Chapter 149 Embrace The Darkness
With every step Raith took, he switched off the flame himself and those memories came upon him bringing with them pain and suffering that lasted for a while.
fuuu
The flame didn’t go off
fuuu fuuuu
The flame didn’t go off still.
He turned around and looked forward, “What is this?” His eyes were so gloomy and tired as if he had not slept and seen the goodness of any day for years. In fact, his eyes had lost the life in them and those beautiful heterochromia eyes had darkened.
He looked like he was a living dead.
He didn’t know how much time had passed, and he had lost count of how many memories he confronted last and deleted. The only memory he wanted to hold onto was gone, if that memory could die out like that he saw no reason to hold on to the rest.
And one thing the journey down the lane of his memories did for him was make him realize that no matter how detached he thought he was, he never truly was. He wanted to get strong for them to see that he was better– the abyss went as far as creating a world where everything was right.
His father was without his nasty behavior, his brother was lovely and his mother was alive.
And he was offered the chance to forever live in this dream.
He embraced it, he loved it and he lived day in and day out with his happy family, it was everything he wanted and he had it there with him in an illusion.
However, something just kept bothering him, he couldn’t stop looking back, as if one was looking out the window of reality to see the greater reality that exists.
It was hard to forget how far he has come. Volmak, Mok Jae-Hwa… they are in trouble.
It kept bothering him with every fleeting second. And he just couldn’t let go– thus bringing him back to the dark room.
And finally, the last one sent him to Volmak and Mok Jae-Hwa’s party where he sacrificed all the goodness he wished for. He was taken out of the Asura’s prison and given a chance to save them, it was Volmak’s first.
Faced with a demon lord, he could do nothing no matter how many times he tried and he watched Volmak and Absalom die, right before his eyes. With all he had, he could do nothing.
Like that was not enough, he watched Mok Jae-Hwa and his part get slaughtered by the red elves as they tried to escape and ran trying to save them, the best he could do was die and come back to reality.
Please make it stop.
I don’t want to lose them.
They don’t deserve to die.
Make it stop.
No matter how much Raith begged, nothing stopped, it was endless killing over and over again, he was given the same chance over and over again and couldn’t do anything.
With several voices of darkness, his mother, father, brother, butler, Mel, Amber Rose, Volmak, Min-ho, and Thard-Harl, all of them guiding him through the suffering of watching his comrades die over and over again to the place of nothingness, the place where all that exists for him his void, saying:
“They are not your friends, in this world there are no friends for you. You do not deserve a friend. You are the entity of darkness, you have a weight to carry, such is your fate, embrace the darkness within you” His mother’s voice echoed eerily.
“Whether they die or they live is not our concern, we have a greater purpose to serve, morality is for the weak, in this world, it is kill or be killed, the only way to survive is to embrace the darkness within you. Embrace it and you will find the strength to destroy all those who stand in your way.” Volmak’s voice resounded in his voice the same way as if it was being pulled away by a gale of ghostly wind.
“Justice, righteousness, those are the language of fools who are weak and hold onto false hope and empty promises. The only truth is power and the only path to power is darkness.” His father’s voice echoed.
“The world is full of foolish weaklings, who believe in hope and optimism. But those are just illusions. The only reality is pain and suffering. Bring the world to its knees, incite the fear of darkness into all hearts.”
“This is a world where only the strong will survive, choose strength, choose darkness. Come…” The last voice was Thard-Harl’s and it visualized to form his image almost fading with the wind, stretching out his hands.
At this point, Raith’s lifeless eyes were filled with conviction, dark and gloomy, and without life yes but with a faint glow of purpose.
If he truly wanted to obtain anything in this life then he had to embrace the darkness in him. He had to become one with it, those are the words the abyss drove deep into his consciousness and Raith was beginning to accept it.
It was a necessary format, that for Raith to be able to truly host the abyss, and become its vessel, he had to get rid of all the light that existed in him.
That was the only possible way.
And the moment Raith touched Thard-Harl’s hand, it was all done, the attachments were severed, the unnecessary bonds were gone and all he could see was the darkness of a soul, darker than even black.
That brought him back to the room which surprised him because the sceneries were so real that he thought they had died for real. But the thought of them still being alive did not bring relief to him like before. It was easy, with his consent all his emotions were blackened out.
He found it easier to hate than to love. .
To get angry than to smile.
To kill than to save.
He didn’t know how but it came so easy to him.
He tried blowing the candle flame off over and over again but it did not go off.
[CONGRATULATIONS, YOU HAVE PASSED THE THIRD TRIAL OF DEATH]
[YOU HAVE EMBRACED THE DARKNESS IN YOU]
[YOU HAVE REACHED LEVEL 100]
[UPGRADING CLASS AND SUBCLASS INFORMATION]
[UNSEALING ERROR CODE G?=?1]
[YOU HAVE GAINED A NEW TITLE: RULER OF GREED]
[YOU HAVE GAINED A NEW SKILL]
[YOU HAVE GAINED A STATUS AUTHORITY(G?=?1)]
[DUE TO G?=?1 YOU CAN OVERRIDE SYSTEM TO A CERTAIN EXTENT]
[BODY EVOLUTION REQUIRED]
[YOU WILL GO TO SLEEP]