Novel Full Chapter 136 - Losing Myself (2)
"If you aren't regretting what you've done, what's the problem then?" Lu Qingfeng continued to ask her. Even though they've known each other for a long time, there were times like this, when he couldn't understand what she was thinking.
"I'm just thinking… that maybe my hatred towards them is changing me. I don't want to live my life like this. Is it too much to ask if I want to lead a happy, fulfilling life with my Mama, you and Xi Qian? I'm still young, and yet I have to keep an eye on others in case they are scheming behind my back." She replied.
If she was reborned without Ye Mingyu and Mo Yuchen in her life, she would absolutely try to live her life to the fullest, without bothering with the schemes and the red flags that awaits her in the future.
Even now, as Chen Li was facing several lawsuits, Su Xiaofei could barely feel relieved that it wasn't her in Chen Li's place. She wouldn't have been able to avoid it if she was still the same person she was. She was lucky that she could anticipate possible scenarios and set up precautions along the way. Regardless of the turmoil her enemies suffered, Su Xiaofei was also aware that it would come with a price on her part. In the future, she would also have to face Ye Mingyu and Mo Yuchen in show business.
Beneath the glitz and glamor of showbiz, as it featured the brightest stars of the generation, there are countless nasty gossips and backstabbing schemes against those fighting to remain standing and relevant in the industry. This only meant that Su Xiaofei only had a few years to enjoy, before she would be subjected to the public eye again.
"Can't you do both? Keeping them away from your hair while enjoying your youth? It's not too late for you to do the things that you want." Lu Qingfeng told her.
"I know. I just hope I won't lose myself in deep hatred." She smiled before joining him, taking a seat across him.
"You were able to avoid calamity in Chen Li's case. Are you ready for what Ye Mingyu might do to you in the future?"
Su Xiaofei expected that Ye Mingyu wouldn't stay idle, doing nothing while her plans failed one after another because of her. Even now, Ye Mingyu might not even be aware that Housekeeper Chen would also blame her for what happened to Chen Li.
"Well, what else can I do? It depends on how she'll react." She sighed, lifting her head as she stretched her aching legs beneath the table that separated them. She finally felt her exhaustion catching up on her.
"Stay and join us for dinner." She told Lu Qingfeng as she noticed that the sky was now darkening.
"Okay." Lu Qingfeng would never decline her invitation. It was only when he was here that he was able to enjoy his meals, as he was always accompanied by Su Xiaofei.
It seemed that Lu Qingfeng wasn't the only one who would be joining them for dinner, as Uncle Fang was also around. The older man was helping Yun Qingrong and Aunty Liu in the kitchen as they prepared their meal tonight.
"Mom, Aunty, Xiao Feng will be joining us for dinner. What are you making?" Su Xiaofei asked as she found the three busy in the kitchen.
"Aunty Qing, do you need help?" Lu Qingfeng politely asked.
"Oh, no. There's no need for you to inconvenience yourself, Xiao Feng. You can go and wait with Feifei at the dining table." Yun Qingrong replied before taking a quick taste of the soup she'd been simmering for some time now.
Su Xiaofei had no choice but to drag Lu Qingfeng with her back to the dining table and waited impatiently as her stomach started growling from hunger.
"Why are you so eager to help them in the kitchen? It's not like you can cook at all." She asked Lu Qingfeng, who immediately scoffed at her words.
"Aren't you the one to talk, Xiaofei? In the future, when you get married, your husband would have to rely on others for a decent meal because you can't cook. You can't possibly serve him instant noodles whenever he comes home from a long day at work. Plus, you can't possibly convince Aunty Liu to live with you."
Su Xiaofei shot him a scathing glare. Lu Qingfeng was reminding her of the disaster she made in the kitchen when they were younger yet again. It was Yun Qingrong's birthday at that time and Su Xiaofei was twelve when she tried to bake a birthday cake for her mother, only to end up with a charred cake in the oven, leaving a lot of mess for their housekeepers to clean afterwards.
So what if she was a bad cook? It wasn't like she intended to burn down their house when it happened back then. As for her future as a wife, she didn't plan to stay at home, waiting for her husband's return! She would become a busy businesswoman like her mama! As for her husband, he would have no choice but to accept that he married a terrible cook.
"Arguing again?" Aunty Liu came in with the first dish.
"It's Xiao Feng's fault, Aunty." Su Xiaofei grumbled, kicking the young man's shin, but Lu Qingfeng avoided it just in time.
"Why is it my fault now? Weren't you the one who criticized my cooking skills first?" He countered, looking at the old woman as if Su Xiaofei was the one who wronged him this time.
Aunty Liu laughed and placed the dish on top of the table, before meeting Yun Qingrong midway, taking the platters that contained the fried chicken fillets, which were Su Xiaofei's favorite.
"Ohh, Mama, why are we having a feast? Are we celebrating something?" Su Xiaofei asked her mother, fully aware of the contents of the meeting Yun Qingrong and Fang Yi were having when she called earlier.. Bluemedia had just signed a major contract that could make or break the company.