I Love You

(Akane's PoV)

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The rational part of my brain, that small, cynical voice that had somehow kept me alive through high school, was screaming at me to stop.

'Hoshiko is on the couch. The door is just ajar. She's literally fifteen feet away...' I thought, but none of it mattered.

The second Shin kissed me again, slow and deep, every single thought in my head burned away.

My hand was already caressing Shin's length gently, just as he always liked it.

I should've stopped, but I didn't.

Instead, my fingers curled against his cock, tracing the firm line of the tip. 

Shin sucked in a sharp breath against my mouth. His whole body went tense above me, while his thing twitched like it had been electrocuted.

"Akane..." he breathed, his voice rough and low enough to send heat crawling over my skin. "Wait... she's right out there. She'll—"

"I don't care," I whispered against his lips. "Just... don't be loud," I added, even though I was usually the one who screamed.

A helpless little smile appeared on his face in the dim amber light coming through the doorway.

He didn't argue. He never really could when I looked at him like this.

Then, Shin shifted over me carefully, almost painfully slowly. There was none of the clumsy urgency we'd had before, none of that frantic need to get closer as fast as possible.

He settled between my thighs and held himself above me on his forearms, looking down at me like the world outside had just disappeared. The messy bedroom, the cold outside, Hoshiko in the next room... all of it didn't exist anymore.

For him, there was only me.

After a few instants, he lowered his head and kissed along my jaw. Soft... lingering... perfect. 

I couldn't help but put my hands on his jawline, and tilting my head to the side, exposing more of the most vulnerable part of me.

Shin kept kissing me softly until he moved lower.

The moment his lips found that spot beneath my ear, my back lifted from the mattress before I could stop myself. A gasp escaped me. A very loud one.

I immediately buried my face against his shoulder, holding him tightly against me, swallowing the rest against the warm cotton of his shirt while he kept kissing. His hand had also started teasing my nipples, his fingers closing against my left tit while his index was gently touching the tip.

"S-Shin... Ah, God~" I whimpered, pulling him closer.

He gave a quiet chuckle, his breath warm against my collarbone.

His hands then moved up my sides as he kept kissing me, fingers catching the hem of my oversized shirt and slowly pulling it over my ribs. A second later, I helped him remove my bra. Everything disappeared somewhere onto the floor.

Then, Shin also removed his shirt, and our bare chests touched.

The warmth of him hit me all at once, sending a shiver through my entire body.

Something about the way he touched me tonight felt different. Almost sacred, in some ways.

Tonight was quiet, tender, and somehow that frightened me more, because there was nowhere to hide inside tenderness.

No sarcasm. No attitude. No tough-girl bullshit. Just me. The real Akane that comes out only when she's with her beloved.

Shin reached beside us, searching blindly through the twisted sheets until his right hand found mine.

He threaded his fingers between mine and pressed our joined hands into the mattress beside my head.

His palm was warm and steady.

"I want you, Akane..." He whispered, his free hand gently caressing my cheek. 

I smiled while my heartbeat rose even more, my face leaning into his touch. "Me too, Shin. More than you could ever imagine."

And then, Shin gently took off the rest of my clothes, and he undressed totally too. 

His cock was literally bulging, and I couldn't help but stare at it. 

'I always wonder how this thing actually fits inside me...'

I then moved my gaze to him and spread my legs even more, opening my arms to him.

"Come, Shin. Don't make me wait." I smiled.

My eyes stayed locked on his, even though my vision had started to blur with emotions I couldn't sort out fast enough.

"I'm coming, Akane," He whispered. "You're beautiful."

My heart skipped a beat, and a little tear fell without my consent.

"Be gentle tonight, please..." I said.

"Leave it to me, Akane." He replied, his left hand intertwining with mine, holding it tightly.

Then, Shin moved in, slowly. 

"Aaaah—" I squeezed his hand.

The sound that caught in my throat barely had time to escape before his mouth covered mine.

