t speak either.

The room was very quiet. The air conditioner wasn’t turned on. Shi Mengwan had been leaning against the door so she felt a little cold. She reflexively twisted her body.

Her waist tightened. Zhan Haoze pulled her into his arms again. He suddenly moved closer, and the distance between their faces was less than a centimeter.

“Do you think I’m someone else?” He asked again.

“Yes.” Shi Mengwan gritted her teeth and turned around to look at him with a determined gaze.

She saw Zhan Haoze’s lips curl up slightly, and his forehead pressed against hers. “If that’s the case, then why don’t I just continue being someone else?”

Shi Mengwan was speechless. She didn’t know how she should answer. The moment Zhan Haoze was about to pick her up, she lost her sense of reason.

“No, don’t. I can’t.”

“Why not?”

Still staring at her face, Zhan Haoze stopped for a moment.

“No matter what, I can’t.”

Shi Mengwan put her hands on his chest. Her mind couldn’t think fast at this moment.

His breath, his embrace, and his kiss mafe her unable to think.

“You have a fiancée.”

Yes, that was the reason. As if she had an idea, she suddenly raised her head and looked at Zhan Haoze.

“You already have a fiancée. You can’t do this.”

Zhan Haoze’s reaction was to pick her up forcefully and bring her into the room.

“Zhan Haoze.”

“I don’t have a fiancée.”

“Chen…”

He didn’t give her the chance to ask. He kissed her lips and when he passed by the coffee table. He used his pinky to gently carry the bag of okamoto condoms in his hand.

..

Shi Mengwan slept until midnight, when she felt cold. She turned over and instinctively moved her body closer to the source of heat.

She felt like she was surrounded by someone. His warm chest no longer made her feel cold. She practically sighed as she pressed her face against the source of heat.

This pillow was really comfortable to hold. Shi Mengwan rubbed her face against the pillow, but she felt like something was wrong.

It was firm and warm, broad and strong. This wasn’t the feeling of a pillow.

She suddenly opened her eyes. What she saw was a piece of wheat-colored skin. She could even see two thin scratches on it. They were left behind by her yesterday.

Realizing this, she instinctively stepped back.

The hand on her lower back made it impossible for her to move away. She looked up and saw Zhan Haoze’s enlarged face.

She panicked for some reason and started to pull his hand.

She clearly wanted to explain things to Zhan Haoze yesterday, but in the end, the two of them ended up having s*x again?

This wasn’t what she had hoped for. Shi Mengwan felt a headache coming on.

Zhan Haoze’s hand was taken away by her, but in the next second, it landed on her shoulder. Her body was pressed back and suppressed.

The man woke up at some point. He laid on top of her and stared at her face with a burning gaze.

“Let go of me.”

Seeing that he didn’t let go of her, Shi Mengwan looked up at him.

“Zhan Haoze, why aren’t you leaving?”

“Do you think I’m that kind of frivolous woman?”

Seeing that Zhan Haoze’s brows were furrowed, she reached out to push him again. “Zhan Haoze, don’t you mind if I think of you as another man?”

“I answered this question yesterday.”

As Zhan Haoze spoke, he lowered his head and bit her shoulder.

The force wasn’t strong, but it made her feel slight pain.

“You…” Shi Mengwan was furious, and she said incoherently, “Can’t you have any kind of woman you want? Let’s not talk about others, but Chen Feifei is your girlfriend, right? You’re doing this to me now, so aren’t you afraid that she’ll be unhappy if she finds out?”

Zhan Haoze paused. His eyes flashed with malice.

“Don’t talk about her.”

The matter between them had nothing to do with Chen Feifei.

“I don’t want to talk about it either.” Shi Mengwan’s mood was ambivalent. “But the problem is, she’s your girlfriend, isn’t she?”

Zhan Haoze’s face moved closer to her. “Do you mind?”

“I mind.” Shi Mengwan looked at his face and didn’t want to say that she minded it very much. “But this doesn’t mean that I have deep feelings for you, but it’s because I don’t want to be a mistress.”

No woman would like to be a mistress, and it was the same for her.

Zhan Haoze stared at her face for a long time before finally saying, “She has a heart condition.”

This could be considered an explanation. After saying that, he lowered his head and kissed her shoulder again.

Shi Mengwan, however, heard a different answer at this time.

So that was the case.

Chen Feifei had a heart condition, so she probably can’t exercise intensely.

What about Zhan Haoze? The two of them had done it so many times over the past few times, so she could understand that his s*xual desire was very strong. Her stamina wasn’t weak, but even she begged for mercy under his body every time.

