Samsara Online

Xie Feng forced a smile and couldn't help but feel warm in his heart when he heard the words of the woman in his arms.

In the past, as his girlfriend, Mu Wuying naturally knew and understood many things about Xie Feng. In fact, although there were perhaps few things she did not know about him, even for Xie Feng himself it would be difficult to identify what it was since in the past there were practically no secrets between the two of them.

Due to their time together, Mu Wuying was aware that although Xie Feng seemed casual and indifferent, in reality he had always had that curiosity and disturbance in his heart, constantly pricking him like a thorn in his flesh; why had he been abandoned? Wasn't it too cruel to throw a child into the streets? Worse yet, a child who had lost his memory and was also wounded... How cruel could his parents be to do such a thing?

Xie Feng could clearly remember the day 1 when he opened his eyes for the first time at the age of ten... For him, even if he was already a ten-year-old boy, that was day 1 because his memory was as blank as that of a newborn baby.

The white ceiling of a hospital, the smell of disinfectant characteristic of hospitals, the sound of footsteps and voices coming from the corridor and other rooms, the white sheets hugging his seemingly intact body, and the faint rays of sunlight coming through the window. It was all fresh in his memory.

However, what was most firmly etched in his memory at the time was the piercing pain he felt. The simple act of breathing, the simple act of living hurt, hurt so much that just remembering it made him secretly shudder.

It was not physical pain and it was hard to describe, but if someone were to ask Xie Feng how he felt, he would answer that at that moment it seemed as if his existence, his being, his whole soul, was being shattered into pieces like a glass window.

The heart wrenching pain made him cry from the moment he woke up until he fell asleep from exhaustion before waking up again due to the pain before falling asleep again. The process repeated itself and the doctors had no choice but to keep him sedated and asleep most of the time.

About a month or two later, he was finally diagnosed and discharged. Fortunately the hospital did not give any problems nor did they ask for anything for the medical expenses and services rendered... No, rather than saying that the hospital did not give any problems, it would be more correct to say that they had no one to charge since he did not even remember his own name.

In the end, because he had no family, the government sent him to the district orphanage. It was there that he met Shen Xinya as a few months after he joined, she also showed up at the orphanage. The two hit it off right away since, coincidence or not, they were both like two blank canvases because she too had lost all her memories. 

In fact, he didn't even know if he was ten years old at the time or not, just as he didn't know if he was currently twenty years old, older, or maybe younger... It was just an approximation made by the orphanage and he was given a date of birth.

It was precisely because of all this that Xie Feng always wanted to know his parents. Not out of love for them, but because he wanted to ask them face to face how could they be so irresponsible to do something like that to a child?

Mu Wuying was well aware of that thorn in his heart and from a certain point of view she was even more aware than he was. Therefore, she had not mentioned anything until today.

"When I was still a little girl, my family was always strict and raised me with the highest standards in the world." Mu Wuying began to narrate her own story slowly while resting her head on his chest. "The early years were somewhat lonely as except for my cousin Wu Yin, I didn't know any other kids similar in age to me."

Xie Feng caressed her hair and listened attentively for fear of missing something important.

"When I reached the age of 15, the Five Big Families gathered just like they did every year. For the first time, my mother took me to such an important meeting because in the future the Mu Family would be led by me and I had to meet the other future leaders of the country." 

Arriving here, Mu Wuying paused and opened her closed eyes to look at him before continuing in a somewhat nostalgic tone, "It was back then that I met Nangong Lei, Yao Zenyu, Yang Tian, and Gu Qianxue... The next time I met them again was a year or two later during Yao Zenyu's birthday party where we all met again, but this time there were more children present... Nangong Lei's younger brother, Nangong Chen. Yang Tian's cousin, Yang Li'er... And Yao Zenyu's two siblings."

"What?" Xie Feng interrupted her in shock and repeated with wide eyes, "Yao Zenyu's two siblings? Aren't you committing a mistake here?"

Xie Feng was 100% sure that the two juniors of the Yao Family were Yao Zenyu and Yao Mei, with her being his only sister. There could definitely be no mistake as he had investigated this family in the past several times as they were suspects of Xie Yao's parents' death.

Mu Wuying gently put a finger over his mouth to tell him to let her continue, and continued narrating the past: "My mother's intention when she took me to that meeting was to let me meet outstanding young people since I was the only one in my whole family who for some strange reason could not use her powers even though I could feel them inside me. However, nothing changed... Until that birthday night, that is."

At the end she couldn't help but giggle like a little girl before continuing, "The first time I appeared, Nangong Chen seemed to be on the verge of drooling just like many other youngsters. But my attention had been focused on Yao Zenyu's little brother... Although it might sound funny since while I was 16 he was only about 13 or 14 years old."

"That kid was named Yao Feng and the first time I saw him I knew right away that my life was to be spent together with him, who was five years younger than me." Mu Wuying looked at Xie Feng's expression, but seeing that he didn't seem upset but incredibly surprised by what he was hearing, she continued, "My heart was beating wildly like never before! Excitement was coursing through my veins and as my mother said afterwards, my face had the most dazzling smile she had ever seen."

"Without hesitation, I approached the kid named Yao Feng who was sitting in a corner with a somewhat blank stare as he chatted with little Yao Mei who was only four years old at the time. That night I completely ignored everyone, including my own mother, and focused entirely on the boy I was sure would be my future husband." Mu Wuying paused and a complex look glittered in her eyes before continuing.

"Little did I know that a few months later, that boy would have a fatal accident on the outskirts of Beijing and I would never see him again."