Chapter 230 - Call Me Xiaofei From Now On (2)
Su Xiaofei thought that it was enough for her to be able to meet her father in this lifetime. She didn't dare to ask for more, because she was sure of how Qiao Fengying would react if he knew that the daughter he'd been looking for all his life was seated in front of him at the moment.
She also didn't want Yun Qingrong to feel worried about her, and think that she would choose her birth parents over her. Still, Su Xiaofei's reaction upon hearing Qiao Fengying's words almost made her nonexistent heart break into pieces.
A part of her wanted to wail like a child and tell her grievance to her father, who had been absent throughout her life. Su Xiaofei didn't want to admit it, but she somewhat envied Qiao Yuhan for being able to grow up with their father by his side.
She wanted a father figure in her life and since she didn't know she was adopted in her previous life, the closest person who could give this to her was her Uncle Fang. Still, regardless of her age, Su Xiaofei was curious of what it felt like to have a father doting on her.
"If Uncle doesn't mind me asking, how did you lose her?"
Su Xiaofei was curious about Qiao Fengying's thoughts regarding his missing daughter. She didn't know what to expect from Qiao Fengying as her father, but she truly despised knowing that Bai Qingyue was her mother.
"You see, Xiaofei. Uncle has a daughter even before I married your Auntie Shulan. I had her with my ex-girlfriend. We got into this nasty argument that I regret now. After that she gave birth to our daughter, and she hid her from me."
"So you've never even seen a glimpse of her?" Su Xiaofei tried to reign in the complex emotion that was simmering in her heart. She paid attention to Qiao Fengying's expression and noticed that his eyes were somewhat regretful.
"No, I didn't. It's been more than eighteen years since her birthday. You might think that I'm being silly, but I have this feeling that she's still alive somewhere." Qiao Fengying rarely talked about his missing daughter, even to his wife and son, because thinking about her only made him worry about her. However, none of these feelings resurfaced as he talked about her with Su Xiaofei.
"How could Uncle say it's silly? If that's what you feel, then maybe you are right. Others have no right to discredit what you feel at all."
The one who should feel silly was her. She shouldn't have doubted her real father's love for her. If Bai Qingyue wanted to get rid of her, seeing her as a threat to her thriving career, Qiao Fengying wanted nothing more than to see and hold his daughter.
However, would he be able to accept the kind of person his daughter had become? Su Xiaofei wondered. She even had to pretend in front of Yun Qingrong and hide her vicious heart. The last thing Su Xiaofei wanted was for Qiao Fengying to think that she was no better than Bai Qingyue once he found out the real face of his daughter.
"Does Xiao Han know about his sister?"
In her past life, the eighteen-year-old Qiao Yuhan was aware of her sister's existence.
"Yes. He knows about her and is eager to meet her too. Maybe it's one of the reasons why he got along with you and Miss Xi. Xiao Han wants to have siblings."
"I could see that, Uncle, but just like what I said earlier, he's like a brother I never had. Qian and I know how it feels being an only child with no siblings to rely on." Su Xiaofei was even surprised that she could be this patient towards Qiao Yuhan. She used to hate mingling with younger children as they tend to be loud and annoying at times. Qiao Yuhan was an exception.
Su Xiaofei didn't dare to say more, nor did she want the man to suspect that she was his missing daughter. If Bai Qingyue found out that Qiao Fengying was able to find her, she wasn't sure what that crazy woman would do. Su Xiaofei certainly didn't want her little brother's life to be put in a precarious situation just because of her.
Qiao Fengying gave her a nod and a silent thanks before returning the document he passed earlier to her.
When he first met this young woman, he had to give her a double take as he couldn't believe how striking her resemblance was to Bai Qingyue. His gut feeling kept telling him that she could be his daughter, but he didn't want to cause trouble in Su Xiaofei's life if she was indeed his daughter with Bai Qingyue.
"Xiaofei, do you think my daughter would come to hate me if she knew that I am her father?"
Su Xiaofei opened her mouth, only to realize that she had no words to say at all.
Did she hate Qiao Fengying? Not really.
Was she disappointed in him? Su Xiaofei had to pause at that.
When she found out from Lu Qingfeng in her previous life who her real parents were, she laughed at the absurdity of it. Bai Qingyue hated her down to the core, while Qiao Fengying was already dead at the time she learned the truth. If anything, she felt that life was too unfair for her and Qiao Fengying.
"Uncle, there are things that are far beyond our control, but if she knew how much you miss her and how desperately you're looking for her, I'm sure she would be moved by it. Didn't some people used to say that with a sincere heart, even a big mountain can be lifted."
Qiao Fengying raised a disbelieving brow.
"You… you think so?" He's been wondering for sometime now how his daughter would react if they meet in person.
"I believe so, Uncle.. I'm sure she would be thrilled to know that she has an adorable brother too."