Chapter 313: Now, Being There…

[Erika]

Fearea dorm’s first-floor floor, in the waiting room of the maids at the back we are.

Raide’s lovers Aurora, Win, Rain, Porte, Rinelle, and I were seated at the table.

In this room other lover candidates Folia, maid Melaine, standing around the table with sad faces.

Not only the three. If looking over everyone’s faces with only eyes, each had sad faces.

Why making such faces is because of the content Sharle had been reading aloud until now.

The contact method used only by Cador Bell. Sharle-san reading out Raide’s past transmitted from the note paper, and knowing his past everyone is making sad faces.

This talk is also reaching the other lovers who have the note paper.

Probably Micon and Scon who went home with Nimi to help Rude Tavern are hearing too.

Before I left the library I was called by Merii-san and asked to lend the note paper.

Why is because Raide and Relia-san and Tia-san, and Karinal-san’s figures being beside I guessed.

I had been told they were investigating Raide’s past from before, and there was also advising "How about asking him?"

"Raide-san’s expression is understood as if in hand."

At the words I let out as if murmuring everyone smiled a little with troubled faces.

Because it is him, he is meaning to smile so as not to make the ones he told the talk worry.

Probably he himself has not noticed, but when smiled at with a hard yet sad face, from this side there is quite a coming thing.

Now. With this Relia-san and the others got what they wanted to know, but what do they mean to do knowing.

Curiosity of wanting to know about the liked partner is nothing odd so I did not say things like cautioning Relia-san and the others’ movements.

If asked do we want to know too? We would answer we want to know.

But even knowing, from us who have sworn in our hearts to support him and stay beside, we did not have that much interest in his past.

If he is making a hard face we quietly lean beside, and if he seems about to spit something out we quietly listen to the talk.

I feel that is a special privilege given to us who are lovers, and if moving too far cautioning is also our privilege I think.

But if not lovers Relia and the others hear Raide’s past from him the talk is different. The answer is forcibly narrowed to two choices.

No. It ends up looking objectively narrowed.

"Now... if you leave that place you will not be able to return beside him?"

I crossed my arms under the chest and ended up murmuring. Everyone who guessed who I said it to quietly nodded.

That is so. Now is the boundary.

The boundary line we made ourselves.

Lean beside him and support... or cannot bear and leave.

If saying an honest talk, if leaving with this much hardness they cannot keep staying beside him.

That is something only we who were helped in various ways and became lovers can say.

With an ordinary person’s sense they would worry and not help it, the heart would get tired, and leave him.

But including that is the man Raide.

For the students and lovers he forces, and sometimes takes actions not looking at his own life. We fell for him.

Even falling for that there, which mouth can say do not do things that make us worry?

What we can do is support him and lean beside, not crush his good places.

To begin with rather than causing us worry, his actions of loving us more I think are just balanced for us.

As friends of Relia and the others, as ones loving the same man, if let say...

"Please lean. Now, being there... the ones who can support him are you..."

I murmured, smiled in a troubled way, and looked over everyone.

Everyone also smiled a similar smile to me and nodded. I thought not to hear more and turned my face to Sharle-san.

Sharle-san seemed to have guessed from my expression, put the paper in the note paper, and quietly closed it.

[Raide]

When I dropped the gaze turned to the ceiling Karinal was crying with a frustrated expression.

I tried to stand with a troubled face and was stopped by Merii with one hand. I turned my face to Merii. She was tilting her head still smiling a troubled smile.

Looking at Merii with a wondering face she quietly approached beside Karinal and started pushing her body.

Then sat Karinal beside me. Merii nodded small and waited behind me. At that look I smiled wryly.

Closing her mouth so as not to put out a voice, biting her teeth, shaking her body, puru puru, and crying, poro poro, Karinal.

While gently stroking her head I turned my face to Relia and Tia, and said to them still lowering their faces while smiling wryly.

Relia and Tia looking hard while swimming their eyes a little as if searching for words. I had roughly guessed the reason they wanted to know my past.

"The scars on my body. Were you still caring?"

"...!"

The two together raised their faces with a baf and made hard expressions. I let out a small breath and smiled at them.

On both sides of my back large scars remain other than when annihilated. These are scars made when rescuing Relia and Tia.

The two caring about my scars I knew from hearing from the captain who nursed the two.

But I thought time passed and they forgot... apparently not.

"Probably you thought the 382nd Infantry Unit was a special unit that received the rescue mission of Relia and Tia? In a sense it was a special unit, but not a unit that could receive missions from the country. Really ’by chance’ I cared and peeked, and Relia and Tia were caught."

"With that ’by chance’ Raide-sama..."

"Ended up bearing scars that do not disappear..."

"Not that they do not disappear. I do not mean to erase them. The body’s scars I leave so as not to forget there is a limit with one’s own power. ...If the two care, shall I erase only those scars?"

At the words I asked Relia and Tia shook their heads sideways hard. Seeing that I smiled and said "Then this talk ends." The two nodded while making hard faces but faintly making smiles at the edge of their mouths.

After is Karinal crying on the right. She is gripping my right arm’s clothes with both hands, hashi, and still crying, poro poro.

After all the content was not to teach her who has not gone to the battlefield... but if saying misery Lord Elvin’s talk should be more miserable.

...No... it is him who likes his niece. He probably did not tell a miserable talk.

"Sorry..."

"Nn?"

"Without resolve... hearing the talk... making a hard face, sorry."

"That kind of thing... putting it on the face is quite troublesome. Is that so... so the three were making that face."

Nothing. Looking at the face of the talking me the three were just making hard reactions.

I sighed, rubbed the back of my neck with my left hand, then covered my face, looked up at the ceiling, and sighed once more.

Not hard, and not sad... a feeling that cannot be expressed in words is overflowing.

Only I did not want the expression I am probably making now seen by the three.

Karinal seems leaning her body and sharing warmth with me. Merii is stroking my head with a gentle touch from behind.

Someone sat on the left. When I turned only my eyes Relia leaned like Karinal.

I noticed now, but unexpectedly my body seemed cold... the two’s body temperature feels good.

Being leaned on by princesses, even about myself I end up thinking an enviable guy, and a smile spills, fu.

True I might be making a hard face but...

"I can still smile so it is fine."

When I said as if murmuring Relia and Karinal pressed closer still as if answering my words.

...I can see a future of being called Handful by Hiero.

Even called Handful is fine so now I want to feel this warmth.

Thinking that for a while I was shared warmth by the two.