Chapter 834 - 81: Unfathomable

"Isn’t there... a way to change back?"

Finally.

Chen Lusi couldn’t help but ask.

After all, the current situation was too strange.

He couldn’t let go, nor could he hold on, and it seemed like the person involved didn’t care at all. Instead, he was the one who cared a lot.

But the problem is.

Isn’t this something the person involved should be worried about?

"Do you think there is?"

Xia Panqiu heard that, paused for a moment, then slightly raised her snowy chin and asked back.

"I think ???"

Chen Lusi heard these words and felt terrible: "Aren’t you confusing something? I’m male, and you’re asking me to choose?"

"It’s okay."

Xia Panqiu instinctively replied: "I want you to choose."

However.

After saying that.

She realized something and explained awkwardly: "Of course, not all males can, only limited to you, after all, only you have seen this state..."

"...wait a minute."

Chen Lusi suddenly realized something and slightly turned his head.

As he turned his head, the surrounding spiritual power immediately gathered into threads, taking over Chen Lusi’s duties.

And Chen Lusi himself slowly let go.

Xia Panqiu was stunned for a moment, then lowered her head, her pretty short hair suddenly seemed... to lose all its vitality.

"...Does it feel uncomfortable?"

Chen Lusi didn’t notice Xia Panqiu’s state, he just wanted to get himself out of the awkward situation.

After all, in that kind of situation, there wasn’t even time to think.

This feels much better now.

Xia Panqiu shook her head: "Hmm..."

"That’s good then."

Chen Lusi breathed a sigh of relief and then thought for a bit... not continuing to stare at Xia Panqiu, instead slowly turning around to look at the sea, which appeared more turbulent than at dusk: "By the way, when you said you wanted me to choose earlier... I actually hope you get along with me in whatever way you find comfortable, whether it’s the more comfortable compressed form or the normal form no one else has seen, as long as you feel comfortable about it.

Living comfortably or showcasing your charm, I think both are great."

Xia Panqiu heard that and slowly lifted her head, once again looking at the side of Chen Lusi’s face.

"As for your worry that I might not be around next summer, and your fear of increasing distance, causing a rift."

Chen Lusi noticed her gaze, turned his head, and said with a gentle smile: "I don’t think it will happen, no matter what, no matter how we first met, you, Si Yujie, Xia Yue, Wu You, the four of you... are people I can’t forget, no matter how far I go, because you are witnesses to a turning point in my life.

If my first half of life only included Lin Ying and Lin Wan, the second half had you among a few more.

Although meeting you was passive, was pushed into, and initially even a little unwilling.

But no matter what, you are the ones who have walked with me to this point.

Especially you.

I almost personally witnessed you stripping away your outer shell step by step from being a hedgehog, revealing the essence of a clumsy girl inside... To be honest, it’s hard for me to forget, I still remember the scene of you executing what I jokingly talked about."

Xia Panqiu’s face was a bit hot.

She knew exactly what Chen Lusi was referring to... the first time she wore white stockings to apologize.

"So, I’m not trying to become some sort of martyr; I just simply want the witnesses at the crossroads of my life to live happily and steadily... Just like in those movies, the friends who have seen each other’s most downtrodden states, gone through tough times together, can communicate sincerely even when their positions or statuses differ.

I hope you all can be that kind of presence."

Chen Lusi paused here, then said helplessly: "You should know too, ever since the prosecution incident, my position has completely changed... and honestly, I don’t like that feeling."

"..."

Xia Panqiu remained silent.

She surely knew.

Even those within the Celestial Strategy Mansion... aside from Tang Language, Ji Xin, and a few others, many were a bit wary, or to be more straightforward, somewhat afraid and intimidated by Chen Lusi after the prosecution incident.

Especially since... Chen Lusi had even taken aggressive action against the original Celestial Strategy leader.

This fear may not be obvious, and it might not cause a significant impact.

But, it would certainly lead to some degree of isolation for Chen Lusi.

Just like Xia Yue did once.

No, maybe even more severe than Xia Yue.

Because Chen Lusi is more introverted.

And Xia Yue was at least extroverted and very outgoing.

"So... it will be hard for me to meet people like Sister Siyu and you again, how could I possibly forget about you guys."

Chen Lusi looked at the silent Xia Panqiu, then hesitated and reached out his hand, gently ruffling her pretty short hair: "After all, you witnessed me being controlled by storm, rampaging around, and at my most awkward moment as the so-called Chen Tiance, you were right there, even fought with me.

And even without considering that, your clumsy actions alone are memorable.

For example, just now, clearly knowing your intimate apparel only suited your smaller form, yet choosing to remove your Authority Ability and eventually needing someone else’s help to avoid embarrassment... I believe, aside from you and Tang Language, no one else would do such things. So how could I forget?"

Xia Panqiu felt the large hand on her head, her ears turned bright red, feeling a bit shy and finally, honestly said in a very small voice: "I thought you liked someone like Xiaoxiao..."

Hearing this, Chen Lusi sighed: "Never mind, this could be considered... a memory point."

"..."

Xia Panqiu lifted her snow-white jade foot and gently kicked Chen Lusi’s ankle.