Novel Full Chapter 4612
Chapter 4612: Zui Qingcheng (13)
Translator: 549690339
Chu bingxuan felt as if a knife was stabbing into his heart.
This kind of heart-wrenching pain was almost unbearable for him.
He knew that the only reason he was in so much pain now was because he had treated Xin LAN too badly back then. He had been too cold and emotionless.
He couldn’t blame anyone else, and he could only blame himself for being obedient.
However, no matter how regretful he was, no matter how much pain he was in, he would never let Xin LAN belong to someone else in the future.
The thought of her being with someone else in the future and his child calling someone else ‘father’ was unbearable to him. He felt like he was going to go crazy.
He would not allow another man to hold her.
She was his. She was his.
Chu bingxuan was in so much pain that her eyes became even more bloodshot.”I love you very much. I really love you. You have to believe me.”
As he spoke, Chu bingxuan placed Xia Xin Lan’s hand on his chest, letting her feel his heart beat, his fear, and his worry.
Xia Xin LAN looked at Chu bingxuan in this state and felt bad.
She didn’t break free from Chu bingxuan’s grip and let him hold on to her. She sighed.”Chu bingxuan, if you had treated me this well from the start, I wouldn’t have left you no matter what you said. I already liked you back then, so if you could be a little gentler to me, it wouldn’t have been too good.
Even if you treat me as one-tenth of how you treat Lin ruodie, I might still be completely devoted to you.
But you treated me like that, said those words to me, and were so heartless. Your girlfriend even used your kindness to mock and provoke me … All of these, I …”
Hearing Xia Xin Lan’s words, Chu bingxuan’s heart broke into pieces.
Sure enough, it was all his fault. He was too heartless back then. He didn’t expect that his heart had already fallen for her.
At that time, she often appeared in his line of sight and he would find it annoying. However, after she left, he realized that he had long been used to it and had already fallen in love with her.
But after he understood, he couldn’t find her anywhere in the world.
He had endured the longing and suffering in his heart for a long time. Every time he was about to fall asleep, she would always enter his dreams.
He would dream of how cold he was to her, dream of her turning around and walking away, never to turn back again.
Those were all secrets he had kept in his heart and he had not told anyone.
At that time, he didn’t realize how painful his words were, but now he realized that some of them were really hurtful.
Even Xin Lan’s calm narration of these facts made him feel as if his heart was being stabbed by a knife.
He finally understood that some hurtful words could not be said casually.
Xia Xin LAN continued,”if you had treated me even a little better, we wouldn’t have ended up like this. Now, I can see that you’re treating me well. However, I can’t help but compare and think about it. So, give me some time. Let me slowly forget about all those things. Let me forget about you and Lin ruodie in the past.”
“Xin LAN, as long as you give me a chance to pursue you, let me accompany you. It’s fine if you don’t agree now. I will accompany you and wait for you.”
Chu bingxuan was very serious when he said this.
As long as Xia Xin LAN didn’t really reject him, he would still have a chance. He would treat her very well and let her forget the past.
In fact, the knot in Xia Xin Lan’s heart was still Lin ruodie.
However, Chu bingxuan had already sent people to investigate. She just had to wait for the results.
“Then I’ll go back to the dormitory first. You go back too!”
Chu bingxuan’s eyes were filled with reluctance. What could he do? he couldn’t take it anymore.
As he watched Xia Xin LAN leave his sight step by step, he felt as if a part of his heart had been emptied.