If Chen Feifei had a heart condition, how could she bear it?

Her heart felt as if he had cut it with a knife. It felt a dull pain.

She was lying when she said that she thought he was another person, but he really thought she was a prostitute.

She was just a substitute that Zhan Haoze found because he pitied Chen Feifei and she helped satisfy his s*xual urges.

Her heart hurt. It was so painful that even her body felt dull.

But the man didn’t notice her absent-mindedness and pain. It was as if he had cut her in half, then he dug her into pieces.

She was broken into pieces. From body to heart, she was never complete again.

..

Time went on for a few more days, then it was New Year’s. Shi Mengwan’s studio also had three days off.

She originally wanted to look for Su Qingsang to hangout, but Su Qingsang followed Xiang Caiping to visit Japan.

Before going, she asked Shi Mengwan if she wanted to go with her. Shi Mengwan knew that this was Su Qingsang’s trip to improve their relationship with Xiang Caiping, so how could she be so insensible?

She drove home by herself.

Compared to the five or six hours it took to return home thirteen years ago, the distance of the highway that had been repaired was almost halved.

Shi Mengwan drove home in just over two hours.

Shi Mengwan was very happy to see her. As usual, Shi Mengwan bought a lot of things and gave her parents a lot of supplements, as well as some special delicacies that could only be found in Lin City.

She usually sent quite a lot of them, but it was different when she brought them back.

This time, Shi Mengwan really wanted to stay for two more days to celebrate New Year’s day with her family.

Although this kind of New Year’s celebration wasn’t common in rural places, her parents were very happy to see her. They went all out to prepare a feast for her. Her sister, Shi Mengru, was also very happy.

She circled around her while calling her sister, and asked her to stay for two more days. Shi Mengwan agreed, but her plans couldn’t keep up with the changes.

She had only stayed for one day when she received a call from a client. The other party specifically asked her to rush an urgent item.

That was an old client who had established a good working relationship with the studio since the beginning.

Shi Mengwan helplessly explained to her parents and returned to Lin City despite her mother’s disappointment.

This time, she didn’t alarm the other employees and directly returned to the studio to meet the client. She wrote down the other party’s requests.

As it was urgent, Shi Mengwan went back to her office and started to draw pictures.

Before she started, she scrolled through her Wechat moments. She saw the pictures Su Qingsang had sent of the hot springs in Japan, and the prayer boards in Asakusa Temple.

She liked one. When she saw the cherry blossom pictures, Shi Mengwan felt inspired.

She had always been single-mindedly focused when she drew sketches. Time passed by for a few hours, but she didn’t notice it.

Her phone vibrated a few times, but she didn’t notice it.

It was dark and the lights were on in the room. Shi Mengwan didn’t notice the neon lights outside.

She spent a few hours to come up with the interesting first draft. Then, she ordered the materials needed for the accessories.

Everything was done. She looked at the manuscript and was very satisfied.

Whether it was designing a gown or a wedding dress for a guest, most of the time, it was done according to the guest’s thoughts, even though that would give her a sense of accomplishment.

But when she suddenly had her own inspiration, drawing a picture that she was very satisfied with made her even happier.

She saved the manuscript into the computer, encrypted the information, and saved it.

After packing everything up, Shi Mengwan realized that she had been sitting for too long. Her arms and lower back were a little stiff.

Especially her legs. They were extremely numb. She tried to stand up, but she sucked in a breath of cold air.

Under the current situation, she could only wait for the numbness to pass.

Shi Mengwan looked at the time. It was already past nine in the evening. She didn’t expect that her sketching process would last for a few hours.

Her legs were extremely numb. She was wondering if she should call for a delivery; however, she heard a sound outside the office.

Shi Mengwan was shocked. She looked outside the office and felt afraid for a moment.

The studio wasn’t big, but because this office building was rented to her by one of her clients, the rent was relatively cheaper than outside.

The space wasn’t particularly big, but Shi Mengwan paid attention to the privacy of every designer.

She specially rented a two-story high space. Every designer drew sketches upstairs. Her office was in the innermost part.

Downstairs was the exhibition hall, and there was also a guest room. Upon hearing the noise, Shi Mengwan felt nervous.

She seemed to suddenly remember that when she went upstairs to draw sketches, she didn’t close the door of the studio.

At this time, was the person who came a thief or someone else?

No matter which one it was, it was enough to scare Shi Mengwan. After all, she was the only one here.

