Chapter 197 - Won't He Think Her To Be A Desperate Woman.
Li Xue was having a tough time. With the pleasure she was receiving … she was feeling that it might be her end. The more his breaths struck her, the more she felt herself shivering. The more he touched her, the more she felt herself melting under his touch.
Taking the pleasurable, yet unbearable torture she writhed under his sensual touches. She wanted to push him away at once, but her body felt too weak to do anything such. Her chest was already heaving a little up and down due to the erratic pattern of her breaths. Her fingers were already clutching him hard like her dear life was just dependent on him.
One moment more of this torture and she felt like she would be lost in the dark abyss from where she won't have any return. Fearing to reach those consequences, she finally made her decision. A decision that has always been a tempting one for her. Tempted her for happiness, every woman's heart desires for.
"Yes, I got the answers. I got everything you wanted me to know" She said the words in one breath, thinking that if not yet admitted in front of him then it will not only be the devil winning over her but also her getting embarrassed to the extent of no return.
His lips were still busy in tracing the perfectly alluring lines of her jaws. It did not stop even after Li Xue's words got out as if it was no more under the control of her accepting words rather than under the control of a dark desire that has consumed both of them. Though her words were giving him the hints to stop his movements, her body movements were just going against that.
"Shufen, I accepted it already. Now end this already. It's getting a little … mhmm … Shufen, are you getting back on your words", her words screamed inside but when it came out her lips, it was merely a whisper, giving the hints of desire she was feeling inside.
As she said those words, she felt the man's lips curling little on her skin. Was he smiling? For what? Was it because he won in this game of acceptance and rejection? How cruel!
"I would never go back on my words, my dear! I am just waiting for you to complete your words", he pulled a little away to bring her the clarity and then again went back to the work he was making himself skillful in.
Was there still something to complete? Didn't I already say that I got the reasons and answers? She thought inside feeling confused when suddenly heard him murmuring lightly over her skin. "It's not only enough for you to know the answers. You need to accept them willingly, with your voice so that you can remember it to not forget it again".
He said and Li Xue understood what those words meant. She knew what he wanted her to accept. Not arguing anymore with the Devil, she said all in once. "I understood my different feelings for you. I got the reasons why I felt so aggrieved when I heard you saying whatever you said earlier to Ms Kim. I knew that all those had been because …."
Now it was the turn of the man to feel the torture. His movement halted when heard her words of acceptance finally getting on her lips. His expressions went still as he moved a little back to look at her face. "Because …? Because what?"
Their eyes locked on each other. Her amber ones on his steely ones, as if it was trying to borrow some strength from his grey orbs. And that strength was found to give her the courage when she felt the assuring long fingers of the man gently caressing her through her hair. In just a moment, all the haste and the erratic time from minutes before was replaced.
Replaced by the warm, tender and sweet love, he has got for her. With his gentle caresses, soon her hasty breath from earlier got normal and her heart that was getting all anxious was also relaxed. She looked at him as her eyes showed glimmers. She has long known that she has fallen for him but has always restrained her but after what happened today, she no longer thinks she would be able to restrain herself.
This man truly knows how to handle her both in good and worse. What else will a woman wish in a man other than him being capable of loving her in both her good and worse? Nothing else, I guess.
Getting those words clear in her head, she did not wait. Keeping her eyes fixed at him, she leaned a little to him, wrapping her arms over his shoulders for support as she placed a soft, soothing and chaste kiss on his lips, on her own initiative.
Something for which the man has waited like a whole century. Her initiative! Though she has shown two, last night still those were far – far away from what she was presenting him now. His body went still and stiff when felt her lips over his all willingly. He did not move, rather let her do whatever she wanted to do with him.
The kiss was nothing like what they have done moments before. This time, it was more sweet and soft. The movements were all one-sided. Li Xue was showing the initiative, so it was her sucking and nipping over it. To say that it was just sloppy would not be able to state the exactness of the situation.
With her movements, Li Xue did not know what she was doing. She was just guiding herself to make the man know the reasons she has got earlier. But when she felt him no more responding to her, she sighed and pulled away in disappointment.
Her eyes a little lowered to hide her embarrassment. "Sorry, I know it wasn't the best. But I wanted to let you know the reasons I understood earlier. I wanted to let you know that I no longer want to take our relationship to be fake. That … I …"
She paused not knowing which word would be more suitable for the situation. Like? Or Love? Though she preferred it to be love … But won't that make him feel that she was getting way too fast? Though it has always been him like that.
No, she could not dare to make him think that she was some desperate type of girl. She wanted to maintain her sweet charms. Don't women prefer to be all innocent in front of the man she loves?
Yes, yes, only that way the man would love them for a long time! I will be the same with Mr Beelzebub too. Furthermore, I have already ruined everything with my sloppy kiss … now I can't take the chance. God! Why do I suck in such experiences!