Heat rushed through me so suddenly that for a second I forgot how to breathe.

His hand tightened around mine just enough to remind me he was there.

Once his cock was fully inside of me, Shin stopped for an instant. 

"Are you okay, Akane? Does it hurt?" He asked, kissing my cheek.

"No... it doesn't hurt... It's just—" I was panting. "You're too big... It actually feels amazing..." I added.

He chuckled, kissing me again. "Should I move?" 

I squeezed his hand again. "Yeah, please... let me feel you..."

And then, Shin started moving. 

Every movement was slow, deliberate, almost agonizing. He watched me constantly, reading every tiny reaction.

Whenever my breath caught too sharply, he stopped, and then kissed my forehead, my eyelids, the bridge of my nose... and even waited...

Only when I relaxed beneath him did he continue. 

"Nnhgg...! S-Shin...! Oh God! Ah, ah, ah~" I moaned, pulling him even closer against me. "I'm—Ah— f-feeling much better now... Ah—! God! It feels so~ ah~, amazing!"

My entire body was more sensitive than usual tonight, and I couldn't explain why. It felt way better than the other times.

I had spent most of my life believing love always came with a price.

With my father, love meant obedience bought through fear.

With everyone else, it meant performing well enough that nobody would get close to me.

But Shin never asked me to perform.

Here, beneath the warmth of his body, with his fingers locked through mine, I wasn't the untouchable lone wolf or the broken girl.

I wasn't my father's daughter. I wasn't the girl carrying poisoned blood and pretending it didn't hurt.

I was just... Akane. Maybe the real Akane.

And somehow, that was the most beautiful feeling I had ever experienced. Being myself without masks. 

My free arm wrapped around his neck. My fingers slid into his dark, messy hair and pulled him closer until his forehead rested against mine.

"S-Shin...! Nngh! Ah, Ah!" His cock kept moving inside me, reaching hidden spots that sent me to the other world. 

My back was arched against him while our breaths mixed in the cool bedroom air.

I even moved with him, matching his rhythm, my thoughts dissolving into fragments.

The warmth of his skin... His heartbeat pounding against my chest... The happiness I was feeling...

"Shin..." His name broke out of me as everything inside me tightened too quickly, too intensely, tears stinging unexpectedly at the corners of my eyes. "I'm about to come...! Ah, God!!" 

"I've got you," he whispered. His voice was strained now too. "I'm also..." 

His fingers squeezed mine harder. "I'm right here, Akane."

That was what broke me.

The tension inside me snapped.

"Shin, Ah God! Yes!! Ah, Ah, Nnggh!" My hips moved against him, feeling the intense orgasm arriving. "Shin, I'm coming!" I exclaimed, my lower body against him.

"Akane, I'm coming too!" Shin exclaimed, stopping.

My whole body shook beneath him, and I buried my face against his shoulder before another sound could escape.

My teeth caught lightly against his skin as the sensation rolled through me in long, trembling waves.

Shin muffled a groan beside my ear, holding me even tighter as he came inside me.

I felt every single instant of him releasing his seed inside me. It was hot, and I loved the sensation. His cock was twitching against my walls.

For a while, neither of us moved.

We just stayed there in the dark, breathing like we'd run miles, clinging to each other while the room slowly became a room again.

Minutes passed, and eventually Shin shifted onto his side, careful not to crush me, and wrapped one arm around my waist.

I curled into him without thinking, and my cheek found his chest.

His heartbeat was still chaotic beneath my ear, but little by little it began to slow down. That had become one of my favorite sounds.

Then, I pulled the duvet over both of us, and the cold disappeared beneath it.

Exhaustion settled over me almost immediately, heavy and sweet, but my head felt strangely light.

I tilted my head and looked at Shin. His eyes were half closed, but there was a stupid little sleepy smile at the corner of his mouth.

God. He was adorable. Way too much.

I lifted my hand and traced the edge of his jaw with my fingertips, pausing at the cool silver hoop in his earlobe.

