Chapter 157 - Identity Crisis?
"No, that's not what I meant, Ely... We did talk about this before. But, somehow, I just became aware of something..." Elena shook her head slowly. It wasn't something she wanted to talk about.
"Em? Then, please give a little detail?" Blinking innocently, Elysia waited for the girl who was rearranging her sentence in her mind.
"You know, I've been thinking about this... From a long time ago, even now, Ely, you have an identity crisis that's still unanswered... You're aware of that, and I'm here offering to be your support, can you tell?" Elena spoke so softly and gently. She held Elysia's hand as she looked at her face.
Elena remembered the other most important thing, and it suddenly worried her. If allowed to continue like that, it would be the thing she least wanted to happen to her little sister.
"Mm, identity crisis, this is psychology... We can be our own worst enemies without even knowing it. We fall victim to our own minds when we don't know our true identity. However, strangely enough, I'm aware of that... Am I still like that, from this past week that we spent together, Sister Elena?"
Elysia finally understood what her beautiful guardian angel was concerned about. She smiled, then looked towards the front, staring at her Soul Realm's vastness that was like a vast universe in outer space.
"Honestly, no. You haven't, not since last week. But I got worried... What if..." Elena put on a worried face. She was so caring and paid a lot of attention only to Elysia. However, she hadn't finished with what she wanted to say... Elysia's delicate finger suddenly came to her lips.
"En, that's right. Like you said a few days ago, Sister Elena. We have a new life with too many possibilities. Just because of you, your presence, your support, and your care... I am slowly starting to move forward from the past." Elysia looked back at Elena, gently gripping the hand that was still holding hers.
"It's a difficult thing for me if there is only me here, starting everything myself, and still feeling alone. Since knowing you exist within me, someone who knows more about myself than myself, I no longer want to feel alone, not anymore. Thank you." Expressing her gratitude, so Elena didn't worry too much, Elysia conveyed it gently and sincerely.
Elena was somewhat relieved to hear it in person. She smiled warmly as her lips freed from Elysia's delicate index finger. "You're welcome. I'm glad to hear that."
The atmosphere was so comfortable. Elena didn't have to worry so much anymore. In fact, with just her and her presence had become a more critical factor for Elysia's recovery than anything she had previously predicted. It was a better thing.
"Ah, talking about an identity crisis. I always wonder who I am? What is my value? What is my real purpose in living? I fell to the point, I don't really care about who I am anymore. What's the difference between a man and a woman? Yes, I lost my old identity the first day I was stranded in this world, but not anymore, I'm used to it now."
Elysia confessed what she had thought and felt some days ago when she had just been stranded in this world and had not yet met Elena.
"Sister Elena, for your previous question, that's not all. Maybe, I will quickly get used to my situation even though I'm transmigrated or reincarnated into something else. Like caterpillar, mosquito, slime, or even an inanimate object hehe..." Seeing Elena who only blinked her eyes as if waiting for the continuation, Elysia made a closing sentence that sounded comforting.
"Wha, what? If you become an inanimate object, that means you are a spirit within a thing. If that happens, can I still exist in your Soul Realm? I wonder?" Elena was surprised and giggled softly for a moment. Then she ran her finger against her cheek while imagining if they were inside an inanimate object like a sword.
"Hmm-hmm, don't take it too seriously... Those are just hyphenation words. Life is constantly changing, and so are we, whether we realize or not."
"Ufufu, I know that." Elena covered her mouth, chuckled because of Elysia's awkward yet adorable expression.
"Nee, Sister Elena." After a moment of silence while looking at the beautiful scenery within the Soul Realm, Elysia suddenly spoke.
"Hmm?"
"What can we do here and what are you used to doing here, is it just floating around?" Elysia once again checked the surroundings, and there was nothing there.
"Well... Since you were on Earth, I spent a lot of my time just sleeping, I was so sleepy most of the time. Even so, it didn't prevent me from knowing what you were doing and what you were going through." Elena confessed innocently.
There was nothing in the Soul Realm, and all she did was just floating around. Apart from checking out Elysia, whether it was on Earth or in this world, she was just lazing around all the time. Styling Elysia's spirit hair was probably the thing she did the most in the past week.
What Elena thought, indirectly conveyed to Elysia. The latter immediately checked out her long black hair that had been styled and became the former masterpiece.
"Um, now, what's this hairstyle?"
"I don't know the name of that hairstyle, but I've seen it from some of the women you met while on Earth. Since the braid is a bit like a snake, then we just call it snake braid, yes, a proper name hehe..." Elena clapped happily. She was proud of her work that might compete with professional hairstylists.
"Woah, you have become so good at hairstyling, Sister Elena... My helpless spirit has become the medium for your training." Elysia checked her hair once again from a third-person perspective, thanks to her advanced perception, which oddly enough could be used here too.
"Hehe... Of course, my memory is good and very reliable in times of need." Didn't digest Elysia's point, Elena just giggled at the compliment.
"En, now it's my turn to practice hair styling. We both have long hair, and it fits perfectly. It's not fair with only me being given a hairstyle, so should you." Elysia gave a profound smirk, and she raised her hand a little as if she wanted to catch a small rabbit.
"Eh? You want to do my hair too, Ely? But, now that I think about it... My hair really suits the current one, it's already wavy and falling down."
"Don't make excuses, Sister Elena. I'm quick to learn, so don't move and let me play a little with your hair hehe..." Elysia caught her practice medium named Elena, as her gratitude for the given hairstyle.
"Ah, um, okay, I'll teach you." It was a bit unexpected, but Elena nodded and allowed her hair to be styled by Elysia.
For the next few hours, the two of them played around in the Soul Realm just to practice hair styling. More precisely, Elena taught Elysia how to style a woman's beautiful hair the right way, with various hairstyles.
Until Elysia was satisfied, she was finally able to skillfully give Elena some good hairstyles. Elysia was still with her snake braid, while Elena ended up with a long hair updo, the umpteenth work of Elysia's delicate hands.
"Ely, it's probably past midnight, you don't want to sleep? Tomorrow is Blessing Day, right?" Elena casually hovered beside Elysia.
"Yes, I'll sleep in a little bit. That was fun, Sister Elena hehe..." Elysia couldn't help but giggle. Hairstyling was something new for her to learn, a skill needed for someone with long hair.
"Hmm, you do learn fast, Ely. But, I haven't forgotten how you styled my hair some time ago... I looked ridiculous." Even though she spoke like a girl who was being bullied, Elena didn't really feel that way.
There were several stages in learning something new, and she understood it. She completely forgot how many times the strange hairdos she gave to Elysa's helpless spirit.
"Hmm-hmm, that was me when I was still stiff and not yet proficient a few hours ago, I as Elysia at the current time, apologized for her past self mistakes." Elysia chuckled and spoke in a poetic melody.
"Hfmp... What's with that chuckle and your quirky apology? I've heard this twice." She really wanted to giggle too, but she held it back and wanted to look like a bullied girl, but she failed very much. Elena just covered her mouth while talking. She didn't want to look silly.
"That means, please forgive me." Elysia flew right in front of Elena, straight to the point without the twists and turns.
"Okay, your apology is accepted hehe..."
Elysia smiled as the girl in front of her giggled sweetly, an exchange that was both simple and pleasant. She always enjoyed every moment she spent with Elena.
If her arrival into this world was just a dream, she didn't want to wake up from sleep only to return to her past. Not after she enjoyed the feeling of someone accompanying her all the time.
"Nee, Sister Elena, will you take over my body once in a while? I wish to become the support in the Soul Realm once again." No wind and no rain, Elysia suddenly suggested that.