Married to his secret crush

''How is it possible?" A conflicted expression appeared in his eyes. No matter how high his acceptance level was, whatever she was saying was still a bit unbelievable. 

She sighed, ''Well, this is whatever it is regardless of how weird it is. I just died and woke up in this body.''

''You died…'' His grip tightened on her as he pulled her closer to him.

''Yu Mei Zhen passed away in that accident…''

He frowned, ''After she woke from the coma..''

''No, I told you. It was me, not her,'' She shook her head, ''When I woke up, I thought I was still alive and some kind person saved me. That's why I lost control of my emotions when Steward Gu addressed me as Miss Yu and then I saw myself in the mirror.''

He stroked her back. Just listening to it from her mouth was making his heart ache. He did not know what she had to go through all this time. A part of him wished that he could have known about all this from the very beginning….

''Don't think like that,'' It did not take her much effort to know what he was thinking as she noticed his guilty expressions, ''Had you known about all this, we would have been 'just friends' till now…" She was very sure about that. Their relationship would never have come to this if he had known who she was. 

Jun Zixuan was never rude around Han Mei just the way everyone wants to be perfect to their crush. He was understanding, caring, gentle, and an angel to Han Mei. 

But after she woke up in Yu Mei Zhen's body did she realize that everything she has known about him was just a small part of him. He was not exactly an angel.

His mood swings, his temper, his coldness….the way he preferred his coffee served on the left, and every small detail that she missed out on in her previous life.

She realized that there was more to him that she was unaware of. Usually calm and unfazed, but she was amused at how easily he was ticked off by her words, and how he never once hesitated to point a sword at her throat. 

Sometimes a jerk. Sometimes a devil. 

He was cunning. Sly. 

He tricked her at times, fought with her almost every day, was rude to her and they were no less than sworn enemies at that time. 

But alas..wasn't he the same man who became grumpy when she stopped talking to him?

When she had her period during that party in Shanghai, he panicked like he was the one who contracted a terminal disease. However angry he was, he never once disrespected her even though at times…she would have to admit that she had been a teeeeeeny-tiny bit…just a tiny bit bitchy towards him. 

He was jealous, possessive, controlling but all in all, when has he ever restrained her from doing anything that she had wanted?

He kicked her out of his mansion but renovated the university dorm for her.

Even when she kept secrets from him, lied to him, he never pressed her for an answer. 

''Had you known I was Han Mei, how could I have seen the real you?" She sniffed as she rubbed the tip of her nose on his chest. 

He pressed a soft kiss on the top of her head, ''How come I never got to know that you are such a crybaby?"

She glared at him, "You have been with me for half a year. How could you not know? I still cry over the way Jack died in Titanic.''

Jun Zixuan laughed, ''Well, I'm talking about Han Mei. I never knew she was a crybaby. I just realized that I also have never known the real you,'' He never knew she was an emotional person for she was always distant and reserved around everyone.

She ended up laughing, ''So, something good happened that we got to know each other during this time. You should thank me that I lied to you.''

He pinched her waist, "You sound too smug for being a liar all this while?'' He rubbed the spot when she winced over-dramatically, "Then, when did you accept everything? And you seem to know Yu Family well.''

''…That day when I fainted, I got the memories of the previous owner. Strangely enough, after that, whenever I saw someone related to her, I will get flashbacks played inside my mind as those memories came in bits and pieces. It took me some time to accept it, to be honest. I was freaked out…''

Jun Zixuan sighed. 

''…But I was really happy and excited to know that I am going to meet you but you…'' She sat up straight so she could glare at him properly, ''You offered me a cheque of millions. Humph!'' 

He raised an eyebrow, ''Don't act innocent. You poured orange juice on me,'' He could still remember it crystal clear. That was the first time in his life that he experienced something that disgusting and worse, he could not even bring himself to teach her a lesson later when he looked into her eyes that reminded him of Han Mei.

She cleared her throat, ''Let's not hold grudges over the past,'' She leaned her face against his. 

He pecked the corner of her lips, ''You are starting it.''

''Sorry~''

''How did you die?" came the question that he wanted to ask from the very beginning but he held back to let her finish what she was saying. He was curious about everything but the question that bugged his mind the most was how she died, ''What happened to you?" His tone had a dangerous edge to it. 

"Han Family," She replied after thinking about it for a moment, ''I and my brother have been alone by ourselves all this while. But we do have a family. There are many Han families in Amaranthine so I am not sure where we belong and we have never looked into it because we never really needed a family…''

''You have a brother?" 

She nodded. 

''Jian Yu?" 

She nodded again but her eyes widened, ''How did you know?" She gasped.

For the very first time in his life, he felt like laughing at himself.

''All this while, I have been jealous of him…" He admitted after some time.

She was speechless, "Wait…Do me a favor and please elaborate.''