Married to his secret crush

"I was immature back then. I got scared when they suddenly told me that I was engaged to someone. I did not have the courage to go against my family…."

"What are you talking about?'' Her brows tugged together. 

''I will accept anything you want…however you want to punish me….Let's get back together. I'll treat you just like the way I used to," When she opened her mouth to say something, he interrupted her as he stood up, "If you are going to mention my engagement then let me tell you that we have broken up this morning. I still love you. Let's get back to the way we used to be…''

"But I don't love you," She glanced at him with utmost seriousness as she folded her arms in front of her chest, "Back then, our breakup impacted me in many ways. I was motivated to work harder and get in the best university of Amaranthine to avoid bumping into you but at the same time, I started detesting things like love and relationship. My university years have been empty for me. A few friends and nothing else. No crush no love interest. I isolated myself for so long that I forgot what it was like to be in the company of people. It was all until he came. And suddenly, I started feeling for someone once again but the feelings were more intense than I have ever felt for you and so I subconsciously rejected it.''

"Is it Jun Zixuan?"

She smiled as she nodded looking into the distance. Her eyes teared up slightly at those memories. She blinked, "I refused to accept everything and soon. he disappeared from my life. I thought that was for the good until something major happened that got me under his roof. And over the course of time, every feeling that I had always rejected came back rushing to me but this time, it was not in my control anymore,'' She glanced at him, "Unlike you, he is not going to leave me. And even if he did, I will resort to each and every way to get him back to my side," She laughed, "Because, I am sure about him and there is no going back on it. Unlike our relationship where you never risked anything for me and I never made efforts for you, I want to give him everything that I have. I can risk anything for him.''

"And what about him? What if he doesn't loves you as much?" Jun Zihao glanced at her face, "What if he had other women? Or a woman from his past? What makes you think he won't cheat on you?"

She lowered her head. The mention of his ex was a sore thumb to her because initially, he mistook her for his first love under the influence of alcohol. ''I trust him," She sighed. Whatever and whoever gets between them, he won't let her down and she was sure of it.

Jun Zihao laughed, "It seems like I was being delusional.''

"It isn't love," She patted his shoulder, "Had it been love, you would not have survived for years without looking for me even once. You are just obsessed with that idea, nothing else."

He sighed, "You have matured regarding relationships and all."

"Of course," I have already transmigrated into another body. It will be weird if I still play dumb in my second life. She inwardly thought, "I don't hold grudges against you. Neither I am a petty woman who will curse her ex. Rest assured. I have forgiven you," She waved her hand nonchalantly. 

"Oh, your boyfriend saw us hugging just now."

She nodded, "That's fine. I will-'' Her eyes widened, "Wait…what?"

He pointed his chin at the mirrors in front of them before pointing his thumb towards the door behind, "I saw his reflection.'' 

Her jaws dropped, "I was blindfolded. I thought it was him...''

"He won't know that since you had your face buried in my chest," Jun Zihao raised an eyebrow, "We had a fight when he was leaving for work. He asked me whether I know you and I told him that I even know about your birthmark…"

She glanced at his swollen jaw. No wonder. No wonder he asked her about it, "You…Ahh..'' Her ankle got twisted the moment she retreated a step back. ''Jun Zihao, you are a hell of a jaded scoundrel, jerk, bastard, an inhumane crazy psychopath…'' She removed her heels and threw it at him before running away. 

He caught her heels in his hand before smiling at them, "And who told you that I have not looked for you over the years?" He closed his eyes. 

Perhaps, he deserved this for the way he treated Su Ning. 

…

Yu Mei glanced at the empty room blankly. His absence made everything around her cold. 

It was not until now when she stood in front of Jun Zihao did she realize that Jun Zixuan has always been more than a friend to her. She was just too afraid to accept the fact.

Her phone started ringing right at this moment. She glanced at the caller ID before swiping the answer option, "Luoluo, he left me…" She mumbled without looking at the woman as she glanced at the empty room. 

"What are you talking about?" Shi Luo whispered. 

Yu Mei sat on the floor before leaning back on the bed, "I don't know…He saw me with Jun Zihao and misunderstood me. I…"

"Who told you to speak so many lies?" Shi Luo reprimanded her in a soft voice, "You should have told him the truth-''

"Told him the truth... Told him the truth… Is it that fucking easy?" She snapped at Shi Luo. Tears rolled down her cheeks as she sobbed, "How the hell should I have told him the truth knowing that it might change everything between us if he knows that his wife is not his wife and is another soul. And….if he knows I am…"

''Shhh…Speak slowly.''

''Why? You always taunt me to stop lying but now I am stating the truth, you don't want to listen to me anymore?" She wiped her tears with the back of her hand, "I have deluded myself that we are just friends for a long time. What makes you sure that he won't be conflicted about his feelings if he comes to know that the person he loved was not the person he believed her to be. If he knows that I am Han Mei, everything between us will go back to square one-''

''Who did you say you were?!!"

The phone almost fell from her hand as she tilted her head down to look at Mu Shen who had his face enlarged in front of the camera. 

''Give me back my phone…'' Shi Luo shouted from the back. 

Mu Shen glanced at Yu Mei's pale face before looking at Shi Luo, ''You are going to explain this to me. In details,'' He said to her and  turned to look at Yu Mei, ''And you…no wonder you resemble her so much. I don't what is going on here but if you are Han Mei, then you have tortured my friend pretty well."

"W-What do you mean?" Her eyes widened. 

''You want to know?" Mu Shen glanced at her seriously, lacking the usual mischief from his expressions. 

She nodded. 

''Then start with your side first. How the heck in the world Yu Mei Zhen and Han Mei could be the same person?"

Yu Mei glanced at Shi Luo before looking back at Mu Shen.

''I died,'' She said.