Chapter 1106: Chapter 1118 What Despair was

However, she could not bleed. It was impossible for her to bleed. Her blood could infect diseases, her blood was evil, and her blood was dirty. She shrank her body and shivered. Her whole body kept twitching, and her clothes were wet again. Even big hair stuck to her face. Another drop of water rolled down her cheek, but it was unknown whether it was sweat or tears. When she woke up again, it was unknown what time it was. She had woken up from the cold and from hunger. She touched her head, but it was extremely painful. Her clothes were wet again. She lowered her head and looked at the blood on the floor. Then, she got up from the ground and took a basin of water. She knelt on the ground and began to wipe the blood. Her blood was poisonous, and she could not let anyone touch it. Her misty eyes were hazy at first, then clear. She did not know how many times she had repeated it. A drop of water fell from the sky and then spread on the floor. She thought that she must have committed a great sin in her past life. It was a great sin that could not be redeemed. That was why she had to suffer so much in this life. was she living to atone for her past life. What was laughable was that the fortune teller even said that she would have many grandchildren and be happy for the rest of her life. Would she? Would she? She wiped her tears with her sleeve. Would she still have many grandchildren like this? If she could not even save her own life, what happiness could she still have. She did not have any happiness. The people around her would all be unhappy because of her. It would be Lu Yi, Yi Ling, and her three children. She picked up the basin, and the water in the basin was poured into the toilet. The bloody water had already flowed out through the sewer. Would it still be infected? She did not know. She touched her aching forehead. She could not let it bleed anymore. She needed to buy a rope to tie her up. Otherwise, she did not know what she would do without realizing it. She brought another basin of water, knelt on the ground, and wiped the floor again and again. She was so numb, expressionless, and did not feel anything. Her hands were already cold and she choked, but she could not feel any pain anymore. Do you know what is despair? Do you know what is worse than death? Do you know, what is worse than death? She knew, it was like this, in fact, she might have died cleaner, but she was still alive with such a body, such a struggle to survive, alive. She went out and bought a strong rope, tied the end of the rope to the window, the window is made of steel rods, no matter what, she may have the strength to pull down the steel rods, she is also for the wall, she also bought a cotton quilt. Even if she really lost her mind, she knew that she would hit her head. She knew that she would bite herself. But now, no matter what, it was impossible for her to bite herself again, she could not afford to be injured. She could not afford to be injured at all. In the middle of the night, she suddenly opened her eyes. Her body could not help but tremble again. She jumped down from the wooden bed, and then her trembling hands tied up her feet with a rope, and then her hands. She clenched the rope with her teeth, and also wrapped her hands and feet a little tighter. After a while, it was that familiar feeling again. It was very painful, very painful. She bit the corner of the blanket hard, and her eyes also became red from holding it in. Only the string of beads that kept gathering from the corner of her eyes started to fall down from time to time. Her eyes were wide open, but she did not feel anything. It was painful and sad. .. “Huanhuan…”suddenly, a man sat up. He pulled open the lamp on the bedside and put his hand on his forehead. At this moment, his forehead was covered in cold sweat, even his clothes were drenched. He turned the lamp on a little brighter and entered the bathroom. When the hot water was put down, no one saw the tears that dripped down from the corner of the man’s eyes. Who said that men couldn’t Cry? Who said that men couldn’t Cry? Men were human, and Lu Yi was human. Why couldn’t he cry? The door outside was suddenly pushed open. Lu Yi hurriedly took his clothes and put them on. When he came out, he saw Xun Xun standing at the door with her little bare feet and a big doll in her arms. She was looking at him with a pair of big eyes. Lu Yi took a towel and wiped his hair in a mess. Then, he walked over and carried Xun Xun up. “What’s wrong? Can’t Sleep?”Lu Yi carried his daughter to the bed and touched her feet. He saw that her feet were a little cold and she wasn’t wearing socks. Did she feel uncomfortable somewhere? He placed his hand on his daughter’s forehead and realized that it was a little hot. “Baby, sit down first. Wait for Daddy.” Lu Yi opened a drawer at the side and took out a medicine box. Then, he took out a thermometer. “Let’s take your temperature.”. Lu Yi carried his daughter up, then he held the thermometer for her and wrapped his daughter up with the blanket. “What’s wrong? You’re not talking again?”Lu Yi gently patted his daughter’s little face. After the child recovered from her illness, she had become the same as before. She was so pitiful. Her mother’s bangs had already grown, however, she did not allow anyone to touch them no matter what. In the end, it was Lu Yi who cut her hair. However, Lu Yi’s skills were not good. He cut Xun Xun’s hair like a dog’s bite. Xun Xun did not care at all. It was just that this child did not seem to like talking to others. Xun Xun rubbed her eyes. Her long eyelashes were extremely fragile. Her baby fat little face had disappeared. Now, it had become a small pointy chin. However, her eyes were even bigger. No.., her eyes were the only thing that could be seen on her face. If this continued, she might really become an owl in the future. “Pull pull pull…”Xun Xun called out to Lu Yi before she clenched her father’s fingers tightly. “Xun Xun has a headache. Mother said that if you have a headache, you have to tell father because Xun Xun will infect brother.” Lu Yi suddenly felt his eyes ache. He hugged his daughter tightly, and it was almost as if both father and daughter were relying on each other. “Ba Ba, does Mommy Not Love Xunxun Anymore?” As Xunxun asked, tears fell again, “Why doesn’t she come to xunxun? Why doesn’t she hug Xunxun anymore? Xunxun is very well-behaved. Xunxun will be very well-behaved. Xunxun will eat meat in the future and will recite poems properly. She Won’t talk back to Mommy.”