Chapter 2302 - 1150: Healing

Chapter 2302: Chapter 1150: Healing

At this moment, Asa Vanni was very flustered.

Although she had always hoped that one day she could awaken from the madness of cursed knowledge and live a truly carefree life, but just as an illness fears treatment, the Evil God Witch at this moment was like a patient afraid to see a doctor. Her rational mind told her she should seek treatment actively, but emotionally she was filled with fear.

What if it still can’t be cured this time? Without hope, there won’t be despair, maybe it’s better not to try? Anyway, one can get used to being mad, and there’s still almost forty-nine years before the final deadline, no need to rush.

Moreover, even if she went for treatment, it’s not certain that it would be cured, on the contrary, there is a significant risk of treatment failure, and once that happens, the consequences would be terrifying. Without treatment, I still have forty-nine years of freedom, but once treatment fails, I might just bite the dust.

No, it’s too scary, too frightening, I’m scared.

Asa Vanni trembled.

Even though she often proclaimed herself as the great Future Fourth King, the Apocalyptic Witch destined by the Heavenly Mandate, acting as if she was very powerful, but people often flaunt what they lack by saying it repeatedly.

So, she isn’t great at all, nor is she some chosen one beloved by destiny. On the contrary, she is a surplus person, merely a test subject forced into being by the Mother of the World and the Three Kings.

And she’s a failed test subject, at that.

Why does she feel she has failed?

Do I even need to mention it? A successful test subject wouldn’t go insane halfway.

Moreover, the Three Kings Teacher never had any expectations for her right from the start, otherwise, they wouldn’t have let her loose like this, saying things like ’do whatever you like’, do you see any parent who truly cares about their child doing that?

Those children who are truly loved bear the expectations of their elders and are given high hopes, strictly taught from a young age, unlike being liberally raised as she was.

So, the Mother of the World doesn’t love her, the Three Kings Teacher doesn’t love her, not even the Assembly of Sages down there believe in her.

Ah, indeed, who would care about the feelings of a failure? Those truly cherished are perfect beings like Dorothy.

Thinking of the differential treatment she and Dorothy received, the Evil God Witch couldn’t help but feel a sourness in her nose. She’s not even worth being a substitute.

If possible, she really wished she could shove all responsibility onto others, find a scapegoat to bear all the blame, attributing all her misfortunes to their existence.

And the best scapegoat is clearly Dorothy, it’s her existence that makes me look like a failed clown.

Yes, yes, it’s all Dorothy’s fault, if only she didn’t exist, then everyone would love me.

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"Ah, if only thinking that way could make it all easier."

Asa Vanni sighed inwardly.

She ultimately wasn’t foolish enough to evade reality to that extent, she couldn’t so naturally pin her misfortunes onto someone else.

Moreover, she really couldn’t bring herself to resent Dorothy.

She ultimately wasn’t like the Demon King Teacher, a true Merry Maker, who could delight even in her own misfortune, as long as there’s amusement.

Her usual enjoyment of amusements was merely a naive imitation of her teacher, in reality, she couldn’t accept truly becoming a clown, just the thought of such a thing was utterly unacceptable.

So, it was impossible for her to resent Dorothy, really.

Although they had known each other for less than a year, that person was like the Sun, illuminating her world full of darkness and haze, this past year was also the happiest and most joyful year since her birth.

If possible, she really wanted to stay by Dorothy’s side forever, just be an ornamental hat on her, if she could peacefully pass the remaining forty-nine years in happiness like this, even if she had to disappear then, the Evil God Witch felt she could leave with a smile.

Thinking about it, a mortal’s life lasts only around a hundred years, so living peacefully like a mortal isn’t such a difficult thing to accept.

Hence, my illness really isn’t something that must be cured.

Asa Vanni thought to herself.

Yes, Dorothy previously promised she would definitely cure her, she was genuinely happy and moved at that time, but now that the time for treatment had really come, she was indeed reluctant, truly afraid, what if the treatment failed, she’d only truly lived for a year, there were still many, many experiences she hadn’t had yet.

She really didn’t want to die.

In any case, it’s time to run, escape first before anything.

Escaping might be shameful, but it’s really effective.

The Evil God Witch wanted to flee.

Just....

"Don’t be afraid, senior."

A hand firmly grasped Asa Vanni’s figure that wanted to run away, and then that familiar voice resolutely echoed beside her ear.

It was Dorothy.

The Evil God Witch turned her head and saw that devastatingly beautiful face, now earnest and serious, on this face there was absolute confidence and sincerity, just looking at it, made one inexplicably feel at ease.

"Senior, please trust me, I will always stay by your side, you will soon get better."

Dorothy looked straight into senior Fanny’s eyes, reaffirming.