Married to his secret crush

The coldness in his voice was not foreign to her. He used to talk like this before. At that time however, she did not give a damn about it but right now…it felt terrible. 

A wry smile made its way on her face as she lowered her head, ''Looks like I've already frustrated you. I…won't bother you more then," She nodded, her eyes teared up. These fucking tears. Why do they come uninvited and make her appear like a miserable person that she is not? She sniffed, "I will leave….if that is what you want.''

"No explanations anymore?" His tone was still as cold as his rough fingers grazed past her tears that rolled down her cheeks.

"You don't want them…'' She sobbed, grabbing the collar of his shirt with one of her hands. 

''I am afraid it will be another lie on your part," His tone softened when she looked at him with those teary eyes. 

"I-I won't-''

"You won't?" His gaze flashed as he stepped back from her, "What makes you think I will believe it? Do you take me as a fool?" 

Her fingers curled into a fist as she lowered her head. 

"Everytime you lied to me, I knew it,'' He pinched her chin before tilting her face upwards, ''You were disgusted just at the sight of blueberry ice-cream even though you ate it to prove him wrong. Did you think I won't notice it? Or did you think I will miss the way you looked at each other like you know each other since decades? Have I ever asked you about it, huh?"

"I…''

"I never did. I wanted to give you the space that you want. You could have kept your secrets well but was there any reason for you to lie to me over and over again?'' His gaze deepened, ''You don't trust me at all, do you?" Letting go of her chin, he stepped back from her. 

''Listen to me-''

"Leave before I do something that I'll regret later," He closed his eyes and inhaled a deep breath, raking his fingers through his hair.

"I-''

''Leave.''

She pursed her lips, "Jun Zixuan, don't you dare to turn your back on me…" Her voice turned cold when he turned around. Her eyes teared up, "Even my brother has never treated me like this. You truly are something," She grabbed his sleeves. 

He was stunned at her outburst. He turned around to look at her, "Brother?" Why would she drag Yu Jinhai in all this?

"I'm not who you see me as…'' She shook her head. 

"What do you mean?" His eyes narrowed. 

''Would you believe me if I say that I am not the real Yu Mei Zhen? I am not the original owner of this body. I am just another soul-''

"What the heck are you talking about?" He stepped back from her with disbelief written all over his face. 

''Indeed,'' She closed her eyes, realizing that she should have done this much earlier without thinking of the consequences. Had she not been a coward all this time, she could have explained it to him in a better way rather than doing it in this do or die situation.

But on the other hand, something that Mu Shen told her boosted her confidence, "Your wife…wait..I am your wife now…Let's count her as ex-wife,'' She pettily corrected herself, "Whatever…that doesn't sounds good to me. Let's just say that Yu Mei Zhen…the real one is no more.''

"Is it even making any sense to you?" Jun Zixuan spoke through gritted teeth, his eyes narrowing at her, "Do you hear yourself?"

''It is," She smiled as she walked towards him, her heels making soft 'click' sounds with every step she took, "Since you wanted the truth. I'm giving it to you. Take your time accepting it but I am not Yu Mei Zhen…I repeat. She died in that accident. And I took over this body since the day I woke from coma. All this time, it was me…Not her," She folded her arms in front of her chest, looking at the astonishment on his face which soon disappeared.

She quietly looked at him. 

He looked into her eyes. Whenever she lied to him, it was pretty apparent on her face as she has never been a good liar despite her trying to be one. But right now, there was no lie or joke in her eyes. 

Jun Zixuan thought back to their initial times when he found her doing things which weren't recorded in what Steward Gu had investigated about her. She knew how to drive, she had helped him with his documents one even though Yu Mei Zhen was never proficient in many languages, she excelled in studies and it was not the only thing that he found strange. Yu Mei Zhen was a good cook and the woman in front of him was capable of burning down the whole kitchen. 

But never had he once thought that…she was a different person even though everytime he looked at her, she reminded him of…

"Who are you?" 

"You trust me?'' Her eyes lit up as she walked towards him. 

He quietly glanced at her. No matter whatever he concluded about her, it never included a bizarre thing like this. He never once doubted that she was another person. Such an impractical thing never crossed his mind before. But only an idiot would deny what was laid out before eyes. 

However shocked he was, he could trace the truth in her words but it still rendered him speechless. Everything was unbelievable.

But as he looked at her face silently…something clicked in his mind. 

The way she knew his name even when she was not supposed to know it. 

The way she was so weak in language subjects that she relied on him for help. 

Her confidence.

Her adamance. 

Her face. 

Her smile. 

Her eyes. 

Everything about her had been so familiar to him even though he never knew Yu Mei Zhen. They never had a proper conversation before but all of a sudden, he found himself falling for her hopelessly. 

"You are….''

"Your first love…" The corner of her lips tugged up as she stood in front of him, ''…Han Mei.''