Married to his secret crush

''You won't die. I won't let you,'' Han Jian Yu said, there was an unmistakable depth in his dark eyes, ''Not again,'' He swore.

Yu Mei found it harder to breathe and she looked up, ''When I woke up in this body, I only pretended to be strong. But to be honest, I was clueless and I was scared,'' her eyes welled up with tears. She hated herself for crying this easily all the time but it just happened. She was always this vulnerable in front of the people she loved. ''I...'' She wiped her eyes with the back of her palm before looking at him. 

Han Jian Yu grabbed her hands as he stroked her palm with his finger, making no moves to stand up. 

''I was not used to not having you around. I didn't know where Luoluo was. Rosette was almost bankrupt and I even had thoughts about abandoning my company...'' Yu Mei paused before continuing, ''Zixuan... When I saw him, I had a little hope in my heart. But he... I found that he was not like the person I knew before. He hated his wife. And I who had occupied his wife's body was also hated by him. It was not his fault..'' She added before he could misunderstand Jun Zixuan, ''Circumstances were like that but the thing is that everything left me hopeless at times.'' 

Han Jian Yu felt strange suffocation in his heart. It was as if someone was crushing it. He never knew she went through all these. When they first met, she told him with a smile that 'I have got it. I have handled everything well and it is all fine now' and he did not doubt her. 

Did she mean this by saying it was easy?

''I could not sleep at night thinking that someone is here in my room to assassinate me. There will be times when I wake up in the middle of the night and I will run to him to make sure that I am not waking up in a different place. I was psychologically and mentally drained and shaken,'' It was the first time she was confessing this to anyone and more probably, admitting it to herself too. Yu Mei looked at the dark wooden desk as if she could see those incidents flashing in her mind. 

''How did you get over it then?" It took him some time to find his voice. 

''I persisted because of you. I thought that you would be sad without me and would drown yourself with your work without caring about your health. Danny and Sunny are too afraid to scold you so I had to be there.'' 

Han Jian Yu laughed as he pressed a kiss on her palms, ''Silly.'' 

''Everything got better. I found Luoluo, I handled the company matters and... I and Zixuan started to understand each other. We went back to how we were in the past, back to being best friends-''

''You should have remained friends. Why did you have to marry that rascal?"

The door to the study room opened and Jun Zixuan stepped inside, ''Was I mentioned?" 

Han Jian Yu's lips thinned. This sly man... ''I was just praising you. Thinking why you didn't marry each other before.''

Yu Mei: "_" What episode is this? Did I walk into another world? 

Yu Mei was rather not used to her brother being this docile and loving with Jun Zixuan. Did she miss anything? 

Taking a deep breath, she said, ''But everything is finally settling in its right place and it is good if it remains this peaceful,'' She stood up from the chair and helped him up, ''Brother, tell us the truth,'' They could have gone to the Han Family to seek for answers but they held back from involving with them because of Han Jian Yu as he seemed to have enmity with them.

Han Jian Yu closed his eyes. For him, this so-called truth was like a Dragon's inverse scales that he did not prefer to be poked but when he opened his eyes, a determined glint flashed in them, ''I can tell you but there is this one thing that you should know...'' 

Yu Mei glanced at him quietly, waiting for him to continue. 

''After this, everything will be up to you and...'' Han Jian Yu closed his eyes, stopping himself from speaking any further. He pulled her into his arms, ''You can not...'' He could not find proper words to explain his feelings. 

Yu Mei stepped back from him, there was a hint of confusion in her eyes as she looked at him before looking at Jun Zixuan who was sitting on the couch. 

Yu Mei said, ''Brother, you have to know that no matter what happens, I won't change neither will my perspective about anything will change. So, you can trust me with anything,'' She grabbed his hand and dragged him to the couch. 

Looking at her applying so much strength to make him move, he finally budged from his place, recalling the old days where she used to do the same. It was just him who won't budge from his place at that time.

*Flashback*

''From this day onwards, you will be looking over her and guard her,'' Han Sheng patted his back. 

''Was I brought here for this father?" He had to leave his village, his maternal grandma, and grandpa just to do this? ''I am not going to babysit her,'' As young as he was, there was a decisiveness in his tone. 

Han Sheng massaged his forehead, ''You have to.'' 

''Just throw her in the wild,'' Han Jian Yu coldly said, a layer of frost was there on his face, ''She will learn to grow up surrounded by a pack of wolves or cubs. I survived in the village for years so can she.. What does it have to be me babysitting her?" The boy adjusted the collar of his shirt while speaking as he frowned.