Her first reaction when she picked up her phone was to call the police, but before calling the police, she should find a place to hide, right?

She heard the sound of footsteps going upstairs, and she became more and more nervous. The place to switch the lights on and off was at the door.

She was so anxious that she wanted to turn off the lights and close the door. However, the numbness in her feet hadn’t gone away until now. It came and went.

Shi Mengwan was extremely uncomfortable, scared, and anxious. Her back was even covered in a layer of sweat.

Upon seeing that the footsteps were getting closer and closer, she gritted her teeth and wanting to run to the door, she stood up. She closed the door before anyone came.

Shi Mengwan dragged her numb legs around the office desk. Just as her hand touched the door, the person outside had already entered.

She panicked and instinctively closed the door. The door was pushed by someone’s skillful force. She was caught off guard and her legs went numb. Her body actually fell backwards.

She thought that she was going to fall, but someone quickly held her body.

She froze for a moment. When she saw Zhan Haoze’s familiar face, she suddenly had an outburst.

“You, you, you…” After she said a few words, her legs went numb and she couldn’t stand up anymore.

The aftereffects of fear made her body go soft. She gritted her teeth and raised her hand to hit Zhan Haoze’s shoulder.

“Bastard, you bastard. You scared me to death, do you know that? You’re too much of a bastard. You bastard!”

She didn’t know how to curse that much. She repeated the word “bastard” over and over again.

After she relaxed, her legs gave way and she was about to slip down again. Zhan Haoze quickly picked her up.

He placed her on the chair in front of the desk. “What’s wrong with you?”

Shi Mengwan couldn’t say anything. She only felt terrified. Just now, she really thought that a bad person had come in.

She lowered her head, and her eyes were slightly red. No matter how tough she was, she was still a woman.

Her heart was beating very fast, very fast. It took her a few minutes to slowly calm her heartbeat down.

She looked up at Zhan Haoze and swallowed her saliva. She had finally calmed down.

“You, what were you doing here just now?”

If he hadn’t suddenly appeared just now, she wouldn’t have been so scared.

The last time he woke up in her bed, he pressed her down and did it again. When she went into the bathroom to take care of herself, he left quietly like before.

She would no longer be as disappointed as she was the first time.

She understood one thing. In Zhan Haoze’s heart, she was Chen Feifei’s substitute. She was just bearing his expectations in Chen Feifei’s place.

Sad? Sad.

Sad? Sad.

But no matter how sad she was, she brought it on herself. She gave him the chance.

But if she did it again, she would probably make the same choice. She missed her Dear Brother too much.

Even if there was a slight chance, she would still try her best to get close to him.

She looked at Zhan Haoze, but she couldn’t control her tone of voice, which carried a hint of reproach.

Zhan Haoze looked at her slightly pale face. “Are you okay?”

She didn’t look too good.

“I’m fine.” Shi Mengwan was no longer afraid, but her expression didn’t recover so quickly. “You haven’t answered yet. Why are you here?”

“I called you, but you didn’t pick up.”

He called her? When did that happen?

Shi Mengwan’s phone was on her desk. She reached out and picked it up. Sure enough, there were a few missed calls.

But they were all unfamiliar numbers. She couldn’t help but look up at Zhan Haoze.

“That is your number?”

“Yes.”

Zhan Haoze nodded. He took her phone and saved his number.

Shi Mengwan looked at her actions and entered his full name. Zhan Haoze.

It was an extremely unfamiliar name that indicated their current relationship.

She didn’t stop him, but in her heart, she decided to block his number later.

“Why are you looking for me?”

“I went to your house, but you weren’t there.”

That was considered an explanation. Shi Mengwan watched him put down his phone. She sat while he stood. In comparison, he was much taller than her.

The pressure was very strong, and she didn’t like it.

“Why were you going to my house again?”

She tried to make her tone not sound like that of a resentful woman. “If you want women, you can go find a prostitute. No, with your conditions, as long as you wave your hand, there should be many women for you to choose from, right?”

Although she didn’t understand how the Qiao Ze of the past had become the Zhan Haoze of today.

She also didn’t understand how that Dear Brother who had nothing back then had suddenly become an elite in the business world.

But even without these external blessings, just with Zhan Haoze’s face, he could still attract a lot of women, right?

Why did he just pick on her without letting go?

Zhan Haoze narrowed his eyes and frowned because of her words.

Shi Mengwan looked at him and said with rare courage, “Am I wrong? Didn’t you look for me just to have s*x with me? To have intercourse with me? But why should I have s*x with you? And why should I have intercourse with you?”