Novel Full 191 Loving and leaving
When Song Xueyun and Han Zixin were leaving, someone from the opposite house saw two teenagers driving the car. It was no one else but Lu Xuan.
Lu Xuan’s face was carrying a dark look when he saw a crying Song Xueyun leaving Han Zixin’s house. If the Han house was not situated a little away from his house, he would have beaten that Han brat right there. But when he reached their gates, Song Xueyun drove away.
“Dammit, ” Lu Xuan cursed. He called his bodyguard to bring the car and instructed him to follow the car.
On the other hand, When Song Xueyun and Han Zixin entered the airport, looking for Han Nanxian, they didn’t find anyone. However, they didn’t get disheartened and began looking for him all over the place.
“Han Nanxian!” Song Xueyun shouted his name.
“Han Nanxian!”
She shouted once again. She would not leave without taking him with her back.
Seeing that only she was calling for Han Nanxian, she glanced at Han Zixin and said, “Are you going to let your brother leave like this Zixin? He loves you more than anyone else, even more than him.” Her knees weakened and her voice turned hoarse, “Can you please keep aside your past for a moment and stop him from leaving his family? Who will look after him there? How will I…. Please!”.
Han Zixin opened his mouth to call for him but no voice came out of his throat. It was as if he was incapable of calling out that name.
He tried once again but failed.
This time, he closed his eyes and recalled all the moments with his eldest brother that he still keep as a treasure in his memories and then called for his name.
“Gege!”
Han Nanxian was standing in a line wearing a black jacket and a black baseball cap when he heard a familiar voice. He brushed it off thinking that he was dreaming of his younger brother once again. Maybe, he was homesick even before leaving.
“Gege!”
However, he heard the same voice again. Again, he brushed it off as an illusion that was stopping him from leaving.
“Gege!”
This time, Han Nanxian turned around only to find his younger brother shouting in the lobby of the airport among hundreds of people.
“Han?” He whispered in a sweet shock.
As if Han Zixin could hear the whisper, he turned his eyes to find his brother in the crowd of people. He ran towards Han Nanxian and hugged him. The intensity of the hug pushed Han Nanxian back.
Han Nanxian felt hot tears on his shoulder, the place where his brother had put his head. He rubbed his head lovingly and said, “Take care of yourself when I’m not here. Take care of Yeye. Say my goodbye to that little Fella. If you ever need me, I’m just a call away. Stay away from my father, I asked him to go for therapy but he thinks I’m losing my head when it’s clearly not me.”
Han Zixin left out a muffled sob.
“Han, I love you the most in the world. I will always be with you, no matter where I am, ” Han Nanxian said. He broke the hug and put his hands on his brother’s cheeks. “We are brothers. I refuse to accept anything else. You can stop talking to me. Curse me. Or even beat me. But we will always be brothers, not because we share the same blood or DNA but because of our hearts. We are brothers until this universe exists. Even if I die, we will still be brothers. M”
He lovingly wiped his brother’s tears and whispered, “Take care of Yunyun. She is going to lose her best friend. Be a friend to her.”
Han Zixin didn’t say anything and took several steps back when they announced the flight.
“I had to leave, ” Han Nanxian said, staring at his brother’s face.
Han Zixin nodded his head as if understanding.
“You are going to let him leave?” Song Xueyun boomed as she pushed Han Zixin’s body aside. “You crazy boy! Stop him! Stop him! Stop Nanxian!”
As she was about to stop Han Nanxian, Han Zixin held her hand and shook her head, making her tears fall even harder, “Let him go. It’s necessary for him or we will lose him.”
Hearing these words, Song Xueyun broke down into sobs. How could he say this? Why were all of them being so selfish?
She felt someone hugging her cold body the next moment.
“Yunyun, stop making it difficult for me, “Han Nanxian said as he hugged her tightly one last time. “Take care.”
“You said I’m your best friend. Your stupid soul mate!” She hiccuped while sobbing.
“You are, ” Han Nanxian smiled painfully. “You are everything to me. I am going to miss you a lot. Thank you for coming. I was cowardly enough to leave without saying goodbye. Thank you for everything.”
“Don’t go, please, ” Song Xueyun begged him.
They saw him leaving before their eyes, waving them goodbye. He didn’t turn around to look at them again. They saw him going far and far away from them. When his figure wasn’t visible anymore, they turned back to walk home alone.
We all love and sometimes we had to leave. It’s never easy to love and then leave. It was difficult for Han Nanxian too, just like another person. But he turned one last time after mustering up the last shred of courage that he was left with to look at the face of his first love to fix her last image in his heart. He ran back, ignoring the screams of the security. He wanted to look at her one last time.
A bitter smile marred his face and a tear slipped down his eye when he saw Lu Xuan barging through the airport door and Song Xueyun running to cry against his chest.
Maybe, she was always meant to be someone else.
And how good it was that she didn’t love an ill person who could die anytime?
If it was good then why did his heart feel as if it was ripping apart in his chest? Why was it even more painful than cancer he has fought and defeated?
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A/N: This chapter made me tear up. Maybe, it’s because Han Nanxian has always been a character dear to my heart. No one understands him more than I do. I hope you will live your life the way you want, Nanxian.