Chapter 1929 - 1515: Utter Despair and the Pain of Abandonment

"Live! You must live! Live well! My daughter!"

On Gu Changsheng’s bright and beautiful face, there was a self-mocking smile. The corner of her mouth curved up more and more, until she seemed like a madwoman howling toward the sky...

"You want me to live? You threatened the Ancestral God and placed a curse on me, making my life so precious, just so I could live? But you left me with a deficit that can’t be filled even after lifetimes, yet you still want me to live well?"

As she spoke, Gu Changsheng raised her hand, pointing at the sky with a finger, shouting hysterically, "You threatened the Ancestral God and laid down a curse, saying if anything happened to me, all the heavens and the beloved creatures he made would accompany me in death! If anything happened to me, you demanded everything he cared about would turn to chaos and perish with me! So tell me, aren’t these heavens and these creatures your love too?"

"You abandoned me to protect these heavens and chose death! But before dying, you told me in this way that you actually love me too? Let me tell you, I don’t want this kind of love! As your daughter, I can’t compare to the heavens you protect or the beloved creatures of your great love!"

Speaking through tears, Gu Changsheng struggled to climb up from the ground. Her dazzling face was full of determination as she looked desperately at the long sky, screaming hoarsely, "You still abandoned me, leaving me as a child without a mother, in the past life so and in this life still. You never asked me what I wanted. Let me tell you, I would trade a fate of dying young for twenty-nine years of having both parents in my past life! I would trade everything I have now for the warmth of a hug, instead of having nothing now! I thought I had the whole world, I thought I could have everything, but in the end, everything was fake! Like bubbles that shatter without a touch... So what is my obsession with heading north, this relentless pursuit, all for?"

"You are so high above, but why won’t you even grant me, as your daughter, this last small hope?"

"You always say your Ancestral God is cruel, but haven’t you been cruel too? You are even more cruel than him! As gods, you think you’re so great! Being gods, you can always stand on the plane of greater good, justify abandoning your husband and daughter?"

Gu Changsheng, while speaking, raised her hand again, pointing at the sky, speaking through clenched teeth, "Since you have cursed these heavens to be tied with my life, do you believe me if I say I would destroy these heavens you vowed to protect, destroy these people of your great love?"

What answered Gu Changsheng was the spreading desolation of silence all around.

What does it mean when crying out to heaven and earth brings no help?

At this moment, Gu Changsheng truly understood!

How could she possibly destroy it all?

This is what her mother, giving everything she had, sacrificed everything to protect. All she asked for was...

"Come back... You better come back to me... If you don’t come back, I’ll destroy everything you care about..."

In their hopeless situation, both mother and daughter made the same choice...

The Ancient Wilderness, threatening the Ancestral God.

Gu Changsheng, threatening the Ancient Wilderness.

All she sought was the fulfillment of a wish!

But, the Ancestral God returned to chaos, leaving only duty to the Ancient Wilderness.

Before the Ancient Wilderness died, the last words left for Gu Changsheng were to live, live well...

Even if Gu Changsheng was in utter despair, how could she bear to let her mother’s last hope shatter?

That was her mother, no matter her identity’s significance, no matter why she repeatedly apologized; this blood bond, cannot be severed, cannot be escaped!

The surrounding silence made Gu Changsheng feel as though she had been completely emptied!

The memories of the Ancient Wilderness Times had vanished, nowhere to be found. What once felt unbearable, like shared anguish, now became her last sliver of hope in her heart!

Only in those memories could she see her Ancient Wilderness, see her mother!

But now, even her last sliver of hope no longer existed!

Her mother, the Divine Venerable Ancient Wilderness, in the historical events that had occurred, chose the heavens she protected and the creatures of her great love, abandoning her daughter...

"Tell me, what do I have to do to bring you back? If the heavens must collapse for you to return, I will let the heavens collapse and creatures suffer. If I must overthrow history, reverse time, I will overthrow history, reverse time! At least tell me a way, tell me, how can I bring you back to life?"

In the end, Gu Changsheng clutched her already empty chest, collapsed on the ground, and wept silently.

At this moment, Gu Changsheng was in utter despair, suddenly unsure of how to proceed down her path...

Uncertain of what she should do...

When everything she had done became meaningless, Gu Changsheng felt for the first time what it meant to not care for anything in life!

That empty heart, as if nothing could fill it, felt like a huge part was missing, leaving her completely empty...

