She's My Sleeping Pill

"Why was she here, too? Am I going to see her wherever I go now?" Cayenne grumbled as the two of them walked on the school ground.

"It must be just a coincidence." Stefan muttered but even himself wasn't convinced with his words. He felt like fate was pulling Cayenne to meet that woman again and again.

Fifteen minutes of walking and they still didn't find a quiet place to talk but they enjoyed their short exploration in Trine Elite University. Knowing that she likes food a lot, Stefan led Cayenne to where the school cafeteria was. He bought her a drink and left like nothing under surprise look on the students' face.

"That was…that was Stefan, right?" One of the female students asked.

"Yeah. It's him."

"Do you know that I have this urge to pull his arm down and kiss him?"

"Of course. But his wife is with him. If you're not afraid of getting slapped or humiliated, go and give your imagination a try."

"No way."

Two students conversed and shared their lewd thoughts regarding Stefan but none of them have the guts to do it because he's now married and Cayenne was with him, too.

Other students were just taking pictures of them like they were celebrities and most of the boys were staring at Cayenne with hot eyes. 'Be envious. Be jealous. Because you can only look at her and do nothing.' Stefan thought to himself as he pulled Cayenne closer and kissed her cheek.

"What was that for?" she asked in confusion after he printed a kiss on her face.

"It's to tell everyone that you're mine."

Stefan thought that Cayenne would raise her eyebrow or glare at him but unexpectedly, she stood on her tip toes and did the same thing to him. "I'm showing them that you're mine, too."

Realizing how silly they've become, the two of them giggled together while leaving the school cafeteria. Since they couldn't find a quiet place to talk, they just talked while walking slowly on the ground.

"So, why were you crying earlier?"

Cayenne pouted and felt embarrassed to share her thoughts but then, they made a promise that they won't keep any secrets between them. She looked down on her toes and walked slowly beside him. "You know that girls are emotional creatures, right?"

"Uh huh."

"Well, there are times that I get so emotional for silly reasons. I tend to look back in my past and then evaluate the things I have now. I tend to compare people with those who claimed to be friends and see who's staying with me now or not. I just thought of random things and then, everything boiled down to you. I am just so grateful for having you in my life and I couldn't stop tearing up. It wasn't anything terrible."

Stefan smiled and pulled her hand to a halt. The two of them looked into each other's eyes and he reached out his hand to caress her face once again. "I'm grateful for having you in my life, too. I found the meaning of my life when I met you and I am so thankful that my mother didn't abort me and that my father still chose to raise me. I'm glad I survived all the obstacles I faced to meet you in this life time."

Some students were passing by them and they looked at the couple with envious gaze. Some were looking around to see if there were any cameras and if they were shooting a drama or a movie.

After clearing out her thoughts with him, they went to find the building where Luiz was taking his examination. Clarisse was sitting on the bench at the lobby of the examination room, silently looking at her phone strap that Luiz gave her.  And to Cayenne's surprise, she saw the woman sitting on a bench several meters from Clarisse.

Out of respect to the examinees, Cayenne didn't say anything to the woman. The woman did the same thing. They were both silent.

Stefan looked at the woman and then looked at his wife. "Wifey, do you know anything about your mother's family?"

Cayenne spun around and looked at her husband with mirth in her eyes. "Are you thinking what I'm thinking?"

"Well, it's a possibility too, but the decision still lies in you."

Clarisse had no idea what they were talking about but she didn't join their conversation and just sat there with them. "My mother was abandoned for many years. Since she didn't say anything to us about her family, it must be because she didn't want us to know about them; just like how she kept my father's whereabouts from me because she didn't want me to know anything about him. There's no point in looking for them now. And I don't have any intentions to do so. We're living peacefully and with our own family. I don't need them anymore."

"Why is it so easy for you to accept and adjust to my family but you can't do it for yourself?"

This question really stunned Cayenne. She didn't know why but she always found things hard to accept when it involves herself or anyone from her family. It must be because the pain was too great for her. Cayenne seemed lost like a confused child being asked by her teacher of the wrong things she has done but has no idea it was wrong.

"Let me ask you something." Cayenne raised her head once again and looked at him. "Have you completely forgiven your father and grandfather for what has happened to your mom?"

"No."

"It's the same thing with me. I cannot completely forgive the people who abandoned my mother, letting her live a miserable life."

"But why did you forgive your father?"

"I don't know. Maybe because I felt that he didn't really abandoned us. He was forced to do so but even so, he still looked for ways to help us and his wife was very kind despite knowing that she wouldn't win my father's love. He was there for us when we were in dire needs. He was still trying his best to become a father of me."

"And what if your mother's parents found you and your siblings?"

"They can come and they can go. I have no space for them to stay."