She's My Sleeping Pill

John cried in silence and even the priest had tears in her eyes. The doctors who were watching outside the room couldn't stop crying as well.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry."  Mrs. Wyatt kept apologizing but John wasn't listening to her. It's too late to say sorry. It's too late to start over. He was too late to marry her.

Cayenne sent Seiji and Arthur the news of Marian's death. Her tears kept falling on her face as she composed the message and no matter how much she tried to wipe them off, new ones would come out and fall on the floor.

Marian's funeral was held extravagantly which earned scorn and gossips from many people. When their daughter was alive, they were very strict to her and she was very guarded. She even had to lie about her identity, telling people that she's not related to the businessman and woman, just to make sure that she won't implicate them if she makes any mistake.

Although she was very kind and was also smart, many people tend to hate her because of her parents. In the end, she suffered the most even though she didn't do anything wrong.

Even during the funeral, even though John was allowed to be there, he didn't speak to anyone except for Cayenne, Stefan and Veronica. He didn't know much about Seiji and Arthur so, he kept a little distance from them.

Many people offered their condolences as well and some of their former classmates who were in the country also visited to pay respect. Even if they weren't close, she was still an acquaintance to most of them.

Four days later, Cayenne and Stefan came home from the funeral and Luiz caught a glimpse of his sister's side profile. "Yen, has been crying since her best friend passed away."

"We can't really do anything about it. They just reunited and this happens." Kyle replied to his brother while the two of them peeled some vegetables to be used for dinner. Since it was school break, they gave Lucia and her daughters some off time from work. Instead of letting them work, the family of three can go out and have fun of their own. Therefore, they were left to deal with their own meals.

It wasn't a problem to them though. They knew how to cook and they can survive without a chef at home.

"I'll send this to Yen's room." Kyle stated with sliced cucumbers on a small bowl.

"Bring her some water, too. She needs to keep herself hydrated."

The funeral was only held for a week and after that, Marian was properly buried in City D's Sudlon Cemetery. After the burial, Veronica went home back to the mansion and packed her remaining things. Mrs. Wyatt asked the butler of their family to inspection the luggage and after making sure that Veronica didn't take anything from them, she allowed her to go.

Veronica didn't take it to heart. She knew what kind of people was the couple.

John was still mourning and couldn't bring himself to work again. But it wasn't a problem since he has a very capable pastry chef and manager. They also understood her circumstances and didn't bother him with the store matters.

On the other hand, Stefan also thought that his wife would be able to move on from the pain but he was wrong. Cayenne was refusing to eat with everyone. She didn't like talking to anyone but him. Sometimes, even when it was Jillyanna who calls her, she would still refuse to speak. In one year, she lost two important people in her life. Her mother died due to an illness and Marian died for the same reason.

Soon the school break was over and the second semester of the year was staring. Even still, Cayenne didn't even enroll herself and left all the work to her husband. Stefan arranged for someone to process everything for his wife, not knowing what else he could do to cheer her up.

"Is she still mourning? It's been two weeks after the burial. The second semester will start on Monday. Is she going to school like that?" Luiz asked Kyle while they ate lunch together. Like usual, Stefan came down to bring food upstairs instead. Seeing how busy his brother-in-law was in the past few days, Luiz couldn't take it anymore and stood up from his seat. "Big bro, can I bring the food to her upstairs?"

"Why? I can do It myself."

"I just wanted to say something to her."

"No, you will scold her."

"Because you won't." Luiz retorted. "You spoil her so much which is why she's being like that. It's not that I hate you spoiling her but there should be a limit to how much you can do it. Just leave it to me, okay?"

"I don't really mind- "

"Well, I mind. I don't like seeing my sister like that." Luiz left his unfinished food and took the tray of food from Stefan. "Just wait outside the door and do not come inside until I get myself out."

"O-okay. Just don't go overboard. You sister is fragile. I don't want to break her heart again."

"Leave it to me." Luiz walked upstairs under the worried gazes of everyone. Stefan really kept his promise and waited outside. As for Kyle, he just looked at his brother for few seconds before continuing to eat his food.

"Aren't you worried for your sister and brother?" Jonas asked his eldest son who seemed calm in front of him.

"Don't worry. Luiz is very good in talking sense with Yen and Yen always feel guilty when Luiz is worried because of her."

"Oh. I see."

Luiz didn't bother knocking on the door because Stefan opened it for him. "Sis, I'm coming in." Luiz stated and brought the tray of food to the bedside drawer. "How long are you planning to sulk and mourn?" Cayenne didn't answer. "It's okay to feel sad. It's okay to feel depressed for losing someone but you should know that it was something you have no control of. Stop making other people worry about you." The last statement made Cayenne flinch from her daze and she looked at her brother.

"Luiz. I –"

"Yes, Marian is your best friend. You are sorry that she passed away without achieving her dreams, without getting the chance to marry the person that she loves. But is that your fault? Do you have to stress yourself over something you have no control of? Do you think she'd be happy if she gets to see you like this? Classes will resume in few days; have you enrolled yourself? Did you spare some time to think of your future? Have you ever thought how much worry you brought to us? To your husband? You can't sulk here forever. It's not just me or Kyle. Dad is worried. Sir Reuben and Ms. Ingrid were worried for you."

Cayenne cried while listening to her brother talk everything he has in mind. She couldn't deny it because all of them were true. "I'm sorry for causing you guys to worry."

"Don't apologize to me. Apologize to your husband. You don't know this but there's a problem in one of his companies yet he had to neglect it because he's thinking of your welfare instead of his business. Please be mindful of how much your husband has to sacrifice."

Cayenne burst into tears and just cried everything she's been keeping within her. She didn't care if she looked horrible in front of her brother right now. She just wanted to release all the stuffy and negative emotions she was feeling.

"Sshh. It's alright now." Luiz hugged his sister and rubbed her back to calm her. "It's fine. Mom's death wasn't your fault. Marian's death wasn't your fault. I know that you get to spend so little time with them but I am also sure that none of them blamed you. In fact, they're happy. Don't punish yourself anymore. Just keep their memories in your heart and take a step to move forward. Moving on doesn't mean you have to forget them. You can also move on while keeping in mind that they were part of your past."

Just like that, Cayenne finally let go of everything and fell asleep in exhaustion. All the sleepless nights were coming at her and now, she's finally giving herself the rest she needed.

Luiz came out of the room and smiled nervously at his brother-in-law. "Big bro, I have done my best and I'm pretty sure that she'd be fine. And if she ever asks where am I, please tell her that I went out to buy something. Don't let her find me." Luiz left immediately and holed up in his room.

"Why's that?" Stefan asked himself but he would only find the answer to this question later on.