Novel Full Chapter 546 - Human
Humans are cruel, savaged, and violent they are animals pretend to be civilized and dignified and yet they are driven by greed, lust, and hatred. I know because I had seen it all, I saw the ugly and the worst side of human, I saw how they took pleasure by hurting a little kid, how they feel some kinda released by making me eat rotten food, that lowly human had to beat me to make them feel slightly better for themselves, such a pitiful creature, they think I envy them? Wrong I mocked them.
I promised myself that I would never become like them so I buried everything that make me human, pain, sadness, envy, greed, lust, and most of all…love. I buried everything so deep in my heart so no one could reach not even me, and It worked, I stopped to feel, It like I'm disconnected from the rest of the world, I feel numbed…
When I'm not held by the emotional feeling everything becomes clearer, it's easy to focus on my plan, making plans is easy as breathing the enemy cannot provoke me, their bait is useless, I have nothing to restrain me, so I thrive and I prevail.
Years after years I achieved more than I could dream of, everything that I thought could quench my thirst as my throat is dry desperate for something but nothing could satisfy me anymore, not a mountain of golds, not women, not even the bloody heads of my enemies, I begin to see everything grey and the word gradually lost its luster and all delicacy tasted like ash I begin to miss the tasted of the rotten food I used to have.
'Every dog has its day' well that's true, for my enemy at least. Finally they able to hurt me, of course, they die in my hands as a result but they succeed to hurt me more than they ever did, well I praised their tenancy by giving them a quick death, I want to give them more praised if only my legs didn't turn to jelly I walk limping then slid tiredly on the tree trunks as I fell to the ground surrounded by my enemy's corpses.
'Embarrassing' that's what came to my mind, the people in that damned place not only feed me rotten food they feed me poison too, a poison that so strong I could never get rid of until these days. Afterall that I have been through I can't believe I would be dead like this, alone and wounded just like a dog 'How disappointing'
The gods must laugh at me right now, I start to imagine their boisterous laugh as they point their finger at me, oh well I wanted to laugh too. Turns out I'm only human, I'm too conceited to admit I need to rely on other people, to proud to admit that I have my own limitation, and this is what I got.
The poison might be the way of god to telling me that in the end, I'm just ants inside their palms, I can't change my faith. I feel coldness ran from the tip of my finger to my elbow and stopped on my chest, I cough amount of blood as my body engulf with coldness, I chuckled on my dying time 'What a stupid way to die' I cursed myself, I don't want to die in my enemy hands, if I have to die it's should be in my own terms, my own will but probably is too late to be picky right now...
I wiped the blood from my mouth with my sleeves, I strengthen my position as I lay my back on the tree trunk trying to look presentable, I don't want my subordinated to find my miserable corpses in pitiful position, at least I can do that right? My eyelids become heavy, I know I cannot sleep right now I still cannot consent to die here but what can I do? what human could do in the face of death? I look heavenward as make mirthless smiles "You win," I cursed the god one last time before everything turns dark.
As the darkness swallows me whole bit by bit I begin to wonder if anyone sad when I'm dead, it's funny because I never thought about this before and yet I can't stop to wonder, would there be anybody mourns for me. I had no family, friends, lovers only subordinates, would my subordinated cry for me? Probably not, maybe they would feel dejected because they lose their livelihood but nothing more, the dead will soon be forgotten and the living moves on that's how life is,
My body suddenly becomes light and the pained slowly dissipated, in a pitch dark there is nothing but emptiness, I'm swallowed by darkness then, I have no fear but the sense of familiarity darkness is my inseparable friend that follow me for so long, it like a brother of mine so I embrace it with all my heart if I ever had one.
I should have expected this how I die, I know I savaged man like me I will not die on the comfy bed surrounded by my loved one only, but still, I wish I could drag all my enemies in this bottomless darkness. I wish they could accompany me in this abyss.
Suddenly a small flicker of light burst from my chest, my eyes bulged widely as my jaw hang lose the next thing happened thousands of flicker light burst from my chest like fireworks, immediately it ceased the darkness around me and I'm cover with purple light, then I feel my body become warmed as it feel I soaked in the hot spring in the middle of winter.
I stretch my hands I try to reach the flickers light around me but no avail, then I heard a gentle whisper in a distance.
"May the light guide your way even in the darkest path young Prince..."
I heard a sweet gentle voice calling for me....but who?
Hundreds of lights around me floating like fireflies then flew to a certain direction, I don't know where it goes but I follow nonetheless. I feel like running inside a dark tunnel then I see the light on the end of the tunnel, the warmth engulf me then I hit with a faint scent, is a scent of flower but I never smelled this scent before, it's light and shooting with the hint of fresh lemon and clary sage, what flower is this so mysterious it's addictive.
I finally touch the light on the end of the tunnel, I could feel a small hand on my chest, I used to be disgusted from women touch but I longing for her hand, I want her hand stay longer but is all whistful thinking as the hands slowly retracted from my chest, I know she wants to leave I want to stop her but my body refused to listen to me.
I open my eyes abruptly, I search my surrounding but I see no one but copses. I clenched my fist as a feeling of distraught crept within me, why she left? Why doesn't she wait? Why can she wait? Am I dreaming? Hundreds of questions ran through my head. Then I realize my body feel light, the coldness that always haunted me disappeared without a trace. I check my pulsed to search any symptom left from my poison but I found nothing, is like the poison was never there in the first place and not only that the scars and wound on my body also disappeared, what kinda miracle is this?
But one thing is certain, I'm not dreaming, someone was here, a woman smelled like fresh lemon and clary sage, a woman with a voice as sweet as her scent, suddenly my heart race, something burst uncontrollably within me, I don't know what is this feeling but if I found her, maybe I would know, my savior.
My subordinates suddenly appear saying something I don't heed, there only one thing filled my head right now "FIND HER!"