She forgot everything, forgot that her son was waiting for her outside, forgot that the man she loved was waiting for her; she only wished to remain here, in the place where she and her mother became eternal partings upon sight...

Humbly praying that perhaps everything she just experienced could replay once more...

In this way, she would rather forever sink into the pain of loss, than face the despair and helplessness of what has already been lost!

At this moment, Gu Changsheng was truly in utter despair!

For the first time, she actually doubted herself, wondering why she was alive...

Traversing the boundless time and space, to this inexplicable era, why did she still persist in living?

Living, in fact, is so exhausting...

...

Just as Gu Changsheng was clutching her chest and slowly collapsing into her own sea of heart, closing her eyes, in the Sixth Layer of the Star Innate Tower, the small phantom of Ta You floating among the mottled stars at the tower’s top finally spoke in a deep voice, "Have you two made your choice? Do you wish to keep the memories you have just seen, or will you choose to forget what you saw today and move on?"

Zhou Mu, who was holding Gu Changsheng in his arms, raised his head upon hearing this, looking towards Shi Wujue opposite him.

Shi Wujue was burdened with the responsibilities of his family; if he wished not to bear the memories of what he had seen and heard and move forward, it would be understandable!

After all, ignorance leads to fearlessness!

However, Zhou Mu was fearless.

Wherever the woman in his arms was, wherever she was going, he would accompany her no matter what!

If those shocking experiences were too much for her to bear, then he would bear them for her!

He would bear the unknown fears for her, he would bear the dangers she might face!

And just as Zhou Mu glanced at Shi Wujue and then returned his gaze to the woman in his arms, Shi Wujue also slowly lowered his head to look at Gu Changsheng with her eyes closed beside him...

Having come this far, there was no room for retreat!

He couldn’t give up on the truth that his ancestors had pursued for millennia, and he couldn’t disregard the life and death of the He Clan, nor could he forget his own discontent!

If he weakly chose to forget this memory, then when that loved one who has been calculated by him faces unknown dangers, he might lose the opportunity to perceive everything...

He couldn’t shrink back, nor could he give up.

And he absolutely couldn’t...

allow her to get hurt right in front of him!

The Ancient Wilderness Times?

If the truth he insisted on seeking lay within that disappeared Ancient Wilderness Times, then could letting this woman follow him into it really unravel the truth of the past?

"Ta You, tell me, is she really related to this matter?" In the end, Shi Wujue still raised his head, with a hint of supplication on his astonishing face, looking towards Ta You at the tower’s top.

Ta You said that these memories are weights that Gu Changsheng cannot bear, what did it all mean?

Gu Changsheng had come to this point step by step because of his calculated steps, Shi Wujue was certain of this, but why, after seeing this memory of the Ancient Wilderness Times, was Gu Changsheng the only one who couldn’t bear it and fainted?

Hearing Shi Wujue’s question, Ta You’s hazy phantom fell into a moment of deep thought, then slowly raised his head, speaking with a sigh, "Those who are in it, who can truly stand aside as the player of the game? Descendant of the Shi Clan, she is the one chosen by destiny, not by you; everything that happens is both accidental and inevitable, what you assume to be true may not be what you ultimately seek, and the truth that you stubbornly pursue may not be the weight you can bear..."

Hearing Ta You’s words, Shi Wujue immediately fell into deep thought.

Since Ta You is the will continuation of the Divine Venerable Ancient Wilderness, and knows all his plans and calculations effortlessly, the meaning of his words was roughly that Gu Changsheng was not someone outside the realm, and that even without his plotting, these things were unavoidable for her!

These words inexplicably brought peace to Shi Wujue, slightly relieving his guilt, but his worry about Gu Changsheng increased instead!

If she too was someone caught within, then in pursuit of a truth for himself, the divine relic item she pursued, the Tears of the Goddess, how could she, like him, become someone caught within?

"I choose to remember what I saw today!" When Shi Wujue raised his head again, his long and narrow eyes were resolute.

Hearing this, Ta You immediately furrowed his brow, looking over at him.

And Zhou Mu also furrowed his brow and turned his head, looking at Shi Wujue, saying in a deep voice, "Have you thought it through? If you choose to remember, then on the road ahead, these frightening memories might become obstacles in your search for the truth!"

Ignorance allows fearlessness, while glimpsing a part of the truth would inevitably breed dread in one’s heart...