Chapter 64: Gaslighting

It’s been about a week, so shouldn’t I start talking about Gilmon?

No, should I wait a little longer?

Until now, I had deliberately refrained.

How much I wanted to visit him in the hospital after hearing that Gilmon was in the hospital.

I heard that other women had been there.

But he refused all visitors.

Only the Princess was using her special position to go in and out of there.

’That woman doesn’t know what fair play is.’

Sierra said inwardly what she would never say out loud.

No matter how unfair and angry I am, it is not wise to reveal my true feelings.

This is what her father, a diplomat and Marquis, taught her since she was young.

Sierra also had a reason to go to Asino Hospital, where Gilmon was hospitalized.

I haven’t told Phonia yet, but the Princess made a big mistake.

The Asino Foundation, to which Asino Hospital belongs, is where Sierra’s uncle is the chairman of the foundation.

My uncle didn’t have a daughter, but he cherished his niece like his own daughter.

Even though the person refused, there was a way to visit the hospital.

I don’t think the Princess didn’t know that.

According to rumors, Gilmon himself opposed moving the hospital.

Gilmon expected a stuffy life at the Royal Hospital.

The Princess must have wanted to move the hospital room at all costs to keep Sierra in check.

While inferring these facts, Sierra felt a small joy.

’Gilmon and the Princess are not as close as I thought.’

Rather, Gilmon is pushing the Princess away.

Then, the closest person to him right now is none other than Sierra.

Loria, who was a threat, was also kicked out.

"Um, Sierra..."

Phonia, who was quietly sipping tea, said.

Since she was missing one arm, she quietly put down the teacup in her left hand.

"If it’s okay with you, our house... well, it’s Messiah’s house, but anyway, he’s not there right now, so would you like to come over?"

Thunder rumbled in Sierra’s head.

How long had I been waiting for these words?

A space where I can fully feel Gilmon’s scent?

To be able to enter a space full of his traces and life?

But Sierra did not reveal her inner feelings without dignity, such as breaking a teacup.

She put down the cup and closed her eyes as calmly as possible.

It would be a problem if I showed my pupils shaking.

Even a silly goose like Phonia would find it suspicious.

When her heartbeat calmed down.

Sierra smiled and slowly opened her eyes.

"... Shall we? If it’s not rude, I’ll accept the invitation."

Seeing Phonia smiling bashfully, Sierra thought.

Could it be that her expression was stiff because she was about to bring up this story?

Of course not.

Sierra realized that something more was hidden.

I’m not particularly worried, but it’s important to check the condition of the bait.

A plan can go wrong with even the slightest flaw.

"Do you have any concerns, Phonia?"

"... It’s not a concern."

Phonia said, fidgeting with her fingers.

"... It’s about the Mind-Body-Spirit Virgin Theory I’m learning these days."

Indeed, is that it.

"Yes, please speak."

"Don’t men like that kind of talk?"

"Did you tell Gilmon?"

"... Yes, he got very angry..."

Sierra said, holding back her laughter.

"Men are originally that kind of species. So, they are different on the outside and inside. They think virginity is more important than anything else, but they pretend not to be."

"But Messiah is..."

"I think Gilmon is no different. Why would the Princess or noble ladies put magic on their wombs? Virginity guarantees a woman’s quality. You said Gilmon got angry?"

"Yes, he told me not to be interested in such things..."

"Let me ask you a question. If Phonia is not a virgin in mind, body, and spirit, would Gilmon still like you?"

Phonia closed her mouth at Sierra’s words.

As expected, she wouldn’t know.

The Mind-Body-Spirit Virgin Theory has been passed down since the founding of the Empire.

It is maintained among nobles and royalty, but it is not a very important issue among ordinary imperial citizens.

Some even think it’s old-fashioned.

But it’s not a story to be ignored altogether, so a significant number of imperial citizens value it.

In short, whether being a virgin in mind, body, and spirit is important when dating is a personal matter.

And that was the blind spot Sierra was aiming for.

"... I don’t know. First of all, Phonia has never liked anyone, and she has never masturbated. If she has, it’s only jerking off Messiah’s thing, but..."

Sierra paused while leisurely holding her teacup.

It was a crisis.

She almost broke the cup.

Is this woman serious?

Messiah, so, she had actually seen his dick?

Why... she’s a bitch with only one arm?

Sierra thought, looking at Phonia’s empty right arm.

Just thinking about it made me angry, but let’s pretend to be calm for now.

"Of course, you’ve never had a boyfriend?"

"Yes."

"You don’t have a crush either?"

"That’s right."

"Then Phonia is a perfect virgin in mind, body, and spirit. It’s rare to be this perfect. But if even one of these goes wrong, will Phonia still like you?"

"I-I don’t know..."

"If you don’t know, why don’t you try it?"

Sierra said with a smile.

"T-try it...?"

"Jerk one of those things in a showy way. Turn your eyes to another man, or masturbate... how about it? Gilmon doesn’t care about such things, right?"

"....."

After a moment of silence, Sierra shook her head.

"You don’t feel like it?"

Sierra was silent for a moment and then recommended it one more time.

"I’ll tell you because it’s just us. Honestly, aren’t you a little upset? Gilmon has had relationships with us... well, with many women. Although it was a long time ago."

"Y-yes..."

"It’s not strange to say that it’s unfair to force this only on women."

Sierra said.

"Still... I’ll stop. I just don’t feel like falling for anyone other than Messiah."

Honestly, I didn’t have high expectations.

No matter how pathetic a woman is, she wouldn’t fall for such a trick.

Honestly, I don’t think Gilmon would be so heartbroken even if she did that.

Would he be in pain if this disabled woman cheated on him?

Sierra was sure that he was stimulating the jealousy of women right now.

He’s making women from the previous playthrough regret it by pretending to be interested in this pathetic woman.

"Anyway, men’s true feelings are originally different. So, rest assured."

"Sierra... are you a virgin?"

"COUGH!"

This time, I failed to pretend to be calm.

I never thought Phonia would ask.

"... Yes, well, for now, I am too..."

Sierra said, avoiding Phonia’s gaze.

Strictly speaking, Sierra also masturbated quite often.

I have never liked, respected, or dated a man other than my father, but that is a flaw.

Still, ’Ki’ is the least noticeable of the mind, body, and spirit.

Who would know if I didn’t say it?

That she, who is dignified, is not a perfect virgin in mind, body, and spirit.

"I will give my virginity to the man I will love for the rest of my life. Conversely, I will love the person I gave my virginity to for the rest of my life. If I don’t, there’s no reason to preserve it. Don’t you think so?"

Sierra emphasized.