"Shin," I called him.

"Yeah?" He didn't open his eyes, but his hand moved lazily along my hip beneath the blanket.

"I love you," I said without hesitation.

Shin's eyes opened.

In the faint amber light, his expression softened so much that my throat tightened again.

He then leaned down and kissed me.

"I was planning to wait a little longer to say it, but... I love you too, Akane," he murmured against my lips. "More than anything."

My heart skipped two beats this time, my eyes widening. I couldn't believe my ears. 

So I gently pushed him away enough to look at his face.

"S-Shin...? What did you just...?" I asked, my heart beating like crazy. 

"I love you, Akane. I said it." Shin said, his thumb now rubbing my cheek. "I'm sorry... I couldn't—"

"Say it again, Shin," I commanded. "Please."

"I love you, Akane." He smiled. 

"Again." 

"I love you." He repeated, my vision blurring.

And then, I couldn't hold back anymore. 

I started crying without even realizing it, my body shaking.

"You fucking absolutely unfair idiot." I kissed him and then pulled away.

I didn't want him to see the mess I was going to become, so I tucked my face into the hollow of his neck and kept crying there, in my safe place.

Shin kept holding me while caressing my head. We stayed like this for a while until I had finally calmed down.

Then, when the tears had finally stopped, I pulled away from him, smiling warmly. "You have no idea about how much I wanted you to say these three words, Shin." 

"I'm sorry... It's just—" 

I shut his mouth with my fingers. "You were about to say something stupid, so I stopped you," I said. "Don't say anything else, Shin. Just let me sleep like the happiest girl in the world now, okay? Tomorrow, you can say dumb things again." I said, giving him a goodnight kiss.

He chuckled. "Okay... I won't talk, then." 

"Let's sleep now, shall we?" I said.

"Yeah... Goodnight, Akane. I love you." He said.

I silently gasped. "Stop giving me heart attacks, Shin..." I sighed, smiling. "Goodnight, Dumbhead." 

And we closed our eyes.

For once, I was ready to let myself sleep, but something moved near the doorway.

It was barely anything. Just a shift in the darkness.

My eyes opened.

The bedroom door was still cracked a few inches, exactly as I'd left it earlier. A thin stripe of yellow hallway light cut across the wooden floor.

And standing right at the edge of it was a silhouette.

I stopped breathing.

'Hoshiko...'

She was pressed against the wall outside the bedroom, clutching the oversized shirt I'd lent her. Her dark fringe was a mess, her eyes enormous.

She was staring directly at the bed.

Even from across the room, I could see the furious red spreading across her cheeks and down her neck.

One hand was pressed flat against her chest, while the other one was... lower. She looked like she'd forgotten how lungs worked.

Then, our eyes met through the gap, and for one second, neither of us moved.

Maybe I should have done something, but I was too tired, too warm, and too completely satisfied to summon the energy required for embarrassment.

So I just stared at her. Then the corner of my mouth lifted.

And in that moment, Hoshiko's face changed instantly.

Her eyes somehow got even wider.

She slapped a hand over her mouth, spun around on bare feet, and vanished without making a sound, like a stray cat caught stealing food off the kitchen counter.

A breathless laugh escaped me. Unbelievable.

She'd actually stayed awake through all of that and... considering how she is, she had probably seen everything.

Beside me, Shin stirred.

He tugged the duvet higher over my back and rested his chin on top of my head.

"What is it?" he mumbled.

"Nothing, Shin. Don't worry about it." I closed my eyes again and wrapped both arms around his waist, my head on his chest. "Go to sleep."

"Goodnight, Akane..."

"Goodnight, Shin."

His arms tightened around me while his heartbeat filled my ear.

And then, the darkness around me didn't feel like something waiting to swallow me.

It felt like home.

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Author's note: I've also written a threesome version for this scene. Idk if I should publish it or not —as a plus/alternate universe. Let me know in the comments.💀