Chapter 443: Chapter 443 was never done

Xie Chang took Yan Xi to a temple in the suburbs of the imperial capital.

He used to come to the imperial capital often. After all, this was the city where his mother grew up, so he had always worshipped this temple.

Because what he said was very serious, he wanted to say it in front of the Buddha so that he would appear devout.

In the quiet room, the smoke of incense sticks lingered, and Xie Chang calmly narrated it.

Those old things seemed to be still vivid in his mind.

He had a good memory, and he remembered every detail clearly. Even the terrified expression on his mother’s face could be recalled carefully.

“Xie Junxuan was actually right. I’m a monster, a monster with no feelings.”Xie Chang stared into Yan Xi’s eyes, “At that time, I really thought that since things had come to this, why not let people die peacefully in their sleep? It’s better than being tormented by a huge illness.”

Grandfather repeatedly asked his father to prescribe medicine because the pain was unbearable. He also felt that it was too undignified to walk towards death in such pain and madness.

Therefore, Xie Chang agreed to grandfather’s repeated requests and took the initiative to suggest to his father that if he was afraid of taking responsibility, he could complete the injection himself.

He had read the criminal law and knew his age. He did not need to take any criminal responsibility at all.

This way, he could perfectly avoid all kinds of risks and satisfy his grandfather’s wishes, so that he could leave with dignity.

The father hesitated for an entire day before finally prescribing the medicine the next day.

He trusted his son. He felt that this child was calm and rational. Others might feel reprimand and panic in their hearts, but elder Xie probably would not.

Elder Xie really would not. When he was about to go on the injection mission, he was called away by his grandmother at the last minute. They chatted for a while.

Yan XI had an idea. “So, you didn’t inject it, right?”

She held her breath subconsciously and stared at him nervously.

Xie Changze was silent for a moment.”… No, grandmother talked to me for three hours. When I rushed back, grandfather was just choking.”

Yan Xi was slightly relieved. This matter involved ethics and morality. Although Xie Changze did not do anything wrong, she did not want Xie Changze’s hands to be stained with the blood of his family.

After all, they were such beautiful hands.

She took the initiative to hold his hand and thought for a while before saying, “But this matter still hurt you a lot, didn’t it? Was It… from your parents?”

The world rarely reflected on themselves. Instead, they were too harsh on others’morals.

When a father prescribed medicine because of his son’s suggestion, would he blame his son for being cold-blooded and heartless, even his own grandfather?

Also, what would his mother, who had been kept in the dark, think of her precocious son after knowing about it?

Why had the Xie family’s parents never been by Xie Changze’s side for more than ten years? Why hadn’t they even appeared for such a major event like the college entrance examination?

Thinking of this, Yan Xi’s heart tightened.

Xie changze smiled bitterly. She was really too smart, and nothing could be hidden from her.

“My mother soon noticed something amiss. She was a person with a strong sense of morality, so she could not accept it at that time. As for my father… at that time, he was still blaming himself. He felt that everything was his fault, but as time passed…”

In the end, he could not help but hate this son of his.

Although the husband and wife did not break down and curse hysterically, they both began to distance themselves from their son, intentionally or unintentionally.

His grandmother left the Xie family’s old house to him because she was afraid that the couple would be too cold and he would have no one to rely on in the future.

However, it was not to the extent that his parents were irresponsible. They would send him a lot of money every month so that he could pay off his debts and maintain a basic life.

He had a difficult time when he was a teenager.

However, earning money was not a difficult thing for him. Soon, he entered the young prodigy class. Not only did he not need to spend money to study, but he could also earn a lot of subsidies.

Moreover, he went to his grandfather’s house in the capital as a guest. He even found his cousin, Su Mu, to help him earn money.

“Actually, after my grandmother passed away due to illness, there was a period of time when I couldn’t even find the meaning of life. That was until I met you.”

Xie Chang looked at Yan Xi attentively. His gaze was affectionate and gentle, “They all said that you’re the Devil and an invincible existence. “I think how is that possible? I can definitely defeat you. “Just like that, I started to become positive as I followed your path forward. “And the more I understand you, the more I feel that it’s really good to be alive… Yan Yan, you’re my salvation.”

Yan Xi felt her heart throb deeply, and she was a little confused.”… Am I that good?”

Xie Chang said firmly, “Of course you are! You are gentle and kind, smart and tough, and your whole person is shining.”

If angels or gods had looks, it must be like Yan XI.

In legends, when a God came down to Earth, some people chose to hide their feathered clothes, and some chose to break their wings.

Xie Chang would not do that, but that did not stop him from wanting to keep the other party all to himself.

He had made the choice to come clean. It seemed like he had given the right to choose to the other party, but in reality, he was deliberately showing weakness and begging for the other party’s mercy.

In the past, he did not feel that it was difficult. If he said it out loud, it would only damage his dignity. However, compared to losing the other party, dignity was nothing.

He had never been a person who waited to be killed. How could he beat the thrill of taking the initiative to hunt when he was passively waiting to be chosen.

The most powerful hunters usually appeared as prey.

“So, after knowing this, are you still willing to get engaged to me? Don’t you think I’m Scary?”Xie Chang chuckled. A tear seemed to slide across his eyes in the smoke. “After all, if grandmother hadn’t stopped me back then, I would have…”

Yan Xi raised her hand and gently pressed on his lips.

Her brows furrowed slightly. “Don’t make such assumptions. If you haven’t done it, then you haven’t done it. There’s no point in making such assumptions. It’s said that a saint can not stand the trial of morality, regardless of his or her heart.”

Yan Xi never felt that she was necessarily kind. Moreover, Xie Changze’s original intention was to ease old master Xie’s pain and maintain his dignity.

“Don’t mention that you were young and immature at that time. Even if you make such a choice now, I don’t think it’s scary. Because if the person lying on the hospital bed is me, I also want to leave with dignity and dignity…”

Xie changze’s expression suddenly changed, and he hurriedly interrupted her, “Nonsense! Don’t say that!”

He was so scared that his heart stopped. How could there be such an analogy.

Yan Xi blinked and changed her words, “Even if you really did it, I still firmly want to be with you.”

She didn’t have such a plan in the past, but when she said this, she was extremely certain.

She wasn’t the kind of person who was indecisive and indecisive. When she proposed the engagement, she had carefully considered it and wouldn’t easily waver.

Now, she would not waver even more.

It was probably because it was not easy to understand a person’s deep feelings.

This person said that he was his redemption and revealed that he had been chasing her for more than ten years. How could he not be moved.

Yan Xi’s heart was a mess. At this moment, she did not even want to be rational. It was because of this person that she wanted to indulge.