405 Lost Memories
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That night, as the two girls were already fast asleep in the bed, I walked outside my room looking for my dragon. I couldn’t find him anywhere, until I expanded my Supernatural Senses, quickly finding him atop the castle’s rooftop. I quickly flew there, passing through physical objects and finding him silently looking into the moon atop the skies. Tonight was a rare occasion where the clouds opened up a bit and they revealed the beauty of the moonlight.
“There you are!”
I flew to his side, sitting at his left side and resting my head over his shoulder.
“What’s up? Why are you here?”
“Maria… Ah, I was just relaxing here. I often like to sit in here and admire the moonlight, or the cold breeze… I am an old man, so I enjoy the most simplistic of things.” Sighed Lucifer.
“Huh… In a bit over a week, we’re going to the dwarven mountains, your previous home… A-Are you ready for it?” I wondered.
“Ah…”
Lucifer suddenly fell into silence for a bit.
“I guess you saw through it.”
“Yep, I know when you’re worried or concerned.”
“Hm, you indeed know me as much as my wife in that regard already.”
“Your wife…”
“Don’t worry, she’s long dead by now.”
“I see… I-I wasn’t getting jealous or something… I understand how precious your family is for you.”
Lucifer smiled gently, as he caressed my hair.
“You’re also part of my precious family.”
His simple words quickly made me blush a bit.
“I-Is that so…?”
“You’re beautiful below the moonlight.”
“Ah… S-Stop it with the cute words…”
“Your embarrassment is also adorable.”
“Ugh…!”
I couldn’t help it, so I began hitting his shoulders angrily.
“Hahah, okay, I’ll stop…”
Lucifer laughed so carefreely. I think this is the first time I saw him laugh this way. He’s often so serious all the time, it was really quite surprising.
“You don’t seem all that nervous…”
“Yeah, I am good at pretending I am okay. But indeed, I am very nervous. I know they might be gone already. But I can’t help but have this faint hope… this faint hope that they might be alive. Or that someone, one of them maybe, anybody at this point… that anybody of them could be alive.”
“I guess it is only natural to feel that way… Hope is the last thing we abandon. Even now, I am sure you can’t really let it go. I also… I am also wishing someone of your family could be alive. It would also make me happy.”
“R-Really?”
“Of course! Even if your wife was alive! I wouldn’t really mind it if she were alive and you loved her alongside me or something… It’s not as if I don’t have to lovers either.”
“Hm… You’re way too open minded. This world is filled with people that can’t accept things as they are most of the time… bloodshed, wars, and more, is brought due to these reasons…”
“Hm, I can tell… Though, only your wife! If you go around trying to find another girl, I’ll smack you!”
“Hahaha! Don’t worry, I am a very loyal man.”
Lucifer held my hand as he kissed my forehead.
“You’re lovelier than normal tonight…”
“I am just trying to appreciate the precious gift I have in front of me.”
“You…!”
I couldn’t help but feel even more embarrassed as he said all those things. I hit his chest and then accepted the embrace of his arms when I realized he was too tough for my hits to even damage him.
“You know? Back then I was… just lost. I had lost all the hopes I had in fact. I slept and slept, and each time I regained consciousness I merely wanted to continue sleeping. I wanted to simply disappear, thinking that the world of now wasn’t made for me anymore. It was just a thing of chance that the dungeon was born out of all the magical power my body exuded as it slowly decayed underground…” Lucifer said. “It was very odd for all things to come and align together perfectly for you to come back as a ghost, so you could meet me and… well, save me from the dungeon.”
“You think about that a lot, don’t you?” I asked while sighing.
“W-Well, a bit. I guess I can’t really stop thinking about things like those, I am sorry…” Lucifer seemed to apologize, but I quickly stopped him.
“There’s no need to apologize, I am just picking up a pattern. You like to think about that… but why so much?” I wondered.
“Like you, my memories are fragmented…” Lucifer admitted.
“Eh?”
“It is not something I wanted to tell you because I was afraid you would become worried… I didn’t wanted to worry you.” He sighed. “Although I remember various things, there is still a lot of other things I don’t remember. In fact, I still… I don’t remember the face of my family yet. I know I loved them… I know they were precious to me, but each time I try to remember their faces, I just can’t.”
“W-Why?” I asked.
“Probably due to my age. I’ve been a soul for hundreds of years after all, my soul was slowly dissipating already back then, if it wasn’t for you, I would had been gone in a few more months…” Lucifer said. “Part of my weakness when I was turned into an Undead was because my soul was very weakened. As someone that is a ghost, I am sure you understand how memories are tied to the soul, right? If a soul slowly dissipates away, memories might be lost… forever.”
“F-Forever?”
“Don’t worry about it. I have gotten over it already. I recall those things I told you about because that’s the moment I met you. Although it hasn’t been that much time, I am already beginning to appreciate every memory I make with you and everybody else.” Said Lucifer.
“S-So that’s how it is… Maybe if we go there and we find something, maybe your memories could come back?” I wondered.
Lucifer petted my head as he looked into the horizon.
“I hope so…”
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