Chapter 236 - Not A Phoenix From Those Legends.
"What was it?" Li Xue asked as she turned to face the man after tugging her baby under the blanket. Though she has decided to wait but thinking about it, she no longer could wait to know what was troubling him.
Feng Shufen did not say anything. He just raised his brows at her, asking her in his unspoken words. The woman looked at him for quite some moment, as if letting him know about what she was talking about. But when the man did not reply even after some minutes, she turned once to look back at her baby and then holding the man's hand she pulled him outside.
The man did not stop her. He let her take him wherever she wanted.
Li Xue brought him back outside in the living hall and then stopping him in the middle, she asked, "Earlier in the car and then after returning back from the dinner, you looked off. What happened?"
Her words held some concern but the attitude with which she was asking was making her look none less than a lady from the darkest world … as if she was challenging him to keep his thoughts secret for one more second and be ready to take the consequences.
Guessing the attitude just as she was presenting, the man let out a chuckle as his eyes never left her face. Seeing him getting so ignorant, Li Xue brought her hands up to fold at her front and said with an unwavering expression.
"Shufen! I am serious!"
And before she could understand anything, she was pulled only to get crashed on the man's firm body.
This man really … really has lightning-swift actions. She did not know when he got his arms on her waist and when did she get so close to him.
"Love! Don't you dare seduce me or you might not be able to take the consequences", he said softly, bringing his face to hover over her. His breath fanning her face, sending chills of anticipation down her spine.
She was confused with his words, wanting to ask him to reason his accusations on her but she was not able to collect her strength to ask him fiercely anymore. His grey sterling eyes doing some magic on her … more like hypnotism. Making her go weak only for him.
"When did I try to do any such thing? Don't accuse me falsely", finally after a good moment, she was able to get those words out of her lips.
"Do you think that you even need to do something? The way you look at me is enough to cause my death" he said and Li Xue's breath got hitched. She opened her mouth to say something but the words were simply not rolling out from her throat.
What was he asking her now? Did he really mean that just by her gaze his desires can turn on? Now, what should she do? Did she have to look away every time he is in front of her? No way, she is not doing any such thing? How in this world will she be able to take such a punishment?
Her eyes got wide at her thoughts. Bringing her arms up, on his chest, she pushed him lightly away from her and then said with a feeling of unjust, "In no way I am going to stop looking at you. And how can you accuse my gaze? The fault must be in the level of your pervert-ness. Hmph!"
The man chuckled as he looked at her adorableness. His heart already got stuffed with pride, hearing her claiming him. Shaking his head in acceptance, he said, "I guess I can't deny that. Pervert- ness! I will definitely become one. But the reason is definitely you. You bring out both the best and worst of me at the same time."
Li Xue squinted her eyes at him. "You better not try to make me forget the start of our conversation. I can see through your fine tricks". At her mentioning it back again, suddenly the man's expressions got stiff. He looked at her and tried to contemplate something in his head.
Li Xue can see him in thoughts. Seeing him like this made her grow more anxious. She so wanted to jump into his head to look at what he was thinking about but guess what she could only wait for him to reveal.
"I want you to get back in your previous form … want you to revive your dead dreams once again. Can you do that for me … for yourself?" he asked, maintaining his eyes at her. There wasn't any expectancy in his eyes, rather his eyes held a surety as if he was already positive about her accepting his idea.
"Huh?" Li Xue was confused at first, not at his words but by the confidence in his eyes. Instead of asking him, the meaning behind his words she simply said, "You know that every dream has some meaning behind. But for me those meanings itself are dead. Do you think I can revive it?"
She paused and then stated with a dim smile, "Shufen, I am not a phoenix in those legends that can rise up again from her ashes. I am just a mere human being, a little too strong to accept the defeat"
Her words were not rejecting the idea but were stating the reasons for no continuation. She no more looked pained with the thoughts, like she was the day when she revealed her past to him. It seemed like the reformation which Feng Shufen wanted back in her was almost on its way.
Curling his lips to give her the assurance, he said, smoothing her hair gently behind her ears. "You are Li Xue! You don't have to be a legendary phoenix to bring back what you lost. Your strength and determination will be enough to revive it. And my support is more than enough to nurture it to fly high up in the sky."
"Determination also needs a reason to bring back the strength when you are losing. And in my case, I think I have long lost all my reasons to continue and even to live, five years back. It was Li Wei that brought me the reasons to continue this life", she said as she tilted her head up to look at him. Her eyes allowing him to know the weakness she has hidden all this time from the world.
Feng Shufen's fists got clenched at the side. Though he has not seen her in that pain, just the thought of it was making his blood boil. "What if I help you in building a reason to attain this dream back? Will you continue it then?"