Chapter 209: To Overturn (1)

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Inside the infirmary I was staring at Leas.

Leas without matching eyes with me, remaining looking down. No face to match, that kind of guy?

"...About me... fine."

Leas’s first voice, the trembling voice reaches my eardrums.

"Everyone, want helped. This kind of... woman who cannot even properly do the only redeeming feature, there should be many people who should be saved."

What is put in the weak voice is self-hatred.

Why, why, why cannot she herself do this well. That feeling. Painfully conveyed.

Separately not a human sensitive to the subtleties of others’ hearts, but even so... because an emotion I myself am familiar with, I understood well.

Would have done better, would have done properly more, more. There was a better way, why am I this no good.

"...Don’t make that face."

While hesitating at words he somehow opened the mouth.

He does not understand the optimal solution at all, but even so he does not think solving at the place of time passing remaining silent, and the battle situation would only continue worsening.

Is this fine, is this kind of comfort fine, in the first place is me fine, while not understanding even one. Even so he spins words.

"Even if I say not becoming a great comfort, but unable to do well, unable to properly do, I am also the same. Therefore."

"...That is different, Atel Octo."

Quietly, but blocking the words with a tone that brooks no argument Leas slowly shook her head.

"I. After all, have achieved nothing. If only me would have lost to Alter. Unable to save Harukaze-sensei, Grace either... unable to help the child who was desperately resisting Monster Villain transformation. Without your help I was dropping, all, all."

She stares at my face and smiled.

Ephemeral, seeming about to melt and vanish now, a weak smile. A smile completely different from the smile she showed me that day.

"You are amazing. Even if I had the same power as you surely would have done nothing, achieved nothing. Completely different from the likes of me with no brain except swinging a sword."

That gaze was a color as if looking up at the sun, as if praising a hero.

The hero who saved herself many times, ally of justice Sacred. That shine is dazzling from the heart.

Ah, truly the expectation is heavy.

That she is believing me he thinks happy from the heart.

But that he is not a human of that degree he himself knows well.

"If."

Yes, he is not a great guy.

Even now a perverted guy who ends up glancing at Leas’s body. The gym clothes stuck with sweat. Think of the situation fool, but somehow cannot regulate well.

After all he is an ordinary fool who naturally ended up becoming a tentacle Monster Villain. Despite having knowledge though full of holes, a fool who cannot utilize that well.

If someone else would have done better. Did he do well? No, cannot conceit that way. Able to do well, seeming unable to puff the chest.

...But.

Even so the reason he is here now.

The reason the likes of him is desperately even if unable is because there was one transformation heroine.

"If you think I am an amazing guy... if thinking for me, that is thanks to you."

Jururi, jururi he makes tentacles squirm.

Removes the hood of the tentacle-clothes hoodie, grabs the tentacles covering the face with both hands and forcibly shifts.

"A..."

What is exposed is the inside of a mummy man. The figure of him who became the base of a Monster Villain.

At the face of the man named Sawayama Senjumaru making the pupils shine red Leas opens the pupils.

In that surprise what kind of emotion is included.

Disappointed at the likes of him? Thought a more amazing person. Surely that is so he thinks.

But what does he care.

Since a completely flawless hero is not in this place only desperately even if unable.

"That day when saved by you. Thought beautiful."

Surprise, freeze. Even so the face of Leas staring this way straight.

Those pupils he also stared straight.

He recalls the instant he recalled the previous life that day.

Knowing this world is a transformation-heroine humiliation thing, despite noticing Saber eventually loses. Happy, fun, was laughing.

When that time comes want to see more in front, if possible want to mix in the act himself.

Thinking commonly an ugly thought.

Evil and base, truly no way of saving. This kind of guy absolutely better die.

But that kind of him Leas. Sacred Saber saved. Smiled ’good that helped’.

That day’s smile is still in the chest.

"Even so the instant ended up becoming a Monster Villain thought of violating you first before other Monster Villains. But... calling ally of justice Sacred, calling Vigilante, given a name like Atel Octo, before knowing came this far."

Truly why became this way.

Not that there was admiration like Reiko. Justice or good or light, for the slanted him had no value.

In temperament and combat ability not suited to a transformation hero.

Yes. Ah, scary, scary, scary, even now not seeming to get used.

Why is Alter becoming Sacred, strange, don’t screw around, in the original was only granted magical power of light from the fall-to-darkness princess.

Already far stronger than the likes of him, why powering up.

Despite strong at side methods becoming strong at frontal match too is a bug, like becoming able to equip a sword despite strong at bare hands. Do not casually cross the line he can somehow.

Honestly the feeling of wanting to throw everything to someone is still strong even now.

If a guy who can do more properly reincarnated and said ’you are useless’ maybe would have yielded please please.

In the first place he is ally of justice Sacred, and no feeling of wanting to save and protect anyone and everyone. No, did not have, until just recently.

"At first for protecting you and Knuckle, incidentally protecting Knight and her brother, because you mind also saved the involved guy, thanked. While doing that way gradually the other party who should protect increased, the other party wanting to protect also increased."

Therefore surely... though an unmatched talk, ended up thinking wanting to become.

Not only ally of justice Sacred. Ally of justice everyone.

Which mouth is saying embarrassing, or not the style, or unmatched for him, that kind of feeling still does not vanish. What reckless thing is he saying fool, that kind of himself mocking is inside.

Ah, all all correct arguments.

But if starting to say that kind of thing from the start a reckless casting.

Even now not changing being a tentacle guy with interest in female bodies, even the title of Vigilante ally of justice Sacred is too heavy. Truly not the style.

But that kind of not-the-style days he had been feeling precious from some time.

"Protecting someone, protecting everyone’s daily also, thought not bad. All your influence."

"Mine?"

Aa, he nods.

If Saber was an existence that destroys evil even if involving civilians he would not have become this way.

He thinks was laughing ’well separately not that I want to protect guys I do not know’.